Just another day ~ ~

Exam just started.... anxious m i but unconcern about it.... Feels that since last year already, might as well not do so much.... just anyhow study an pass the damn exam can liao....

Dunno y but just cannot seems to really focus so much liao... hm... dunno y... another nite when i cannot sleep... 610 in the morning liao... haiz..... a new day arrive even faster be4 i remember the last nite..

Kiss the forehead of the lover once.....
Take the hand of your loved one.....
Walked down the beach....
Staring at the Brightly lit Moon.....
Background of the wonderful sea....
Breeze blewing through wif smile...
Tickle her nose...
And hug her be4 the wonderful scene that might just come once a lifetime....

:) think just stay up and listen to music bah.... hehehe
feel like going out and eat alot alot of food sia... but think getting broke liao... play and eat too much liao...hahah

There is no harsh time when i m facing myself...

Very tired... did not sleep well again... or should i say.. did not sleep at all... cos of exam... and the troublesome part is i still cannot get much into my brain when my exam is a few hours later... haiz... listening to songs right now... and dreaming away....

Wish that time would just stop right there an then.... The lovely tune of melody spinning throught my head and the heartbeat i feeling it is just as smoothling... after this period of exam would be a short break for me,( that is provided i pass my exam) be4 i get into army.... times flies huh.... this year coming to 21 liao... seems so fast.. but i know the time ahead would be even faster... :) after army, start working or study Uni( which is very low chance unless oversea) or having part time courses... or even get to sign on..... Lotsa decision to make at this point of time.... yet feeling the unfelt enjoyment that i had receive should be greater and much more....

Human... always lusting for more and never satisfy... i understand theory very well myself.... hahaha... but den again i know myself too....

Had a few occasions of being the choice maker or breaker.... but den, things better be left that way in a matter of fact or watsoever...

Really wan to go for a trip soon after my exam... aunt had taiwan in mind and i have korea in mind.... well, whichever it is i will enjoy i guess... since both places i have yet to been to.... even going to nearby countries wif my friends and gf would be interesting... as long as i m enjoying it whichever the place would be will surely be fun....

Thinking of the fun.... well wonder when would it be when one have to stop playing and start to be more serious in other more impt stuffs..... when would it be my turn and at wat point of time would it be ??

kinda bored of the fun i been experiencing right now... nth really that fun gets me into it... should start going for more different things since i stop playing basketball for quite a well already.... time to cut my tyre that is building up wif 5-6 meals a day.... ha.... ha....

Looking forward to the coming holiday.... :) need a rest ....

full ~ ~ and tired ~

haiz.. had lots of eating the past few days...haha.. and the thought of exam coming just make me feel so bored... gee... troublesome troublesome... some more three weeks... so damn long sia... yawn ~ ~ ~ not sleeping well these few days... cannot seems to be able to sleep throughout the nite... seems too uptight over the deadline and exam coming...

haiz... cannot tahan sia... think i better study liao.. sianz..

cannot sleep sia ~ ~

been at least adding up to 2 1/2 days not sleeping le.... cannot get to bed sia... exam and project piling up sia.... headache.. wan to play awhile but does not seems to be able to get past it ~ ~

coming week and the following weeks are all exams and project... shit head sia... dunno can handle not... too much liao... i actually got 2 modules that require me to study the whole book that each at least have 130+ slides to study... no tips no watsoever... wow kaoz.... murder sia.. haiz,,. somemore 2morrow got work sia... and now is 5 liao.. i still cannot get to sleep sia... wow laoz eh ~ ~ how arh ~ ~ `

sianz.... better finish up my poly siaz... start to get bored liao.... yawn ~ ~

emotion carry on life

dunno the little letters in my life Abcdefgh..... i wonder... wat makes someone grow up ??/ is it time that makes us grow ?? or is it the things that we go through that makes us learn ??? or is it the ppl that we meet makes me remember ?? hm... 2006 this year liao sia... hahaha... suddenly going to turn 21 liao sia hahaha seems like very fast hor ???

From sec sch till now.. there are many turning point in life liao... maybe to some, all these turning point that happened is like 'aiya... like that only....haha bo liao leh' but when it comes to personal me thinking.. or when it happened to u, the feeling of it might just seems so bad... dunno wat i m really thinking... listening to Si Lu by liang jing ru....hahaha. suddenly heard it my friend's car so dL and listen in my dark room of resending feeling..

closing my eyes for a min and listen to the songs as well as feeling my heartbeat.. really feel like been alone for some time... cos think i need some time to find my self back... seems to be losing myself... seems to leave things back so far... like suddenly dun care about much things liao sia... seems to have lost my feeling.... dunno y... just wan to go for a long run wif no disturbance.... can anyone help me without letting me know u are helping ?? feel kinda desperate at times like that.. though i know the very next morning i wun feel wat i feel right now...

2006... a very new year... yet i never set any resolution for the year.. very unlike me..... dunno y... just did not have the motivation at all... no target in life for the year... just wan to live my life happily... very afraid of being unhappy this year.... kinda very exhausted... no one to help me lighten the burden on my shoulder...

keeping silent really help calm me down sia... by doing so, i tend to think things more nicely..hahaha self hypnotise sia...haha think i need a very quiet place to relac myself wif a lovely wife that support me in my doing.... a successful man's back always has a quiet supportive wife.... hahhaha... a proverb... i will be a sucessful person.... i know.... i will not be looked down... not in this life time... got my pilot interview... but dunno y thinking of changing my option le... need to think about it...

a turn in life ~ ~

Happy Chinese New year ~ ~ hm.... things really do happened... i dunno... think i m just understanding the diff in ppl from every different corner of the world.... wat i need and want is diff in a way or two... is not about asking for it... but it is about how ppl displayed it out... may not be the perfect move but it is surely a 'move'....

gladly understand the major thinking from wat i knew... yes... i wan sth like that from the very beginning... but since i accepted this, i should have accepted everything open handedly... is not about receiving... but it is about giving...

i really understand... how many ppl are willing to do this ?? the ppl around... many aint going to understand this... till sth happened... may not be the best but it is sth from someone ~ ~

a friend of mine is going to ROM liao... feel so happy for her... really am///

I miss my mum.... :) suddenly the need of a family seems so impt...
A Qns i hate to ans.... do u have any siblings ?? or are u the only child....

and the ans i hate saying.. ' yar.. i m the only child.....
ever understand the feeling ??? well... i dun ask of u all to understand... cos i wun wan any to feel the feeling i been through.... :) a smiling face outside but a unhappy face inside :( ... I miss calling Mummy.....