so bored at work....

Wat would you ans when a person ask u this Qns " would u cry for your enemy?" i wonder... if i cry... do i treat that person as a enemy??? but if i dun cry... m i a coldhearted person???

Aiya... think i would cry bah... but den not cos i m a coldblooded person.. cos at most will think that i m a childish person bah... for wat reason would i have him/her as a enemy ??

come to think about it... y would anyone have a enemy??? wat interest is there?? hate is so meaningless.. boring as well....

hahaha... end of july liao...haha... waiting for year end party... ahahah also dunno y suddenly say so... machiam really got some major planning liao sia.... dun care la.... going for party...hahahaha... sianz.... dunno wat i toking in here right now also.... aiyooooooo today is so darm busy and sianz.... busy in the early afternoon.... freaking boring in the later afternoon.... KAoz ~ ~~ 2morrow last day in this QC section liao...hahaha.... going to the design area liao... all of them tell me design area is good... relax wif nobody bothering me.... hahahaha... think i m going to create havoc there liao... but den sianz leh... have to know diff ppl again... boring... this QC section is fun cos everyone also can play one.... hahah.. nvm la.... design area should be more or less the same bah.... yawn... sianz... take a break ffirst... go out for a slight walk first....hahahah

dance wif me ~ ~~

hm... sad to say... routine is wat i have been following lately... motionless routine... endless feel of time flowing by me... meaningless ??? that wat i felt to a certain extend.. to be a person that uses the time as power... will i become a person of such ?? time goes by and soon it will reveal...

The week is halfway through... the time to rest have finally come... resulting in many meaningful time spending... togetherness is sth wat i miss... the feel of strength is wat i have been lacking... the radiance is the color which cannot be found within the name Francis..... i miss the life...

Wanting it so bad to be a mightly motivation is a good or bad sign ?? let the light guide me slowly throught... i m who i m... that is true... may the sky drop a thousand drops of rain upon my shoulder... the weight of heaven is on me...

Come to think so it.... Laughter is a man's miserable life style....

tired....

Suddenly just felt so tired of things around sia... very tired... wan to get away from everything... think i m really changing sia... freak... is it the good and truthful me ?? or is the bad and ass me getting up on me... all i know, i m getting tired of things around me suddenly.... i wan to be alone for the time being... i need a room for myself to rest.....

Fark ~ ~ ~i need it man..... it is killing me right this instant.... nth goes wrong... but i feel the need to be alone right now... ARH>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> FEED me the med to the everlasting high feeling.... gosh... went to a party on sat... think i really needed that... was drinking the very instead i got there... hahah... Vodka sprite.. my taste... dance around and got to know some friends... ARH>... need that life right now... i need to rest and play like a ass fucker.... i wan to be a Sicnarf....... the totally diff me ...... GEt a life man..... i need that a pen knife... the rope is too tight for me to breath.... BUddys out there... GEt me moving around ~ ~~ i need a LIFE>>>>>>>>>>>>.

circle....bubbling....hahahaha

aiyoo... think this is the first time i draw so much circle sia...haha.. my attachment...joker sia.. ask me to do bubbling for drawings, so as for indication...haha... think at least draw 500+ circle liao sia... hahaha... draw till i fell asleep sia...haha.. some more my seat now is on the manager seats sia...haha.. steady hor ??haha.... promote liao...haha.. no la.. kidding.. cos now no manager so i go and sit there lo.. no objection also...hahaha...

Have to do alot of report sia.. sianz... from dunno how to use excel... now i expert at excel sia...haha... did not know got those special codes in excel one... COOL...hahah...haiz... today crazy one... 530 liao den gave me 5 report and tell me need to finish it by today.... siaoz.... for my level i think i need at least 7 or 8 hours lo... diaoz... but den tried to chiong for them 3 report be4 i go sia... kaoz.... everyday should be 8-5... now everyday also 8-7.... till wan me to stay longer till 830... siao bo... haiz... sat have to work also... 8-12... aiyoo... but actually longer sia.... OT again.. should be at least 8-3 sia... but i got to go M1 to work so work out to 8-12 on every sat lo... so i can go to M1 and work from 1pm onwards.... haiz...

tired sia... work till 7plus... den quickly chiong back to hougang and met up my dear dear....heheh... ate at magic wok.. not bad not bad... eat till my whole tummy bloated sia...haha.. den went to arcade and play game...haha.. relaxing sia... den went home lo.... now right here... so tired... everyday also like rushing sia... but den slowly can get used to it de la...haha.. 2morrow is FRIDAY...haha... hope Wilson, Ray and Andy going out sia...haha.. so i can at least meet up some friends sia... ar bo har... really like no life sia... haiz... even meet my gf also not much time also... haiz... this 3 months quickly go past har... really really too terrible le.... haha.. but den also not bad la... got earn a bit extra in this way also... can la.. survive these 3 months lo... Yawn... time to turn in again... been a long time since i felt the sun sia... and i mean this sentence sia... dunno how long never really felt a good shine liao sia... haiz....

the day....

attachment...haiz.. boring...hahaha... sucks though... did not really like that place... sianz... hope it will finish quickly...hhaha... went home and waited for my ai xin pian tang...hahah... not bad not bad... taste simple but nice...hehe... she went home soon after... :) surprise that she told me sth that sweet.. at least that made me felt good after a good long tired day... hm... she still sick sia... hope she get well soon... :)

haiz.. dunno whether my weekend work still can work a not sia.. stupid attachment... sianz... think have to sort out my timing very hard sia... nvm la.. will work out de... broad thinking liao... no sweat... suffer a bit more and endure more and i will be a better man... This i believe.... :)

late nite...

time is around 1.30 am la... later going to attactment le...haiz... dunno going to do wat there sia... sianz... the days went by as usual... basketball training... Weak as usual... dunno how to get myself on track again... haiz... went to dinner wif bao, XL, kailong, chin xiang at marina having steamboat... ate and tok alot sia... haiz.. advice given to everyone and receive from everyone... seems like everyone is having their own problems in a way or two... haiz....

Just hope to have more time sia.. really really not enough time for too much things... not even a good time to sleep well... really hope to finish my poly life quickly... den off to army first... dunno wat to do sia... haiz... headache.. no life support at the moment.. thinking hard and clear.... wat to do sia... aiyoo yoo.. Engineering... sianz... unless really go for Uni... which is impossible for me bah... result too poor liao..haha... haiz... oversea Uni ??? haiz... think again bah... sianz... how i wish i can have my life to go by easily... sianz...

On my way back, on the train.... also tok alot wif them sia... sianz... headache... even ster also advice me sia..haha... thaat chap...haha.. think and think and think... how to solve solution when the problems just lies on me... sort myself out... yah....

while waiting for the last bus home... a farking gay ask for direction and took the same bus wif me... when i was about to alight... still ask me whether i wan him to come down together... __|__ la... still say can give me a good time... F sia... homo sick ass... somemore is totally a guy lo... YUCKS>>>. kan sianz... reach home liao... now also sianz... going to sleep liao la... dun care liao la... wait till the rain stop raining on me la... dun even wan to bring umbrella at all... just wait lo.... haiz....

the days are gone....

IPG was over yesterday... never thought it would end so fast... time really flies.. and mind really wonder as far as it can go... 3 months and Poosh... it was over already...

Met a lot of interesting ppl along the way, and most importantly made friends in the process.. Wilson, Andy,Ray, Xiao Zhou and Zhilun... these guys realyl made me laugh till drop during the IPG.. Learn and Learn, Grow and grow.. Gain alot during these days.. so much more that wat i had expected from it..even from wat i thought was just a lame project... which turn out to be a life time experience for me... THANK YOU MR CHOO>..... Can never forget.. Just hold on to the hope of getting together for dinner or supper at times... really had agreat time during these past 3 months... hahhahaha... Wilson accompanying me to take bus....Andy toking a lot of jokes to us...Xiao Zhou saying " Bu yao la.." Zhilun acting the Wu Qiong pattern...haha... how to be unhappy in the presence of these ppl... :)

I wish the best for these buddy... And when times comes again... i Hope we will have the chances to gather once again...

Good nite my pals..

Moodless today....

Dunno y felt so bored today... feeling really very hyper but there was like nth that i can play wif.... shit... have to sit down and do the drawing... haiz... den was like really bored today... sianz...

next week going to attactment liao... at loyang...haha... lucky is near my house... Pwhee.... but pay so damn low... cheap labour sia... aiyoo... lucky still got week end work for me.. if not sure dunno how to survive... haha... haiz... not much mood to write this blog... a bit monotone now... think i go and sleep liao la... haiz... 2 more days to the end of my IPG.... haiz... really really sad sia....

last week of IPG

hm.... presentation over liao... den all the things almost finish liao.. parts are all up liao... and going to send it over to the company on thursday liao... hahaha... so proud.... :)

seems really fast sia.. 3months over liao... from nth to 2 big machines that helps a company earn much more $$$$.... geeee... going to miss the days in IPG sia... think it had been the best part of my poly life sia... the happy go lucky me changing into a more serious guy when doing the project really make me feel good inside sia... especially when my supervisor appreciate our involvement so much... haiz... but den going to attactment soon again... going to miss my lab mates sia... esp people like wilson<<< lamer but a nice guy>>>> matthew<<< funny guy and i like to bully him..hahaa>>>Ray<<<<< hahaha... BOSS... cos he got car and drive us around... though at times i get to drive them around instead<<<<>>> drug producer... haha... a nice guy sia... joker as well....<<< Xiao Zhou>>>>> my partner.... hahaha... very fun guy... always alot of funny and interesting thing to tell me... learn a lot from him....<<<<< ZhiLun>>>>>> NIce guy as well... always tok rubbish wif us....hahaha..<<< Gee.... and there is Daniel... THANKS MAN.... help us a lot wif our project... thought he is a lab assistant, no air is being put on sia... hehe... and Janice...haha... new lab assistant... gong gong one... always give me Cold jokes... diao diao one sia.... haha. but not bad la... fun person...

MY BOSS>>>>> MR CHOO.... Whooooo OWooooo.... lots of thanks and Gratitude to him sia.... lots of patience teaching me sia... hahah... though at times he really buay tahan me sia... haha... cos always blur TU* sia.... haha...

Had so much fun moment sia... think i really going to miss the people and lab sia... haiz.... but den.. life still have to move on.. and i will surely move on... THANKS FOR ALL THE GOOD MEMORIES>>>>>>> NTH beats that...... :)

looking ahead.....

Time goes by faster and faster each day.... the world is spinning harder and harder... but y m i walking slower and slower... cannot keep up the pace??? or is it just the force of support not enough... by the time i reach the checkpoint, the audiences have already left....

maybe i should have think about the route i was to take be4 setting off in my life... wonder how the near future would lead me too... few more months be4 going into the army... haha.. fast hor... seems like 3 years ago when i was still saying " aiya, still a long way la... three years later leh... hahhaah"
hm... come to think of it... wat have i achieve in these few days ?? haiz... shame to say... nth was done... just spending my youth away... having some things uncompleted in life... when will i feel the fulfilling moment in my life ??? just waiting for the right time to come... or should i say... fighting for the moment to reach...

Having some thoughts recently and was like... maybe it is really time to settle myself in my mindcept wise... time to stop fooling around... where was the dream i had when i was young... drifted away from me just so far away.... have not been myself lately.. even at times when i m enjoying... felt sth bothering me... haha... the mind is tricking me again... tell me that i m being respected.... well, only when i m working or doing the project in IPG do i felt the respect given...

How many ppl actually appreciate to respect YOU ?? well.... think about it... y should they....... Earn it and lose it at the same time...

I wan to earn sth... i will get it no matter wat... the me that is me....

the day was tired....

Went to sch as usual... and did the things as usual... but was not really in a good mood... dunno y... after 10am break, went to the blood donation drive... haha... donated blood... haiz... felt kinda weak... hhaha... dunno y also... went back to the lab and was like starting to tok and do things at the same time... but just felt funny in a way... took some stupid pic wif some friends.... next coming week will be my last week in the IPG lab... sad.... haiz... such good memories...

Went to cc after sch... was going to play basketball when suddenly all my friends say y i look so pale and ghastly.... haha... thought wat happened sia... hm... wonder whether is it the blood donation... haha.. but when did i became so weak ?? play basketball also like no strenght.... but den determination kept me going... was playing really hard today.. kept pushing myself to the limit... and found out certain things that i could not figure out in the past...

Felt so tired sia... nearly slept on the bus... den even when reach home still have to cook food for myself...as usual la... haha... a bit tired la.. but damn hungry and was not into cooking mee.... cannot believe i actually slowly whip up a meal for myself at 11+ pm.... haha... so tired right now... think i still going to do my project first be4 sleeping... haiz... Stupid presentation on the coming week... going to make that stupid assessor eat up her words when she get to hear my presentation... ask me another idiotic Qns and i will make sure u get a Qns that u are not able to ans... haha... 2morrow still got to work... think i better settle my project first.... project is going to be sent to the company liao... going to take photos of it sia... my daughter is marrying away liao... sob.. sob...

gloomy morning...

MOrning...... some things happen yesterday... found out some truth and knew some things.... corny that it may seems... if you choose not to believe wat i said, den i guess things aint in my control den... seems that u are enjoying life too... going out wif friends and your BRO friends... corny... think i should just go to my world and turn back to who i m....

The world is spinning but i m still standing.... wat is truth and belief... when both the two things are wat u had forsaken....... Y would u bother to ask me this Qns if the ans i gave is not being accepted.... or was it sth that is happening around... Little and wat i known is a fact.... who u been with is also a fact... i m not telling the world... but the world is telling me... or should i say.... You are telling me...

was it my ans u are waiting for..... or was it you that is trying to tell me the ans...

rush and rushing...

WoooWOoo.. stupid shinei la... make us change and change... ARH>>>>>. at the rate right now... dunno can totally complete the whole set not sia... think i going to try my best to help my Mr Choo sia... think he also very stress up wif the dead line closing up... hm...

One presentation is over... aha.. did not know i can actually bluff my way through sia... hahaha... acted like a clown.. but was fun... next week still got another presentation... aiyoo... ma fan sia.. almost finish my presentation slides le... onli going to mend it slightly more.. hahaa... but my final report... hm... dunno have to stay up how many nites to finish it sia... hahaha... nvm... i will strive... haha... combination of everythings... haha.. making me stronger each day... YES... i will survive to the end... haiz... basketball seems to be getting bad... but nvm... just have to horn up my skills again lo... though not much of wat i have... aiyoo... y i so short har /?? haiz... luckily i got strong belief in myself sia... if not sure cannot survive in it sia... still got work load for me... hahah...

lead and not be led... a Leo friend told me that be4... hm... wonder if i like leading... cos i too lazy to do extra things unless got a bit of slight advantage for me la... :P ar bo really like going to slog like a buffalo... hahaha... work work work... better hit my target sia... haha... should not be a problem unless i too tired till i dun wan to speak... den got problems liao... manage to hit my own target every week... going to make sure i hit it every week... hahah.. a kind of achievement it will become... ok... back to some stuff i m working on... busy busy busy...

gee... a secondary friend said i change alot sia... dunno y... told me that i become like too mature when i tok seriously..... haha... will meh ??? i still like to joke alot de mah... temper was good these days... ah.... feels good... haha.. paiseh har.. i think i was like a bit frustrated wif a friend today... but held on to my temper again... LOL... must have a higher EQ status... lol.. IQ average nia.... but den EQ is more important... going to strive harder... YEAH man ~ ~ ~

Going to finish my IPG lab liao sia... going to miss it so much... ah.. going to miss all the crazy chap i have in my lab... even my supervisor and some other lab assistant... DANIEL... haha... cute guy... haha... and Jeslyn< i think like that spell...> another lab assistant... haha... gong gong one... everything also dun really know... haha.. can bully her till i laugh sia... hahahaha... evil hor* lol....

going to have moe fun and work in the lab again 2morrow... hahah.. ok ok ... back to some project and sleeping time.... hahaha.... nite everyone..... (",)

days by days...

Yesterday went out wif my sec sch mate sia... haha.. think dunno how long never meet out liao... hm... at least going to one year liao.. haha... went to catch a movie together and ate dinner together... was fun cos able to catch up about the past in sec sch life... relaxing moment sia... tok about almost everything... haha.. den going to mid nite den went home sia... hahaha...

Working hard to survive for wat i wan....
Sch project is a pile of heavy load i have on my shoulder....
Staying after 6pm in sch will become sth i like soon....
Satisfied with what i had done in the IPG lab....
learnt a lot and got scolded alot as well....
but nvm wat i gain is sth great....

Doing things as usual in sch again... work and play... hahaha... even stay back after 6pm to help out my supervisor till going to 7pm... hahaha hope 2morrow will be the same again... doing things till late cos really hope to finish everything before i leave this project lab... think this kind of memories will really stay sia... really really enjoy it here... my supervisor is just like another dad sia... ahhaha... commanding but yet reasonable... he will onli ask us to do things that he is able to do.. wun be like any other ridicules supervisor.... hahaha... feels good...

And was really glad today... cos a lab member actually really got their project on going... and they too stay after 6pm to try to do as much as possible... RARE>>> haha but den felt good for them.. cos they really started to do their stuff and they seems to enjoy it sia.... :)

hm... tuesday liao... 2morrow got presentation sia.. sianz... next week also got presentation... den still have to work on weekends... and still got final report to finish... OH my TU* .... hahaha... nvm.. going to tahan... haa.. cos i will regret it if i dun it well.. though i dun expect getting a high grade for my asignment, realy felt really great being able to be here sia... hahah going to make sure i come back and find my supervisor sia... HE IS A GREAT MAN>.... hahah... always joke together and always laugh till very funny... haha... :P
though he really can give me a lot of things to do la... but den he really make sure that we dun do things blindly sia... he make sure he explain things first be4 we start sia... And he respect our ideas sia... when we give ideas and solution, he wun directly say cannot... he will think think think and tell us whether it is a workable idea or not... haha.. ONe of my idea got use in this Project sia.... WOoOWOoWOooo... got praise by him.... hahaha... really shiok sia... few hundred thousand project and i made improvement to it... hahahaha... Li hai leh.... no la kidding la... all his knowledge gave to us became a power and strength in the future... (",)

Went to play basketball directly after my sch sia... haha.. wearing jeans and playing wif a few friends... haha.. really sweat till buay tahan... really really felt very good sia... so long never sweat le...not been touching a basketball for a long time... haiz... dui bu qi my coach... haha.. still say wan to play for CC and open competition... Damn... going to make sure i train hard again... haha.. but den at least i regain my jumping again... wear jeans also can pull the ring... haha...
shiok... i wan to play basketball wif my team mates... ahaha... You you you and YOu....hahaha... but den now still got sch project and have to work on weekend... nvm i will go play after sch den go home and do my project... tired it will be but i will be fulfilling.... YES>>>>>> WOOWOOWOWOWOOOOOOWOOOOo.... hahaha...

Receive a letter from a gal today.... hahah.... dun tell u all wat was the content about.... hehe... hehe.... thanks anyway.... :)