back ~ ~

Tired from a day of outing wif with my aunts.....

:) learnt to go wif the flow.....
Some good things are coming soon....hahaha....
:)

Going to read my past 1 year +++ blog sia.... review my own blog...hahaha

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life goes on....

Yawn....

a day to start...

8plus in the morning... could not sleep again... things just ended... dunno wat to type... seems to be so blank..

read a friend's blog and found how the situation seems quite familiar but only diff is the problems occur... Wat was the prob ?? think it does not serve as a problem anymore.... Is this a brand new day or is it a day of haywire day.......

I HATE YOU.... was a word often heard......
but no longer will be heard...
cos it had ended....
I _ _ _ _ YOU.........

wat is the four letter word that can fill the phase.... HATE, MISS , LOVE, .... does not matter le....

Was it really a excuse to ask for a time out ??

I once heard my friend said sth.... he say everynow and then to take a break in the things you do so as to enjoy your life further now the road and to appreciate it more each time u do so....

But wat i heard from another person was, it is just a excuse to run away from things... if u like doing it, why must u take a break and run away from the things u like to do...


I had my choice in Making a decision.....

Ever tried to do sth so hard but end up doing nth ?? I did.....
Ever tried doing sth so hard but got a ans that break the inner soul of you?? I did..
Ever wan sth so bad till the point u break down?? I did.....
Ever tried to change to make someone so hard that u miss yourself ?? I did....
Ever love someone to the point when u hated yourself?? I did......
Ever change for the sake for someone to reach the requirement of someone?? I did.....
Ever think you fail so badly that wan to take a break?? I did......
Ever get suspected for nth you have done?? I did......
Ever caught your loved one wif another guy without knowing?? I did....
Ever forgive someone to the point that u start thinking wat's right and not??I did..


Think the list can go down since i am in a lousy mood....

wasted feeling......

Mood Disappointed.....

A moment to remember....

Listening to some songs right now... having so much thought right now but no where to vexed out...hahaha....

Ever wonder wat your friends and loved one are doing on the very point of time when u needed them ?? Watching Tv?? Playing Games?? Out having fun ??
How would one know when u need them ? There is nothing that one can say or do.....

Listening to Open all Night by Bon Jovi....

Nice Song wif a meaning to understand.....haha... feel like escaping to a new surrounding.... where the world is totally new.... Different ppl, diff surround and even the air is different...

Y are my blog always sounds so sad ?? Well basically let me admit sth.... i often feels sad as the surrounding by me seems so cold.... Too cold to bear but den wat can be done ?

The world in me seems to be grey.... to grey to be true....

always seems to telling myself that i have a better life compare to many out there... but many a times i would ask myself another QNs: wat are the better things i have in life ?? a room of my own? shelter over my head ?? food on the table ?? clothes over my body ??

If there is something out there that i can find warmth wif.... i would gladly give up all that..... and i seriously mean it....

(Angels among us)<<< NIce song wif a meaning to touch...

I wan the feeling that i have longed to experience......
Do i really have to beg for it ????? or would that never happen to me in this life time..... Wat have i done to deserve this....

Mood: devastated......

The 2 types of music i listen to.... R&B and Sentimental songs.... R&B allows me to relax and vexed out watever a days of tiredness.... Sentimental songs touched me deep down where i had longed for.....

Almost everynite i would like listen to sentimental songs... regardless even if i listen to songs over a thousand times.... the feeling would just be there....

Mother day just passed a few days.... the day i have never celebrated in my life...

the one person that brought me to this world.... i never had a chance to thank her and say Happy mother day..... a most unfilial kid i am.....

i am very very empty right now.....

wat a day....

Bad start from the very first thing i did.... OPEN MY EYE....
but at least a good end cos i tio TOTO...haha.... lame........

WAt a day...... haiz....

Good thing just never last... well at least i think they dun...

The world is lonely ~ ~

Many ppl said that the world is filled wif happiness and joy
While other said that the world is just filled wif sadness

I say the world is filled wif ....... i dunno... i agree wif both the Ans...

Looking forward into the future and thinking about wat will happened or wat might happen just seems so argh.... Will be a good next time but there will be a very bad next time too.... hahha... wat am i referring to ?? I also not very sure about it..

Suddenly woke up and feel like so moodless..... Feel so sianz and restricted... too small..... does not seems logical... but it is just even more logical.... hahahaa....

Need a helping hand... but which hand am i looking for ?? The one hand that i can really hang on to as a survival.... Spiritually.....

Dwelling into the past seems so useless... but there are just ppl who does so... one of them is Me...

Why do ppl feel tired and sick of certain things at times ?? Give me some Ans pls....



The last time i felt like going to Sentosa was back a period of time....
Dun really like that place anymore... dunno y...

Ppl do change as times goes by... regardless wat kind of ppl and facing wat problems and things.... They will change... this is something that i am kinda sure....

May le.... 2 months after my poly life.... haiz.... waiting for the next chapter to unfold... hopefully very much different from wat i am facing be4.... :)

sick ~

Sick and tired...


THE END

Another of those nite ~

Good news : I got my second interview for my pilot application ~ ~ and that means i pass that stupid 5 hour test....

Main ~


Numb to the certain things might just be the right solution and doing nth mught be the best way of solving things...

had a long tok wif a friend some time ago, tok about some common topics like friends, r/s , work and stuff and wat was told to me was sth i deem to agree... haiz... not feeling sad or wat but maybe sometimes just have to face the fact, the world will still be revolving regardless wat of u do and face the truth and stop hiding....

There are ppl around me that just does not seems to understand reality, thinking that watever they do is right and watever others do is wrong.... how come ?? or is it the one that does not face the fact a failure to themselves in the very beginning ?? cos even they themselve cannot even face themselve.... pathetic....

Been long since i ask myself this Qns " Wat is it that i want ?? Truthly ?? "

I cannot answer that Qns anymore..... or was i lost somewhere during the path to wat i am right now..... Corny...

Qns were popped to me on some occasiona and immediate disgust was felt by me.....
Would those Qns just stopped ?? It is worthless... and of no longer any meaning.... i just hate it....

Kinda just want to be alone for a short time period... slowly get my focus back.. cos i just does not seems like me anymore...