Confused ~ ~

Gee... got myself into a state that makes me feel so lost...... going for the MPRB the next coming week ~ ~ gee... Another chance to ask myself what am I doing here ?? Being a officer of SAF is something I wanted to be. But as a naval officer ? gee.... struck me deep down... the knowledge and intensity of academic result requirement is sth I did not seem to handle well... Basic Qns ?? maybe.... but guess not the time to blame anyone ~ ~ kinda need to do some reflection myself, but guess as long as You can study well in here, things should go well even though there are people here that makes me wonder how they go in OCS in the very first place ~ ~

People that think of only themselves ~ ~ gee.... back stabber ?? ya ya.... I dun care... Such people actually exist in OCS, well guess there are this type of people everywhere that hide themselves so well from the big shots.... Talk so much nice things infront of others, turn their back and start another great fantasy tale ~ ~ hahahaa... makes me wonder y ? Do not like that person ?? den just keep away or dun bother about that person mah... y go around talking shitty stuff ?? hypocrites....... Ahhhhhh ~ ~~ think i just need to vexed it out in here ~ ~ unity ??? Each division seems to be very unity but little conflicts happened in between and others in the division does not seems to want to help solve the problem... guess I am guilty of it as well ~ ~ hahahahahaaaaaaa... crap ~ ~ ~ To the point that makes me wonder y bother so much since others dun care.... haiz.... guess I have changed alot during the training in MIDS wing.... the enviroment made me another person.... true friends in here are few... but at least there still is....

Nick Tan, Junjie, hong rui, heng de, chun yang, felix ,benjamin and James ~ ~
People that I can trust on if I ever need help, especially Junjie and James ~ ~ without the both of them by me, guess I would have give up long time ago ~ ~ Junjie being the ever supportive friend ~ ~ though he might make people wonder why is he so ' straight' and so regiment, but that is the way he is and will stay that way no matter wat, never rejecting any help when require and always fight to the end regardless wat... thumbs up :)

James Brown ~ ~ hahaha... dislike this person so much in BNT cos he kept wanting me to think the way he thinks... hahaha got into quite a few arguement with him previously but when MSTD came, got to know him so much better, one of the few people that I can rely on if I ever needed help in my academic and never rejected me once... best memories was the astro navigation lack ~ ~ He was like sleeping and not paying attention the first 2 days and I was actually the one teaching him... but when the test came, he became the one teaching me instead... Geee..... Malu... and one more thing, got accused of copying his work by Vishal. haiz... I made an effort to stay up the night before to do the stuff and he say I copied James work.... guess his impression of me was really bad... guess I could only say Sorry ~ ~ James, his attitude as a MXO made me impressed, though many said he did a bad job, but from what I seen, he deserved to get a pat on the back and words of encouragement, 'WELL DONE, My Friend ~ ~"

Back to myself, guess I need some guidance right now, but unsure of who to turn to....Division mates ? DO ? CO ?

haiz.... guess I have to think hard by myself bah ~ ~

Back from MSTD

Whoooo.. just came back from the 6 week trip... gee.. tiring trip but overall not bad.. at least i learnt so much more den i did in BNT which was a good thing and it indeed was a boast to the knowledge.. especially as a role of the MNO.... ahahahaaha... COoolllll

But throughout the trip, saw a lot of change in many people... maybe even in myself... certain people was just plain selfish i would say... haiz... well that is life but not to fear, there are good souls around to help out as well... but den certain things came to me as a bad thing... got into some problems during the trip which slowly turn into a big issues... gee.... talk to some people and found out why the issue got so big into a woo haa.... haiz... well den again... it is always our words against the officers' words...

Truth can sometime become detorted when a people say this word " I DUN BELIEVE "... well, what can u say if this really happened ??

Just have to listen and really make sure we dun do the same mistake again lo ~ ~ ~haiz,.,.,,,,,,