Been a long time since i made a entry.. life in singapore forces is tiring...haha.. as of a navy officer cadet.
Different type of life in there compare to army wing. Smarter uniform, no more physical shiongness only mentally. Studies are the Gs in there and that is where i sucks.... hahahah sad to say...
Ppl in here is a bit different from the army wing as well... PLastic is wat can be describe.. But lucky for me, i am a happy go lucky person and that is a thing in me that keeps me off the track of others.. Manz.... wat am i toking a bout... ahhahah
Ah.... 3months have passed in OCS... 6 more months to go and a 6 weeks oversea trip is coming up soon... OH my.... hahhahah free trip to some idiotic and lame place i guess...but going to pay it off using our mentally tiredness... haiz....
Guess wat... I just got into a accident while riding my bike.. Geezz... lucky only managed off wif slight bruise... but den again./.. It a lesson learnt....
Oh sianz............ life can just be so monotone nowadays... haiz.... routine is a bore and it is a just a MUST in there... haizz...
Plastic place in a acceptable world...
Machaim barbie dolls... LOL....
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Army daze....
Been a long time since i post liao.... hahaha.. many things have happen, and things have toughen up.... Been through army life in BMTC 2 at Whiskey company made me felt so good.... but now POP liao... kinda miss that place liaoz..... haiz.... Got company best shot award, sth to remember and really will strive to get even better things.... dunno wat the fuck i am toking about.... FARK ~
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
army life coming liao...haha
Woooo.. going army on 6th of july liaoz.... oh my my my... die liao la... grown too fat too run laioz... sure cannot tahan first few weeks...hahahah
Sunday, May 21, 2006
back ~ ~
Tired from a day of outing wif with my aunts.....
:) learnt to go wif the flow.....
Some good things are coming soon....hahaha....
:)
Going to read my past 1 year +++ blog sia.... review my own blog...hahaha
:) learnt to go wif the flow.....
Some good things are coming soon....hahaha....
:)
Going to read my past 1 year +++ blog sia.... review my own blog...hahaha
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Friday, May 19, 2006
a day to start...
8plus in the morning... could not sleep again... things just ended... dunno wat to type... seems to be so blank..
read a friend's blog and found how the situation seems quite familiar but only diff is the problems occur... Wat was the prob ?? think it does not serve as a problem anymore.... Is this a brand new day or is it a day of haywire day.......
I HATE YOU.... was a word often heard......
but no longer will be heard...
cos it had ended....
I _ _ _ _ YOU.........
wat is the four letter word that can fill the phase.... HATE, MISS , LOVE, .... does not matter le....
Was it really a excuse to ask for a time out ??
I once heard my friend said sth.... he say everynow and then to take a break in the things you do so as to enjoy your life further now the road and to appreciate it more each time u do so....
But wat i heard from another person was, it is just a excuse to run away from things... if u like doing it, why must u take a break and run away from the things u like to do...
I had my choice in Making a decision.....
Ever tried to do sth so hard but end up doing nth ?? I did.....
Ever tried doing sth so hard but got a ans that break the inner soul of you?? I did..
Ever wan sth so bad till the point u break down?? I did.....
Ever tried to change to make someone so hard that u miss yourself ?? I did....
Ever love someone to the point when u hated yourself?? I did......
Ever change for the sake for someone to reach the requirement of someone?? I did.....
Ever think you fail so badly that wan to take a break?? I did......
Ever get suspected for nth you have done?? I did......
Ever caught your loved one wif another guy without knowing?? I did....
Ever forgive someone to the point that u start thinking wat's right and not??I did..
Think the list can go down since i am in a lousy mood....
wasted feeling......
Mood Disappointed.....
read a friend's blog and found how the situation seems quite familiar but only diff is the problems occur... Wat was the prob ?? think it does not serve as a problem anymore.... Is this a brand new day or is it a day of haywire day.......
I HATE YOU.... was a word often heard......
but no longer will be heard...
cos it had ended....
I _ _ _ _ YOU.........
wat is the four letter word that can fill the phase.... HATE, MISS , LOVE, .... does not matter le....
Was it really a excuse to ask for a time out ??
I once heard my friend said sth.... he say everynow and then to take a break in the things you do so as to enjoy your life further now the road and to appreciate it more each time u do so....
But wat i heard from another person was, it is just a excuse to run away from things... if u like doing it, why must u take a break and run away from the things u like to do...
I had my choice in Making a decision.....
Ever tried to do sth so hard but end up doing nth ?? I did.....
Ever tried doing sth so hard but got a ans that break the inner soul of you?? I did..
Ever wan sth so bad till the point u break down?? I did.....
Ever tried to change to make someone so hard that u miss yourself ?? I did....
Ever love someone to the point when u hated yourself?? I did......
Ever change for the sake for someone to reach the requirement of someone?? I did.....
Ever think you fail so badly that wan to take a break?? I did......
Ever get suspected for nth you have done?? I did......
Ever caught your loved one wif another guy without knowing?? I did....
Ever forgive someone to the point that u start thinking wat's right and not??I did..
Think the list can go down since i am in a lousy mood....
wasted feeling......
Mood Disappointed.....
Thursday, May 18, 2006
A moment to remember....
Listening to some songs right now... having so much thought right now but no where to vexed out...hahaha....
Ever wonder wat your friends and loved one are doing on the very point of time when u needed them ?? Watching Tv?? Playing Games?? Out having fun ??
How would one know when u need them ? There is nothing that one can say or do.....
Listening to Open all Night by Bon Jovi....
Nice Song wif a meaning to understand.....haha... feel like escaping to a new surrounding.... where the world is totally new.... Different ppl, diff surround and even the air is different...
Y are my blog always sounds so sad ?? Well basically let me admit sth.... i often feels sad as the surrounding by me seems so cold.... Too cold to bear but den wat can be done ?
The world in me seems to be grey.... to grey to be true....
always seems to telling myself that i have a better life compare to many out there... but many a times i would ask myself another QNs: wat are the better things i have in life ?? a room of my own? shelter over my head ?? food on the table ?? clothes over my body ??
If there is something out there that i can find warmth wif.... i would gladly give up all that..... and i seriously mean it....
(Angels among us)<<< NIce song wif a meaning to touch...
I wan the feeling that i have longed to experience......
Do i really have to beg for it ????? or would that never happen to me in this life time..... Wat have i done to deserve this....
Mood: devastated......
The 2 types of music i listen to.... R&B and Sentimental songs.... R&B allows me to relax and vexed out watever a days of tiredness.... Sentimental songs touched me deep down where i had longed for.....
Almost everynite i would like listen to sentimental songs... regardless even if i listen to songs over a thousand times.... the feeling would just be there....
Mother day just passed a few days.... the day i have never celebrated in my life...
the one person that brought me to this world.... i never had a chance to thank her and say Happy mother day..... a most unfilial kid i am.....
i am very very empty right now.....
Ever wonder wat your friends and loved one are doing on the very point of time when u needed them ?? Watching Tv?? Playing Games?? Out having fun ??
How would one know when u need them ? There is nothing that one can say or do.....
Listening to Open all Night by Bon Jovi....
Nice Song wif a meaning to understand.....haha... feel like escaping to a new surrounding.... where the world is totally new.... Different ppl, diff surround and even the air is different...
Y are my blog always sounds so sad ?? Well basically let me admit sth.... i often feels sad as the surrounding by me seems so cold.... Too cold to bear but den wat can be done ?
The world in me seems to be grey.... to grey to be true....
always seems to telling myself that i have a better life compare to many out there... but many a times i would ask myself another QNs: wat are the better things i have in life ?? a room of my own? shelter over my head ?? food on the table ?? clothes over my body ??
If there is something out there that i can find warmth wif.... i would gladly give up all that..... and i seriously mean it....
(Angels among us)<<< NIce song wif a meaning to touch...
I wan the feeling that i have longed to experience......
Do i really have to beg for it ????? or would that never happen to me in this life time..... Wat have i done to deserve this....
Mood: devastated......
The 2 types of music i listen to.... R&B and Sentimental songs.... R&B allows me to relax and vexed out watever a days of tiredness.... Sentimental songs touched me deep down where i had longed for.....
Almost everynite i would like listen to sentimental songs... regardless even if i listen to songs over a thousand times.... the feeling would just be there....
Mother day just passed a few days.... the day i have never celebrated in my life...
the one person that brought me to this world.... i never had a chance to thank her and say Happy mother day..... a most unfilial kid i am.....
i am very very empty right now.....
wat a day....
Bad start from the very first thing i did.... OPEN MY EYE....
but at least a good end cos i tio TOTO...haha.... lame........
WAt a day...... haiz....
Good thing just never last... well at least i think they dun...
but at least a good end cos i tio TOTO...haha.... lame........
WAt a day...... haiz....
Good thing just never last... well at least i think they dun...
Monday, May 15, 2006
The world is lonely ~ ~
Many ppl said that the world is filled wif happiness and joy
While other said that the world is just filled wif sadness
I say the world is filled wif ....... i dunno... i agree wif both the Ans...
Looking forward into the future and thinking about wat will happened or wat might happen just seems so argh.... Will be a good next time but there will be a very bad next time too.... hahha... wat am i referring to ?? I also not very sure about it..
Suddenly woke up and feel like so moodless..... Feel so sianz and restricted... too small..... does not seems logical... but it is just even more logical.... hahahaa....
Need a helping hand... but which hand am i looking for ?? The one hand that i can really hang on to as a survival.... Spiritually.....
Dwelling into the past seems so useless... but there are just ppl who does so... one of them is Me...
Why do ppl feel tired and sick of certain things at times ?? Give me some Ans pls....
The last time i felt like going to Sentosa was back a period of time....
Dun really like that place anymore... dunno y...
Ppl do change as times goes by... regardless wat kind of ppl and facing wat problems and things.... They will change... this is something that i am kinda sure....
May le.... 2 months after my poly life.... haiz.... waiting for the next chapter to unfold... hopefully very much different from wat i am facing be4.... :)
While other said that the world is just filled wif sadness
I say the world is filled wif ....... i dunno... i agree wif both the Ans...
Looking forward into the future and thinking about wat will happened or wat might happen just seems so argh.... Will be a good next time but there will be a very bad next time too.... hahha... wat am i referring to ?? I also not very sure about it..
Suddenly woke up and feel like so moodless..... Feel so sianz and restricted... too small..... does not seems logical... but it is just even more logical.... hahahaa....
Need a helping hand... but which hand am i looking for ?? The one hand that i can really hang on to as a survival.... Spiritually.....
Dwelling into the past seems so useless... but there are just ppl who does so... one of them is Me...
Why do ppl feel tired and sick of certain things at times ?? Give me some Ans pls....
The last time i felt like going to Sentosa was back a period of time....
Dun really like that place anymore... dunno y...
Ppl do change as times goes by... regardless wat kind of ppl and facing wat problems and things.... They will change... this is something that i am kinda sure....
May le.... 2 months after my poly life.... haiz.... waiting for the next chapter to unfold... hopefully very much different from wat i am facing be4.... :)
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
Another of those nite ~
Good news : I got my second interview for my pilot application ~ ~ and that means i pass that stupid 5 hour test....
Main ~
Numb to the certain things might just be the right solution and doing nth mught be the best way of solving things...
had a long tok wif a friend some time ago, tok about some common topics like friends, r/s , work and stuff and wat was told to me was sth i deem to agree... haiz... not feeling sad or wat but maybe sometimes just have to face the fact, the world will still be revolving regardless wat of u do and face the truth and stop hiding....
There are ppl around me that just does not seems to understand reality, thinking that watever they do is right and watever others do is wrong.... how come ?? or is it the one that does not face the fact a failure to themselves in the very beginning ?? cos even they themselve cannot even face themselve.... pathetic....
Been long since i ask myself this Qns " Wat is it that i want ?? Truthly ?? "
I cannot answer that Qns anymore..... or was i lost somewhere during the path to wat i am right now..... Corny...
Qns were popped to me on some occasiona and immediate disgust was felt by me.....
Would those Qns just stopped ?? It is worthless... and of no longer any meaning.... i just hate it....
Kinda just want to be alone for a short time period... slowly get my focus back.. cos i just does not seems like me anymore...
Main ~
Numb to the certain things might just be the right solution and doing nth mught be the best way of solving things...
had a long tok wif a friend some time ago, tok about some common topics like friends, r/s , work and stuff and wat was told to me was sth i deem to agree... haiz... not feeling sad or wat but maybe sometimes just have to face the fact, the world will still be revolving regardless wat of u do and face the truth and stop hiding....
There are ppl around me that just does not seems to understand reality, thinking that watever they do is right and watever others do is wrong.... how come ?? or is it the one that does not face the fact a failure to themselves in the very beginning ?? cos even they themselve cannot even face themselve.... pathetic....
Been long since i ask myself this Qns " Wat is it that i want ?? Truthly ?? "
I cannot answer that Qns anymore..... or was i lost somewhere during the path to wat i am right now..... Corny...
Qns were popped to me on some occasiona and immediate disgust was felt by me.....
Would those Qns just stopped ?? It is worthless... and of no longer any meaning.... i just hate it....
Kinda just want to be alone for a short time period... slowly get my focus back.. cos i just does not seems like me anymore...
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Back from Koh Samui ~ ~
Just Came back from a 10 days trip in Koh Samui,Thailand, a offshore island...hahaha.. damn relaxing place sia.. The 10 days are not even enough sia... hahahah... Was there wif my gf and friends... stayed at a very ulu place far away from the city...haha.. drive there also need at least 30 min sia... more over no traffic lights one sia...hahhhah
Had fun eating and relaxing all the ways sia... though during the trip, sth happened causing some funny disturbane...haha but i dun care...hahahahahahah... Eat eat eat and let me tell u sth... the weather there is so damn good... clear blue sky and bright bright day.. Whooooooo Shiok sia... even the place where i stayed, coconut villa also has dogs for protection sia... a big rock weller and a poodle...hahahaha damn funny dogs....
had a very fun trip over there sia... even had a new tattoo over there.... a painful experience... a very painful experience.... haiz... but den very nice... totally like it alot.. wise choice...hahhhahahahaha
total money spend: around 900...hahah.. over spend due to some certain unexpected things happening... hahhah
Had fun eating and relaxing all the ways sia... though during the trip, sth happened causing some funny disturbane...haha but i dun care...hahahahahahah... Eat eat eat and let me tell u sth... the weather there is so damn good... clear blue sky and bright bright day.. Whooooooo Shiok sia... even the place where i stayed, coconut villa also has dogs for protection sia... a big rock weller and a poodle...hahahaha damn funny dogs....
had a very fun trip over there sia... even had a new tattoo over there.... a painful experience... a very painful experience.... haiz... but den very nice... totally like it alot.. wise choice...hahhhahahahaha
total money spend: around 900...hahah.. over spend due to some certain unexpected things happening... hahhah
Friday, April 07, 2006
hm....
Aiyoooo mafan sia... have to go and take another napfa test again sia... kaoz.... if not i will have to go in a month earlier and that date is 8th of June... damn... just because i completed my napfa on 1st of june 2005 and it is over a year and not counted.... KAOZ>.... stupid Mr Kassim la... keep pushing us to go for the napfa and now in return i get wat ??? another napfa ...
So by calculating the date ... after passing my napfa, i should be going in on 8 of july... .hm.... not bad not bad earlier den i expected... haha... okok.. hope my pilot result turns out to be positive, kana torture during the 5 hours test sia... better let me have the good news den the bad new... gee... Wonder wat it is like in there sia... hm.... Heard about some laughter from my friends but some just dislike army life... wonder y.... hahahaahaha.... another chapter of my life is coming up... DUn miss it... diaoz.... machiam like a espisode
yawn... sianz.... nvm la.. still a few month to go.. dun care so much.. Going for a 10 day this month on the 19 wif my gf and some friends... hahah going to enjoy liao sia... SHIOK ~ ~
So by calculating the date ... after passing my napfa, i should be going in on 8 of july... .hm.... not bad not bad earlier den i expected... haha... okok.. hope my pilot result turns out to be positive, kana torture during the 5 hours test sia... better let me have the good news den the bad new... gee... Wonder wat it is like in there sia... hm.... Heard about some laughter from my friends but some just dislike army life... wonder y.... hahahaahaha.... another chapter of my life is coming up... DUn miss it... diaoz.... machiam like a espisode
yawn... sianz.... nvm la.. still a few month to go.. dun care so much.. Going for a 10 day this month on the 19 wif my gf and some friends... hahah going to enjoy liao sia... SHIOK ~ ~
Thursday, March 30, 2006
hey....
been a long time since i updated... lotsa things going on right now yah... hm... finished my poly life.. went to a kelong in mersing in Malaysia... chalets... chalets and more chalets... now just waiting for my NS... rotting away... dunno wat to do in the mean time.. too lazy to even go and work...
Time now is 5.39am dunno why cannot sleep.... haiz... going CMPB again... dunno y... went for the status already... but maybe this time is for airforce one... so wat the heck... damn far sia... haiz... need to chill out more... been a long time since i really went out in the sun... wasted a chance today... as it goes on..........
Calm feeling right now.. listening to the aircon blowing and thinking of the new day that is oncoming... feeling quite empty.. dunno why and dun really care about it... kinda just wan to relax... no nth no watsoever and just listen to the breeze out there..
sigh....
Miss the younger days..... no worries no trouble and just go out and play....
Would there still be such a day......
Time now is 5.39am dunno why cannot sleep.... haiz... going CMPB again... dunno y... went for the status already... but maybe this time is for airforce one... so wat the heck... damn far sia... haiz... need to chill out more... been a long time since i really went out in the sun... wasted a chance today... as it goes on..........
Calm feeling right now.. listening to the aircon blowing and thinking of the new day that is oncoming... feeling quite empty.. dunno why and dun really care about it... kinda just wan to relax... no nth no watsoever and just listen to the breeze out there..
sigh....
Miss the younger days..... no worries no trouble and just go out and play....
Would there still be such a day......
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
In a day where the sun is dimly lighted....
Was there such a place call Home ?? how do one define home as ?? Or wats is a family ?? tired of such Qns.......
I need Ans.......
Found a temp job liao... but only working at short hours... so going to find another one to make the day fuller.... haiz.... tired sia... i need a Home.... to rest.....
I need Ans.......
Found a temp job liao... but only working at short hours... so going to find another one to make the day fuller.... haiz.... tired sia... i need a Home.... to rest.....
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Exams are over...
Phwee.... after a long struggle.. all is over and a new chapter is about to begin... ahhaha.. army life coming... Gee..e.e... dunno can survive not... but i guess it is just a thing in life bah... no matter wat also have to go through one .... hahaha
A process to help me grow up and be stronger in my thinking... hm... think going to find a temp job for a month or two so wun be too tied up in my pocket... haha.. be4 going army must go some place for shopping or relaxation... singapore really not much of a place to play sia... or should i say.. everything here involve money sia... well mostly la... hahaha
haiz... sianz... dunno wat i wan to do sia... dunno dunno... had a tok wif a classmate recently.. and was thinking about wat to do after my army... dunno sia... really dunno sia... every now and then, just think and wonder here and there sia...but still not a confirm ans is in my head...
Feel like playing basketball... but den again... dunno y i just dun seems to want to play sia... contridicting rite?? well this is me right now.... no decision making... just a lost sheep in the herd or flock... eng poor la....
A process to help me grow up and be stronger in my thinking... hm... think going to find a temp job for a month or two so wun be too tied up in my pocket... haha.. be4 going army must go some place for shopping or relaxation... singapore really not much of a place to play sia... or should i say.. everything here involve money sia... well mostly la... hahaha
haiz... sianz... dunno wat i wan to do sia... dunno dunno... had a tok wif a classmate recently.. and was thinking about wat to do after my army... dunno sia... really dunno sia... every now and then, just think and wonder here and there sia...but still not a confirm ans is in my head...
Feel like playing basketball... but den again... dunno y i just dun seems to want to play sia... contridicting rite?? well this is me right now.... no decision making... just a lost sheep in the herd or flock... eng poor la....
Friday, February 17, 2006
Just another day ~ ~
Exam just started.... anxious m i but unconcern about it.... Feels that since last year already, might as well not do so much.... just anyhow study an pass the damn exam can liao....
Dunno y but just cannot seems to really focus so much liao... hm... dunno y... another nite when i cannot sleep... 610 in the morning liao... haiz..... a new day arrive even faster be4 i remember the last nite..
Kiss the forehead of the lover once.....
Take the hand of your loved one.....
Walked down the beach....
Staring at the Brightly lit Moon.....
Background of the wonderful sea....
Breeze blewing through wif smile...
Tickle her nose...
And hug her be4 the wonderful scene that might just come once a lifetime....
:) think just stay up and listen to music bah.... hehehe
feel like going out and eat alot alot of food sia... but think getting broke liao... play and eat too much liao...hahah
Dunno y but just cannot seems to really focus so much liao... hm... dunno y... another nite when i cannot sleep... 610 in the morning liao... haiz..... a new day arrive even faster be4 i remember the last nite..
Kiss the forehead of the lover once.....
Take the hand of your loved one.....
Walked down the beach....
Staring at the Brightly lit Moon.....
Background of the wonderful sea....
Breeze blewing through wif smile...
Tickle her nose...
And hug her be4 the wonderful scene that might just come once a lifetime....
:) think just stay up and listen to music bah.... hehehe
feel like going out and eat alot alot of food sia... but think getting broke liao... play and eat too much liao...hahah
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
There is no harsh time when i m facing myself...
Very tired... did not sleep well again... or should i say.. did not sleep at all... cos of exam... and the troublesome part is i still cannot get much into my brain when my exam is a few hours later... haiz... listening to songs right now... and dreaming away....
Wish that time would just stop right there an then.... The lovely tune of melody spinning throught my head and the heartbeat i feeling it is just as smoothling... after this period of exam would be a short break for me,( that is provided i pass my exam) be4 i get into army.... times flies huh.... this year coming to 21 liao... seems so fast.. but i know the time ahead would be even faster... :) after army, start working or study Uni( which is very low chance unless oversea) or having part time courses... or even get to sign on..... Lotsa decision to make at this point of time.... yet feeling the unfelt enjoyment that i had receive should be greater and much more....
Human... always lusting for more and never satisfy... i understand theory very well myself.... hahaha... but den again i know myself too....
Had a few occasions of being the choice maker or breaker.... but den, things better be left that way in a matter of fact or watsoever...
Really wan to go for a trip soon after my exam... aunt had taiwan in mind and i have korea in mind.... well, whichever it is i will enjoy i guess... since both places i have yet to been to.... even going to nearby countries wif my friends and gf would be interesting... as long as i m enjoying it whichever the place would be will surely be fun....
Thinking of the fun.... well wonder when would it be when one have to stop playing and start to be more serious in other more impt stuffs..... when would it be my turn and at wat point of time would it be ??
kinda bored of the fun i been experiencing right now... nth really that fun gets me into it... should start going for more different things since i stop playing basketball for quite a well already.... time to cut my tyre that is building up wif 5-6 meals a day.... ha.... ha....
Looking forward to the coming holiday.... :) need a rest ....
Wish that time would just stop right there an then.... The lovely tune of melody spinning throught my head and the heartbeat i feeling it is just as smoothling... after this period of exam would be a short break for me,( that is provided i pass my exam) be4 i get into army.... times flies huh.... this year coming to 21 liao... seems so fast.. but i know the time ahead would be even faster... :) after army, start working or study Uni( which is very low chance unless oversea) or having part time courses... or even get to sign on..... Lotsa decision to make at this point of time.... yet feeling the unfelt enjoyment that i had receive should be greater and much more....
Human... always lusting for more and never satisfy... i understand theory very well myself.... hahaha... but den again i know myself too....
Had a few occasions of being the choice maker or breaker.... but den, things better be left that way in a matter of fact or watsoever...
Really wan to go for a trip soon after my exam... aunt had taiwan in mind and i have korea in mind.... well, whichever it is i will enjoy i guess... since both places i have yet to been to.... even going to nearby countries wif my friends and gf would be interesting... as long as i m enjoying it whichever the place would be will surely be fun....
Thinking of the fun.... well wonder when would it be when one have to stop playing and start to be more serious in other more impt stuffs..... when would it be my turn and at wat point of time would it be ??
kinda bored of the fun i been experiencing right now... nth really that fun gets me into it... should start going for more different things since i stop playing basketball for quite a well already.... time to cut my tyre that is building up wif 5-6 meals a day.... ha.... ha....
Looking forward to the coming holiday.... :) need a rest ....
Monday, February 13, 2006
full ~ ~ and tired ~
haiz.. had lots of eating the past few days...haha.. and the thought of exam coming just make me feel so bored... gee... troublesome troublesome... some more three weeks... so damn long sia... yawn ~ ~ ~ not sleeping well these few days... cannot seems to be able to sleep throughout the nite... seems too uptight over the deadline and exam coming...
haiz... cannot tahan sia... think i better study liao.. sianz..
haiz... cannot tahan sia... think i better study liao.. sianz..
Saturday, February 11, 2006
cannot sleep sia ~ ~
been at least adding up to 2 1/2 days not sleeping le.... cannot get to bed sia... exam and project piling up sia.... headache.. wan to play awhile but does not seems to be able to get past it ~ ~
coming week and the following weeks are all exams and project... shit head sia... dunno can handle not... too much liao... i actually got 2 modules that require me to study the whole book that each at least have 130+ slides to study... no tips no watsoever... wow kaoz.... murder sia.. haiz,,. somemore 2morrow got work sia... and now is 5 liao.. i still cannot get to sleep sia... wow laoz eh ~ ~ how arh ~ ~ `
sianz.... better finish up my poly siaz... start to get bored liao.... yawn ~ ~
coming week and the following weeks are all exams and project... shit head sia... dunno can handle not... too much liao... i actually got 2 modules that require me to study the whole book that each at least have 130+ slides to study... no tips no watsoever... wow kaoz.... murder sia.. haiz,,. somemore 2morrow got work sia... and now is 5 liao.. i still cannot get to sleep sia... wow laoz eh ~ ~ how arh ~ ~ `
sianz.... better finish up my poly siaz... start to get bored liao.... yawn ~ ~
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
emotion carry on life
dunno the little letters in my life Abcdefgh..... i wonder... wat makes someone grow up ??/ is it time that makes us grow ?? or is it the things that we go through that makes us learn ??? or is it the ppl that we meet makes me remember ?? hm... 2006 this year liao sia... hahaha... suddenly going to turn 21 liao sia hahaha seems like very fast hor ???
From sec sch till now.. there are many turning point in life liao... maybe to some, all these turning point that happened is like 'aiya... like that only....haha bo liao leh' but when it comes to personal me thinking.. or when it happened to u, the feeling of it might just seems so bad... dunno wat i m really thinking... listening to Si Lu by liang jing ru....hahaha. suddenly heard it my friend's car so dL and listen in my dark room of resending feeling..
closing my eyes for a min and listen to the songs as well as feeling my heartbeat.. really feel like been alone for some time... cos think i need some time to find my self back... seems to be losing myself... seems to leave things back so far... like suddenly dun care about much things liao sia... seems to have lost my feeling.... dunno y... just wan to go for a long run wif no disturbance.... can anyone help me without letting me know u are helping ?? feel kinda desperate at times like that.. though i know the very next morning i wun feel wat i feel right now...
2006... a very new year... yet i never set any resolution for the year.. very unlike me..... dunno y... just did not have the motivation at all... no target in life for the year... just wan to live my life happily... very afraid of being unhappy this year.... kinda very exhausted... no one to help me lighten the burden on my shoulder...
keeping silent really help calm me down sia... by doing so, i tend to think things more nicely..hahaha self hypnotise sia...haha think i need a very quiet place to relac myself wif a lovely wife that support me in my doing.... a successful man's back always has a quiet supportive wife.... hahhaha... a proverb... i will be a sucessful person.... i know.... i will not be looked down... not in this life time... got my pilot interview... but dunno y thinking of changing my option le... need to think about it...
From sec sch till now.. there are many turning point in life liao... maybe to some, all these turning point that happened is like 'aiya... like that only....haha bo liao leh' but when it comes to personal me thinking.. or when it happened to u, the feeling of it might just seems so bad... dunno wat i m really thinking... listening to Si Lu by liang jing ru....hahaha. suddenly heard it my friend's car so dL and listen in my dark room of resending feeling..
closing my eyes for a min and listen to the songs as well as feeling my heartbeat.. really feel like been alone for some time... cos think i need some time to find my self back... seems to be losing myself... seems to leave things back so far... like suddenly dun care about much things liao sia... seems to have lost my feeling.... dunno y... just wan to go for a long run wif no disturbance.... can anyone help me without letting me know u are helping ?? feel kinda desperate at times like that.. though i know the very next morning i wun feel wat i feel right now...
2006... a very new year... yet i never set any resolution for the year.. very unlike me..... dunno y... just did not have the motivation at all... no target in life for the year... just wan to live my life happily... very afraid of being unhappy this year.... kinda very exhausted... no one to help me lighten the burden on my shoulder...
keeping silent really help calm me down sia... by doing so, i tend to think things more nicely..hahaha self hypnotise sia...haha think i need a very quiet place to relac myself wif a lovely wife that support me in my doing.... a successful man's back always has a quiet supportive wife.... hahhaha... a proverb... i will be a sucessful person.... i know.... i will not be looked down... not in this life time... got my pilot interview... but dunno y thinking of changing my option le... need to think about it...
a turn in life ~ ~
Happy Chinese New year ~ ~ hm.... things really do happened... i dunno... think i m just understanding the diff in ppl from every different corner of the world.... wat i need and want is diff in a way or two... is not about asking for it... but it is about how ppl displayed it out... may not be the perfect move but it is surely a 'move'....
gladly understand the major thinking from wat i knew... yes... i wan sth like that from the very beginning... but since i accepted this, i should have accepted everything open handedly... is not about receiving... but it is about giving...
i really understand... how many ppl are willing to do this ?? the ppl around... many aint going to understand this... till sth happened... may not be the best but it is sth from someone ~ ~
a friend of mine is going to ROM liao... feel so happy for her... really am///
I miss my mum.... :) suddenly the need of a family seems so impt...
A Qns i hate to ans.... do u have any siblings ?? or are u the only child....
and the ans i hate saying.. ' yar.. i m the only child.....
ever understand the feeling ??? well... i dun ask of u all to understand... cos i wun wan any to feel the feeling i been through.... :) a smiling face outside but a unhappy face inside :( ... I miss calling Mummy.....
gladly understand the major thinking from wat i knew... yes... i wan sth like that from the very beginning... but since i accepted this, i should have accepted everything open handedly... is not about receiving... but it is about giving...
i really understand... how many ppl are willing to do this ?? the ppl around... many aint going to understand this... till sth happened... may not be the best but it is sth from someone ~ ~
a friend of mine is going to ROM liao... feel so happy for her... really am///
I miss my mum.... :) suddenly the need of a family seems so impt...
A Qns i hate to ans.... do u have any siblings ?? or are u the only child....
and the ans i hate saying.. ' yar.. i m the only child.....
ever understand the feeling ??? well... i dun ask of u all to understand... cos i wun wan any to feel the feeling i been through.... :) a smiling face outside but a unhappy face inside :( ... I miss calling Mummy.....
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Chinese New Year coming liao ~ ~
Aiyoo/// another new year coming liao... going to gong xi fa cai again le...hehehe.. can eat a lot of goodies and collect ang pow liao... shiok sia...hahahah... another few more days to rest sia... shiok ~ ~hehehe
dunno wat i wan to write right now ... but just wan to write lo...hahha.. just came back from JB alone... sianz... go there pump petrol.... go there pump twice is = to in singapore pump once.... imagine... my petrol tank is 23dollar.... save 50 % or more sia.... hahahaha but ma fan la... have to travel there and back home.. lucky i live at sengkang... go there quite fast... hahah
sianz.... going to complete my poly life liao... wow... three years so fast sia... hahah... so fast going to graduate liao... den soon going army liao... YES>>>> looking forward to army sia... dunno y also... haha. but hate the idea of me shaving off my hair... going to be so damn tu* hahah den go in 2 years.. hm... dunno wat will become of me...hahahaha
dunno wat i wan to write right now ... but just wan to write lo...hahha.. just came back from JB alone... sianz... go there pump petrol.... go there pump twice is = to in singapore pump once.... imagine... my petrol tank is 23dollar.... save 50 % or more sia.... hahahaha but ma fan la... have to travel there and back home.. lucky i live at sengkang... go there quite fast... hahah
sianz.... going to complete my poly life liao... wow... three years so fast sia... hahah... so fast going to graduate liao... den soon going army liao... YES>>>> looking forward to army sia... dunno y also... haha. but hate the idea of me shaving off my hair... going to be so damn tu* hahah den go in 2 years.. hm... dunno wat will become of me...hahahaha
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
2006 ~ ~ ~
A new year have arrive... the old year is already gone... but m i a new guy ?? or has the old me yet to leave?? Dunno wat to ask for cos the things are only words of useless crap...
never really understand wat i really want till the time has come to face it... Been a person like me... wat about it ?? Feel so tired at some points of time, but things still has to go on ~ ~ yah.... no matter wat happened... the world is still rotating and will never stop ~ ~ like the things swirling round my mind ~ ~
Hated the life before.... still hating this life right this moment .... God spare the one as thy shall be gone.... To belive is by seeing... but by seeing wat i aint wan to see is a torture... wat i did not know turns out to be a horror in life... Pathetic....... just smile and let things goes... cos never will one understand when things did not happened upon that very person ~ ~
Many people may walk across the life of someone... but who really stay in the end ?? I Dunno ~ ~ hahaha... dun wish to waste thing doing crap.... time to wake up and start enjoying the life ~ ~
tired day again.... or as usual... nvm... the tirness to diff ppl is not the same... exam these few days... haiz... waste so much time studying last min work... and enduring the terrible time.... i just say Hellloooo... you are ?? and good byee.....
never really understand wat i really want till the time has come to face it... Been a person like me... wat about it ?? Feel so tired at some points of time, but things still has to go on ~ ~ yah.... no matter wat happened... the world is still rotating and will never stop ~ ~ like the things swirling round my mind ~ ~
Hated the life before.... still hating this life right this moment .... God spare the one as thy shall be gone.... To belive is by seeing... but by seeing wat i aint wan to see is a torture... wat i did not know turns out to be a horror in life... Pathetic....... just smile and let things goes... cos never will one understand when things did not happened upon that very person ~ ~
Many people may walk across the life of someone... but who really stay in the end ?? I Dunno ~ ~ hahaha... dun wish to waste thing doing crap.... time to wake up and start enjoying the life ~ ~
tired day again.... or as usual... nvm... the tirness to diff ppl is not the same... exam these few days... haiz... waste so much time studying last min work... and enduring the terrible time.... i just say Hellloooo... you are ?? and good byee.....
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