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dunno the little letters in my life Abcdefgh..... i wonder... wat makes someone grow up ??/ is it time that makes us grow ?? or is it the things that we go through that makes us learn ??? or is it the ppl that we meet makes me remember ?? hm... 2006 this year liao sia... hahaha... suddenly going to turn 21 liao sia hahaha seems like very fast hor ???

From sec sch till now.. there are many turning point in life liao... maybe to some, all these turning point that happened is like 'aiya... like that only....haha bo liao leh' but when it comes to personal me thinking.. or when it happened to u, the feeling of it might just seems so bad... dunno wat i m really thinking... listening to Si Lu by liang jing ru....hahaha. suddenly heard it my friend's car so dL and listen in my dark room of resending feeling..

closing my eyes for a min and listen to the songs as well as feeling my heartbeat.. really feel like been alone for some time... cos think i need some time to find my self back... seems to be losing myself... seems to leave things back so far... like suddenly dun care about much things liao sia... seems to have lost my feeling.... dunno y... just wan to go for a long run wif no disturbance.... can anyone help me without letting me know u are helping ?? feel kinda desperate at times like that.. though i know the very next morning i wun feel wat i feel right now...

2006... a very new year... yet i never set any resolution for the year.. very unlike me..... dunno y... just did not have the motivation at all... no target in life for the year... just wan to live my life happily... very afraid of being unhappy this year.... kinda very exhausted... no one to help me lighten the burden on my shoulder...

keeping silent really help calm me down sia... by doing so, i tend to think things more nicely..hahaha self hypnotise sia...haha think i need a very quiet place to relac myself wif a lovely wife that support me in my doing.... a successful man's back always has a quiet supportive wife.... hahhaha... a proverb... i will be a sucessful person.... i know.... i will not be looked down... not in this life time... got my pilot interview... but dunno y thinking of changing my option le... need to think about it...