Dark grey sky...

kinda feel lost suddenly... aint sure wat is going on... but i am lost in my track... choices out there are much much more... would i be stuck here like this...

Things around are started to get messed up... was at home mostly the whole day.. staring at myself... asking myself this and that... till a point... why am i doing this... ever since certain things happened, i just kept walking in circle...

seems to be like a joke...I am the joke... many things just seem to reflect back to me... even right now... the things i wan to blog out aint really coming out... i am feeling so trapped... trapped in the world i made... where is the key??? It is just outside the window.... but i cannot reach it myself... would there be someone to help me... Pls.....

Recently.. i had a dream.... was about a family.... wif my face in it.... but as the dream goes on slowly... i drifted out of the picture.... further and further away..... no matter how hard and fast i tried to run... it just aint getting any closer.... slowly, i saw my mum face........ that was the final straw......

broke down totally.... crushed by the picture and brought down hard on the floor.... I cried.....


Late nites.... without sleep...
memories faded slowly... looking forward to the very new day when i had yet to finish the late troubled nite as i am going through again now....

Thought i had already faced it again and again... but..... like some people say.... i just aint as strong as i looked....

i act like a kid....
i wan to be like a baby...
i wan.... just wat do i wan????
sniff ~ ~


sadness filled my nose again.............

i slapped myself hard today.... come to sense man.... yet again... the pain added a smile... the smile i used to hang on... just as fake....


Let me be.....
my world is trapped...
who will i allowed ??
allowed to open the door to the world of mine...


trust me... it aint easy.... those who have tried know it....
I was slowly made to be a loner... not wat i wanted.. but den again... it might just be wat i was suppose to be in the first place....



i miss the blue sky.......

Hey Hey Hey ~ ~

Really tired... yawn... Thinking so so far away... the heart aint here wif me tonite... Gone wif it into the far end of another country....

Let me recalled...... Ah...

Would'nt it be nice if U are back to the best moment of your life ?? regardless if it is few years ago or to the extend of being a baby... No worries yeah ~ ~ahhaha

BUt den again... i would have to do this... SLAP U HARD IN THE FACE and say " WAKE UP DUDE, IT AINT GOING TO HAPPEN..."

hahhahhaahahhaaaaa.... face it, live wif the life, remember the memories and pls.... Look ahead in life... IF not, it would just be as tiring as before...


Looking forward... really forward to many things... :)
One thing i am sure... I had never felt so good before in my life.... Trust me when i said this... :) Lovely nite huh??? BUT NO STARS>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<< Grrrrrrr.....

Lets see, how to u define the impt of money??? would u be contented wif just the right amt of money to just survive like a very average family ??? ask yourself... let me know if u can ~ ~ :)

distance apart....

Sipping on the cup of warm tea in the middle of the nite... wondering about one of the many things we share...

Funny to say, the ability of us being able to get into a arguement regardless of the distance so far.. would'nt it be better if we could just sit by each other and graze it through...

Emotion went high... feeling let loose...

Could it have been really you??

mildly saying the words like i never do...

I just stare blank into the sky that the god made for us...

I am a flirt<<<< it is a song ~ ~

topic is just a song...hahaha dun get mistaken ~~ hahha so wat ?

wat is life compare to the living thing under the sea ? compare to a flying bird or even the slow crawling snail..

hahha.. y so many ppl say i emo har ?? am i really that emo ??

Tok to me and den again ~~ who do i wan to tok to in the very first place ??
Aint u ~ ~ aint u ,... but just U...

yawn ~ loving the day as it come closer ~~ wonder wat is in store for me ~~ could u spare some clue to me ??

I am a flirt ~ ~ Nice song ~~ so wat if i am a flirt ?? but am i ? gee... hahaha tell me ~~ hahhahaha

Say it right ~~ hahhah yeah ~~ ` i know u like it ~ ~ i know u do ~~
yeah ~ ~

hahahah weee.... so hyper today ~~ freaky ~ ~

Wisdom tooth extraction 2morrow ~ ~oh gee.... wonder would that be a kick in the balls pain ~~ hahhhahah MAd ~ ~