Suddenly ponder back to my blog after ages.... Been awake through the whole nite, couldn't sleep... Felt kind of helpless, wonder if the choices I made in life is really that terrible....

I really have no motivation in the things I am doing.... Arghhhh

Pieces of memories flashing back... Really wasted my life away...

Damn, I need help!!

OMG!!!

I really say it out I really say it out!!!

Fucking proud of myself that I really said it out!!!!!!! WHAAAAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAAAA

FUcking high, dunno how to control myself!!!! WOOOAHHHHHHH

THink i was too high just now till I vomited sia!!

Happy ~ ~

Just finished my basketball game, freaking sprain my leg~ ~ KAOZ!!!! old liaoz hahahaa

Was walking home just now and found a quiet place to sit down. Quietly thinking and sorting out my head for 1 hour plus. Reflecting is good for me !!

I have decided on what to do already. Going to start work on tuesday and see how things goes for this first before i go over my friends company to help him.

Should not be so sturborn liao la ~ ~ thought carefully le, I should do what I believe in and want to.

I am so much clearer today and I love this feeling. Francis is back to his normal state!! Need to start planning for work things liao ~ ~ Hahaaha, hope i can get a car before May!!

Hey, and u better come back quickly. Dun let the whole world worry for you yeah ? Everything is A ok liao ~~~ :)

My Bad

Aiyoooo, seems like i created stress for you yeah ? Sorry ~ ~ ~

Was really only trying to share with you the good news I had, did not know I actually gave u pressure. Hope you dun be too sensitive ~ ~

Dunno if you really went Klang but if you did, enjoy yourself. Life is suppose to be simple, just do the things you like and enjoy the process.

There are many things I would like to say but maybe you cannot take me as a real friend to accept it first, well be more open to the things around you. So many ppl care :)

Yesterday was a good time for me and Joy, went for a drink with her and we catch up like old times, so funny.

She actually said I changed, hahahahahaaaaa... got scolded by her though but well, I guess we all go through this once a while..

She said this exact words to me
J: Brother, where is the Francis I know ?? Always know how to qiu ren but dunno how to qiu yourself. Cannot la, I looked down on your for the first time lo.

F: First time I really so serious mah, bo pian KARMA lo ~ ~ Just let her think about things and be happy cos no matter what, a r/s should be happy and not some stressful events. Who knows how things will work out again.

J: What how things will work out, SIAO AH. You were never like that de lo, last time always go chiong ONS and having Flings and letting me bump into you a few time (roll eyes). Must changed man ah, too bad other ppl dunwan you !!!! HaHaHa..

F: OIE!!! give some face can. I just need to get back to normal life first bah cos if not always cannot give people any future or security also mah.

Hahaahaa happy time spent

Xiao mao mi, if you are looking at this post, just wanna tell you. Dun avoid me ah, cos i got a gut feeling you are though i dunwan to say why.

You want to think about anything going through your mind and enjoy your life be it partying or knowing more people, JUST DO IT (NIKE). Nobody is going to stop you.

LETS PARTY!!!!! but sianz... starting work on tuesday liao ~ ~~ yawn ~~~ sore eyes!!!!

Moment to remember

Yesterday was one of the best day ever, a 12 hour date.

Went for a good japanese meal, movie and even to the flyer which I should have went long time ago.

the last 4 hour was the best moment, chit chat play games and most of all being a couple. You guys cannot imagine the happiness it brought me....

when the min pass the 12 hour, insane 30 min for me... hahahahaahahhahhaha never knew a person can mean so much to another that is not related....

I never thought that a person not moving can ever drop tears like movie actor that put eye drops. ( believe me it is possible, tested and proved )


Life has to be strong now le, Francis grow up ok ?? No longer young le, cannot play already.. time to do sth for yourself rather than for others le.... :)

xiao mao mi ~ ~
xiao puppy ~ ~

Kinda become i am like the arsehole now.... hahahaahaaa not easy being a human and even harder being a man ( translate in Chinese ) very true in real life.


Fly high and soar far as my heart will go for you just as far beyond.


Listening to Someone like you, and tear drop automatically... no good la... ok la give myself some leeway, last day was being like that ok ? bu yao zhe yang zhi le...

being like this made others cry for me as well... haizz.... guilty, sorry sis ~ ~ wo mei you yong la.. Last day like that yeah :)

:)

Nth much to write though, just feeling lost for a while back then.

But surprisingly somethings that my friends told me and certain scenes in a HK tv series got to understand more about life.

Coincidentally made me feel that maybe it was the first step that was taken wrongly and intention of ppl that created the fruit tat it bear..

Smile, nobody can really help me unless i start helping myself :)

I think I must be crazy

Haaaaaaaahhaaa what was i thinking for the past few days ???

All i should do now is work hard for what I want, regarding whatever the ending is, good or bad. I gave my best and work towards it le!!

Be happy :)