feeling ~ ~

wat is a world wif wif silent?? a perfect moodless world wif the slight dim light hanging over everyones' shoulder... haha... perfect moment of love and laugher.... was walking home just now and felt the familiar quietness around me that surround me other den my ipod...

Feel very relax in a way or two... though i still can compare the feeling of silent wif the sound of my gf that nag at me now and den... haha... diff type of effect that have a similar feeling overcoming me... Kind of smiling to myself after the short walk back home/...

listening to sentimental songs and kind of feel the love tat was shower to me in the young age... but that is the past liao... kind of miss those stupid loving times... as that will always be a memory hiden back at the brain cell somewhere....

Some times just wonder wat ppl say of me... YOu are smart but y u dun wan to study.... hahaha... how do u define smart ?? and wat is the diff between a smart and foolish person ?? the line that seperate them is onli a line apart.... Studies is just a form of knowledge.... i dun understand... does one getting a zero means he is stupid ?? and getting a 100 means a smart guy ??

I got 100 be4 but y i dun feel that i m smart ?? i got zero be4 too but y dun i feel stupid ?? hahha... tell me a ans man ~ ~ ~ :)

hm...

bike and studies... yawn.... tired... ok ok ~ ~ going to makan and abck to lesson liao ~ ~kan boring ~ ~

wat m i thinking ??

hm.... kinda feel out of way after a chat wif my friend last nite... happened to get to know more stuff den i was suppose to know in the first place when things was already out of place liao... damn.... how do i confront myself sia... totally cannot understand it sia... but den things should just settle down for the time being i guess...

so ignorance sia... i just dun understand to the fact la... cannot take it sia... Arh.... dunno whether m i suppose to be angry or watsoever sia... just dun like the feeling of being lied to.... y can't human being be more true to each other ??

how to believe if peopl choose to break the chain of trust in the first place ?? just felt kinda low in the feeling sia... aARhhhhh ~ ~ cannot get over it sia... trying so hard... haiz... maybe a sorry or a true hearted apologize is really needed in a way or two... haiz.... i feel terrible in my form of understanding.... but wat can i do to make ppl understand how i feel ?? do i really have to say all out so as to let them know... but why doesn't their heart strain when they lie.... or m i just too concern wif the thinking i m having right now ?? human are born to lie to one another.... i admit that i too have lied be4... maybe wat i have done also apply to the rest too... cos i had lied be4 too... hAAHAHAH... corny it might sound... terrible the feeling that it hurts..... could not really sleep last nite after wat i heard... just made my blood really boil to the extend sia... i wan to understand the fact but just cannot accept it... hahaha.. maybe i m giving myself too much stress in a way or two... haiz... fine... dun care about it liao... wats happened had happened... it is writen at the back of brain... just whether will history repeat itself again... cos when that day happened... mayvbe it is time to rewrite the next history that will take place....

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back wif a post....hahaha... a friend in need is a friend indeed....hahha... why do girls cry ??? perfect reason is = they do not need a reason...hahaha....

Why do guys cry ?? Reason is simple... they are human too....hahaha... Life is cruel... and it makes everything seems better when wat u do is wat affect yourself the most... yesterday nite was a nite never to be forgotten.... had such a headache in the middle of the nite.... but den was glad i woke up.... :) the pain just seems to went away.... hahhaha... drunken dudes.....hahhaha... 4 drunk ass was in my house + me = 5 drunk ass....hahaha... haiz... receive a call from ah pear in the morning... and felt sth so familiar.... a kind of feeling looking from a distance... though it seems nth at all.. but den it is sth in the overall....

tired le... good nite ~ ~

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no more post..... write it in my heart......

Days these days.....

skip lots of classes.... dunno y... woke up early in the morning and yet telling myself not to go for the lesson... laziness i guess... back to the usual me... haiz... went to see a chinese doc.... was told that my knee is quite serious... need to relax and rest a lot... even walking have to be cut down... geeezzz.... told me no more basketball for 6 mth... OHG... how to .... guess i just have to learn it the hard way.....

Met up wif two of my pri sch 'sis'... so much changes in them liao... haha had some catching session and went to play pool and K-box wif one of their bf joining us... gee... ~ ~ hahaha.... it been so long since i got to meet up wif them... so much things to tok and lots of memories.... going to meet up wif them this friday for a drink... hahaha... first time going drinking wif them sia... hope none of us get drunk sia... cos in watsoever case.. i will have to send them home sia... aiyoo... y m i born wif a dick infront and not mountains instead.... hahaha... typical thinking... went to catch a movie wif a sec sch friend today and was like kinda fun... tok rubbish and crap throughout sia... hm.... so tired and restless... think i go and sleep liao bah... nite my friends..... i m gone....... tonite.....

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31th was a hell of a nite... partying through all nite wif a bunch of friends...haha... indochine..geezz.... freaking small sia.. but atmosphere was still not so bad sia...hahaha... dance till the late wee.... and went to weizhong house for another round of drinking... geez.... freaking hell of mixture from ster... almost a goner for some ppl...<<< u know who u are>>>>. hahahah... drank till shiok... and subject of topic was limited onli to ** ** ** ** ** hahhahah.... another nite gone... gee... dunno y nowadays i cannot get to sleep at all...6.09 am liao... still cannot sleep... dunno wat the hell m i going through sia... haiz... had a tok wif a sis online and she was all troubling about her bf... gee.... sad to hear that... but den everything always has a meaning to sth... is onli whether or not u find the ans to it....hahaha

OK la... dun fret anymore liao... next monday is going to be SCH reopening liao... WOoWoOWo... hot chicks.... here i come....hahahhah... heard form my friends that my school now is filled... and i Mean FILLED wif niceeeesssss gals... can bio liao...hahahaha... but that have to wait first.. cos i will be going bangkok this thursday... haaha some holiday be4 i get back to sch yah ~ ~enjoy... i hope i do.. hm.... going to explore some places there liao sia...hahha wonder if i have anymore $$$ to spend sia.. totally wasted all my $$ in my bank... as good as gone.. but den.. it is not the first time i gone broke....hahaha.. i always manage to survive to my next riches.... till den ~ ~ ~