christmas just passed...

A new year is coming and many other things will follow by... friends, school and gf... hm... had a fullfilling year, had so much joy and laughter but not to forget the sadness and trouble that filled the year... hahaha... and right now... having a sickness now... gee.. wat a way to end a year...haha... but nvm... the new year will surely be a better year...

Things are going great, lots of dreams are coming up and have been going quite smoothly.. thing between my r/s are good and though sometime still have those small argument, i find myself loving her more and more... haha stupid her... just make me love her more... and certain things i found out when i m having a hard time... was a surprise.... secret ~ ~ :)

Friendship ~ ~ hm... kinda feel a strange feeling over some friends... very different feeling upon some of them as they have change suddenly ~ ~ or should i say the feeling change ??

Gee... studies and project come in a major load... haiz... holiday also cannot really take a good rest sia... sianz... tired and sick right now... but i know that 2morrow will always be a better day ~ ~ :)

life is short ~ ~

kinda feeling very sleepy after my gf left...hahha... so early in the morning and she have to go for her clinic job ~ ~ gee ~ ~tiring sia ~ ~ well i have to go for my work later too... this week at funan IT Mall...haha aiya... i wan to write a longer blog one.. got feeling come...hahah need to go toilet liao ~ ~kaozz ~~ write another one another time ~ ~though not much time left for me... too much project liao ~ ~sianz~ ~ ~

tired ~~

i wan a place to rest... to ease the problems and tiredness... a place wif no problems... though there are no such places...

just wan to stay at home...

feeling ~ ~

wat is a world wif wif silent?? a perfect moodless world wif the slight dim light hanging over everyones' shoulder... haha... perfect moment of love and laugher.... was walking home just now and felt the familiar quietness around me that surround me other den my ipod...

Feel very relax in a way or two... though i still can compare the feeling of silent wif the sound of my gf that nag at me now and den... haha... diff type of effect that have a similar feeling overcoming me... Kind of smiling to myself after the short walk back home/...

listening to sentimental songs and kind of feel the love tat was shower to me in the young age... but that is the past liao... kind of miss those stupid loving times... as that will always be a memory hiden back at the brain cell somewhere....

Some times just wonder wat ppl say of me... YOu are smart but y u dun wan to study.... hahaha... how do u define smart ?? and wat is the diff between a smart and foolish person ?? the line that seperate them is onli a line apart.... Studies is just a form of knowledge.... i dun understand... does one getting a zero means he is stupid ?? and getting a 100 means a smart guy ??

I got 100 be4 but y i dun feel that i m smart ?? i got zero be4 too but y dun i feel stupid ?? hahha... tell me a ans man ~ ~ ~ :)

hm...

bike and studies... yawn.... tired... ok ok ~ ~ going to makan and abck to lesson liao ~ ~kan boring ~ ~

wat m i thinking ??

hm.... kinda feel out of way after a chat wif my friend last nite... happened to get to know more stuff den i was suppose to know in the first place when things was already out of place liao... damn.... how do i confront myself sia... totally cannot understand it sia... but den things should just settle down for the time being i guess...

so ignorance sia... i just dun understand to the fact la... cannot take it sia... Arh.... dunno whether m i suppose to be angry or watsoever sia... just dun like the feeling of being lied to.... y can't human being be more true to each other ??

how to believe if peopl choose to break the chain of trust in the first place ?? just felt kinda low in the feeling sia... aARhhhhh ~ ~ cannot get over it sia... trying so hard... haiz... maybe a sorry or a true hearted apologize is really needed in a way or two... haiz.... i feel terrible in my form of understanding.... but wat can i do to make ppl understand how i feel ?? do i really have to say all out so as to let them know... but why doesn't their heart strain when they lie.... or m i just too concern wif the thinking i m having right now ?? human are born to lie to one another.... i admit that i too have lied be4... maybe wat i have done also apply to the rest too... cos i had lied be4 too... hAAHAHAH... corny it might sound... terrible the feeling that it hurts..... could not really sleep last nite after wat i heard... just made my blood really boil to the extend sia... i wan to understand the fact but just cannot accept it... hahaha.. maybe i m giving myself too much stress in a way or two... haiz... fine... dun care about it liao... wats happened had happened... it is writen at the back of brain... just whether will history repeat itself again... cos when that day happened... mayvbe it is time to rewrite the next history that will take place....

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back wif a post....hahaha... a friend in need is a friend indeed....hahha... why do girls cry ??? perfect reason is = they do not need a reason...hahaha....

Why do guys cry ?? Reason is simple... they are human too....hahaha... Life is cruel... and it makes everything seems better when wat u do is wat affect yourself the most... yesterday nite was a nite never to be forgotten.... had such a headache in the middle of the nite.... but den was glad i woke up.... :) the pain just seems to went away.... hahhaha... drunken dudes.....hahhaha... 4 drunk ass was in my house + me = 5 drunk ass....hahaha... haiz... receive a call from ah pear in the morning... and felt sth so familiar.... a kind of feeling looking from a distance... though it seems nth at all.. but den it is sth in the overall....

tired le... good nite ~ ~

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no more post..... write it in my heart......

Days these days.....

skip lots of classes.... dunno y... woke up early in the morning and yet telling myself not to go for the lesson... laziness i guess... back to the usual me... haiz... went to see a chinese doc.... was told that my knee is quite serious... need to relax and rest a lot... even walking have to be cut down... geeezzz.... told me no more basketball for 6 mth... OHG... how to .... guess i just have to learn it the hard way.....

Met up wif two of my pri sch 'sis'... so much changes in them liao... haha had some catching session and went to play pool and K-box wif one of their bf joining us... gee... ~ ~ hahaha.... it been so long since i got to meet up wif them... so much things to tok and lots of memories.... going to meet up wif them this friday for a drink... hahaha... first time going drinking wif them sia... hope none of us get drunk sia... cos in watsoever case.. i will have to send them home sia... aiyoo... y m i born wif a dick infront and not mountains instead.... hahaha... typical thinking... went to catch a movie wif a sec sch friend today and was like kinda fun... tok rubbish and crap throughout sia... hm.... so tired and restless... think i go and sleep liao bah... nite my friends..... i m gone....... tonite.....

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31th was a hell of a nite... partying through all nite wif a bunch of friends...haha... indochine..geezz.... freaking small sia.. but atmosphere was still not so bad sia...hahaha... dance till the late wee.... and went to weizhong house for another round of drinking... geez.... freaking hell of mixture from ster... almost a goner for some ppl...<<< u know who u are>>>>. hahahah... drank till shiok... and subject of topic was limited onli to ** ** ** ** ** hahhahah.... another nite gone... gee... dunno y nowadays i cannot get to sleep at all...6.09 am liao... still cannot sleep... dunno wat the hell m i going through sia... haiz... had a tok wif a sis online and she was all troubling about her bf... gee.... sad to hear that... but den everything always has a meaning to sth... is onli whether or not u find the ans to it....hahaha

OK la... dun fret anymore liao... next monday is going to be SCH reopening liao... WOoWoOWo... hot chicks.... here i come....hahahhah... heard form my friends that my school now is filled... and i Mean FILLED wif niceeeesssss gals... can bio liao...hahahaha... but that have to wait first.. cos i will be going bangkok this thursday... haaha some holiday be4 i get back to sch yah ~ ~enjoy... i hope i do.. hm.... going to explore some places there liao sia...hahha wonder if i have anymore $$$ to spend sia.. totally wasted all my $$ in my bank... as good as gone.. but den.. it is not the first time i gone broke....hahaha.. i always manage to survive to my next riches.... till den ~ ~ ~

stare blankly....

Gee... could not fall to sleep sia... from the last post i made till now i still cannot sleep sia... haiz... dunno wats wrong wif me... tensed up suddenly... gee... now is 7.14am liao sia... going gym and swimming wif some kakis later sia... hm... afternoon going out wif a sec sch classmate den at nite go and chiong again... shiok... indochime tonite... dunno wat special things will we go through this time... just5 wan to party whole nite sia... no rules no watsoever... just lifting my body into the spirits lo...hahhaha...... lets see whether tonite can break record not...hehehe... secret... lame la... hm.... morning liao leh... going to do wat sia... sianz.... rotting liao la... dunno how many nite never really sleep liao.... almost everynite my friends come over and play sia... the new sengkang chalet liao lo...

:) hm... heard from some friends that the truth that always seems to hurt aint always the most hurtful thing u will hear.... but the one that tells u that truth.. hm... true a not har?? Vote leh... I vote... True... ARh..... freaking knee cap sia.. think need to use some screw and tighten it liao.. haiz... not worth it sia... play basketball till like that... yet wat i achieve ?? haiz... waste my time and passion for it... till now yet about to find my real team mates sia.. only a few here and there that are so scattered around.... nvm la.. maybe basketball aint my cup of tea after all bah... just for leisure lo.. as a friend said to me.. y u wan to play so hard?? play for fun good enough liao mah... haiz... how good is consider good enough?? the sweat and anger throughtout it just made me wondered.... cannot imagine wat it would have been if i continue to stick to running as my CCA...haha... run run run.... wrong move again...haha... nvm la.. over liao la.. anyway running just seems so boring... all u can do is move your leg and sweat in a way that is not shiok...hahaha... dunno la... aiyo... y my army medical check up kana defer again sia... idiot la... waste my time... wan to know which pacs i can go into sia... hopefully is A...haha.. den can garang garang...hahaha.. cannot imagine if i go into C or D... sloappy sia... come out become fat ass i sure die sia...hahhaha.. think too much liao la... must be too hyper that y i cannot get to sleep.... diaoz diaoz... health been going down liao sia... eat things eat liao sure feel funny in the tummy one...hahah. dunno wat is going on wif me sia... yawn ~ ~ finally i yawn liao...hahaha.. but den too late liao going out soon....

Aiytooooooo so sianz leh ~ ~ ~HElp ARH ~ ~hahahahahahahah ok ok stop liao... yawn again ` ~ ~

yawn ~ ~

So tired sia... so long never update blog liao sia...haha.. also dunno wat to write le la... so many things... summary la... sianz and bored... finish...

haha.. kidding la.. aiyo hm... one more week be4 sch start.. not bad not bad.. at least there is sth to do liao lo.. last sem liao.. dunno whether i will piang a not leh..haha... sch.. see first la hor... haiz... year end coming liao... aiyoo... think my resolution of the year cannot make it sia.. wan to buy a bike.. but den $$$ wise not able to liao la... sianz... haiz... have to set it further liao... so boring... haiz... nvm la.. just have to make do wif it liao lo... going abck to the broke end liao sia... totally... tsk tsk tsk... shame of myself sia... anyhow spend..hahaha.. but heck la... nvm lo.. over liao.. just make do of the situation right now lo.. hm... army life coming soon also... wonder where will i go sia... better let it be some good things.. dun really wan to slack in there sia.. if not no point... slack 2 years there and waste time... hahaha... dunno la... aiya... stop first... go and eat some snack... super hungry... aiyoo... think my knee cap going to go off sooner or later liao.. must take care of myself sia... tsk tsk tsk... jialak liao la...hahaha.. nvm... ai zai..hahaha... go and makan supper liao

Genting ~ ~~

WooWooWoooo.. back from genting liao...haha... family outing sia...haha... really relaxing sia.... though nth much was done except lots of eating la...hahaha... went wif my small cousins and my aunts...hahah... totally no control sia... really can do watever i want there... but den also not much things can be done sia...hahaha... walk and eat, eat and play... play liao den eat again... hahahahaha can say really is doing everything that a free person can do liao lo... hahaha... coming thursday going wif my basketball coach and my friends sia... GENTING AGAIN... hm... wonder wat else can i do there sia... hahahaha and did i mention that there was a guy introducing gals for some fun at nite...hahahahahah totally freaked out sia...hahha

STRESSSSSSSS

i just wan to play... friends... find me out and play..... coach train me till i cannot tahan... i just wan to DESTRESSSSSSSSSSSS..... basketball is a good way.... spending $$ is a good way.... ARH ~ ~ ~ ~ ~~

WON ~ ~ hahaha....

Gee... had a important basketball match yesterday and my team Won...haha... won by 3 points.... a very close game... gee... super gan chiong sia.... did not perform too good... too tensed up for this game liao...haha.. but den nvm... i m so damn sure i m going to play very well next match...haha... i will.. YEAH ~ ~ ~

WoooWOoooo... ~ ~

wat the F ???hahah... F is name FREAKY + FRANCIS + FUCKING = FREAKYFRANCIS FUCKING ~ ~~ AHaha... i going nUTs....hahaha... blast my music to the top of the volume.... hahaha... drive my uncle car go chiong...hahaha.ha.h.a. .shiok la..... come come come... shag me baby...haha.ha..ha.ha..... i wanna play... come come play wif me.... DAYS are never better...haha.h.... HECk... lets see wat i can play wif... You .. you.... aiya,.... you la....hahah.a... basketball is Great... my game... my weakest game and yet the greatest passion for it... hahaha... life aint great wif my montion running up and high... lets DO it...haha.... COME COME COME ON.... shake that bitch....hahahaha.... WHOOWoWOOWoOWoooooo... BE BE BOYS AND GALS>>>>>>>> dance dance wif me... COcain... wooo WOoowoo... lets try it... U NUTS ???? hahahaha WhoWoooo... the greatest feeling of doing sth is not knowing that you are doing it.... FUCKING GREAT<>>>>>>> haha... i did not know... but heck.. i enjoy it...haha... thanks .....hahahaha.. FAKE ID ?? nah... i over it,...hahah... come coem... just spend few hundred dollar in 5 min...hahaha... WoOWoWoooo.. y?? u KPO la... my money leh...hahha.... come come come... MOnday basketball... WOOWoWoOwoooo.. MATCH again.... gee..... will win a not har ???Haha aIya.... HECK LA>>>>>.. dun wan to affect my mood anyway...haha... friends... GEEE>>EE>> aint that tag good ??? hahahahahah hm..... lets go BIKING TONITE>>>. hm.... lets see..... RVF, SUPER 4 ??? gee... wat the hell... all try be4 liao la... lets do the CBR....haha.. or better.... BMW>..haha.ha.h.a. wat are u toking man ??? lets fuck it ??? hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..... i wanna drink wif happines... come come come... MY TREAT ~ ~ ~ woWoOWOWoooooOWOWooo,.... try so hard ??? nah .. not good enough la... y leh ??? cos i dun wan mah.... me??? no la... kidding.... i wan to FLY ~ ~ woOWOWoWOoo.. wings are growing out soon... WoOWoWoOWOwoooo.. Yosz...z.z.z..... Ah bing har...haha... KPKB la.... haha... call again.... lets do it... speed speed speed..... wOWoOWOWoOooo.. wat the hell ??? dangerous turing aint the coolest things.... crashing is moment of joy..... .ha.h.a.h... lets GOO GOOG OOGO OOO GOOOOGOO GOOOO>... dun contact me anyone...haha..a.. but i think contact me la... den i can freaking spend $$ till i shiok... lets see... i wan to spend $$$$$$$ hahahah... but now no $$ liao.. just spend it off just now... Aiya.... no prob la.... ai zia.... hahahaha jump jump jump... i wan to stand...hahahah BYE BYE FUCKING WORLD>>> I LOVE MYSELF>>..ha.ha.ha.h....... fun aint over till u drop ~ ~ ~~

trying hard.... YEAH ~ ~

Pushing myself to more challeague...hahaha basketball and other stuff... quite happy wif the life right now... haha.. shiok... basketball,gf, friends and other stuff... mroe relax in a way or two... though i need to improve more on my basketball skill for the competition to ease my team mate load... i can do it... no problem... survive one more match and we have made it... hahaa... i know we can do it.... i will push myself to the limit regardless of wat... i know i will... my shots will not be empty promises... i will make sure..

been a long time

dunno how long never blog liao...hahah.. since nth much to do during my attachment now.. den i come and update lo..hahaha.. hm... where to start... ok ok ok.. few days ago just had another match dunno against who.. and we won... hahaha shiok.. win 9 points.... though not much but den think we can do much better sia.. cos we play till very average onli... hahahah...

sat actually have to work but den.. due to some things den did not work...hahaha.. pei gf whole day sia... went to sentosa and tanned till shiok... hahaha... den nite time went to celebrate one of her ten 'sister' birthday.. after tat went to play pool sia... 100% victory...hahaa zai leh... hm... my lovely dear stress up sia... work and work and work... meeting and camp all cramping up on her... but den ai zai... she can do it one.. hehehe.. me supporting her leh...
gee... one more week to end my attachment.. or should i say 4 1/2 days left... and it is freedom from a boring world of metals...hahah... but den weekend still have to work la.. but at least that i dun mind... weekdays can still go and train my basketball and go do my own stuff.. gee... waited for 6 months to have a good break liao sia... hahahahahahahahaha..... 1 more month be4 i can go for my 2A bike lesson... quickly come sia... my lovely bike in my hand liao sia.. wooOWoOWoooo... at nite can chiong till i song liao sia... buay tahan... cannot wait sia... now work harder for it first... den can bring gf out wif my bike..hehehe... though have car licence... but dun really like to drive... not much fun... bike more exciting for me... hahahaha... go places also fang pian... but when it rain.. den siao 1/2 lo...hahaha. nvm la.. think so far for wat... get liao den i get more happy la...hahaha.... SHIOK... 3-10-05 another match coming up... win this match and we are almost through to another round... shiok sia... reputation sure go up sia...haha..

a point will always be a point....

lose means lose... one point lost is the same as losing 20 points... but difference is whether did the team fought hard enough to prevent it from happening.... wat happened today was wat i conclued... NO.... haiz....

56-57..... last possession was ours... and he just threw it like a bomb... and throughout the match... he shoot like every ball is for free.... DAMN.... ARH>>>>>... damn disappointed with this team mate sia... ARHHHHH>..... wanted so much to win it... and burst....

so wat if i wanted to win so badly... without the team.. i m a lone fighter....
mistake made again... forever....

just felt tired and sianz ~ ~

let me walk in the lonely street with the vocal of mine riding in the air of silent nite....

i just feel so sore around my body... feel so tired...

Make the surrounding change... i hate to say this... cos i wan to change for the surrounding...

so lets just feel the quiet side on a person in direct motion....

good nite...

as usual...

Yesterday was the day that she gave birth to me 20 years ago....

Days of birthday are as usual... nth really good occur at this point of time every year... just some nice thought from my gal that kept my day glowing... sometime the days that seems so special can easily be forgotten or even pass by faster den the usual time u spend on each day.. mine was as per normal... monotone...

people always ask... wat would u do if u have onli one day left in this world... many ans like spending time with their close one and having a watever non-sense-si-ca crap la... for me... dun think i have much of a option... just let the day goes by me, i guess this would be the ans for the inner me speaking aloud from the outer me... i need something in this world that i do not really know of...

I wan this and that... but i dun wan them at all...

Love me for who i m...dun change me.... i used to tell them that... but den.....

This world is funny... it just keep rotating till the rotating plate goes off and crash... y does it need to do so ?? no ans ?? or m i just foolish from myself... Make the world spin the other way round... how is a Qns... but Why?? wat for ??? ignore me now... that is the life that i currently feel... Dun ask me Qns... i m those sort of people that dun like to handle Ans.... ok...ok... i m a running away person in green and black... i m nobody... and Nobody can handle me.... i m a AssssssHooooOoooOoollllllllllleeeeeeeee..... POO...

Just a bored day...

So sianz sia.... boring like hell sia... < who say hell was boring??? > kan sianz la... went to attachment and sloap there sia.. do report and ISO thing till sianz..
went home at 6 today... super bored.. den reach home, watch the stupid 7pm show... boring like hell... den went to compasspoint at around 730..went to the M1 shop and buy a birthday present for myself...

lol... got a new handphone.... VS2 panasonic phone.. haha... first time using panasonic phone... nth special about the phone.. just like the outer cover and color screen... lol... sianz... but dun worry.. i still going to use my V200...haha.. my 2 year + phone.. :) went home to watch SUPERSTAR... WOooWOooo F2.. ZAI.... haha.. have a wonderful tone and lovely tune to her songs sia...

haiz... boring day... go and sleep le la... nth seems really nice today... :(

so busy ~ ~

work was so boring today.. gee... load of work awaiting... during this attachment, felt that some ppl there just use their responsibility to press their work on me... wat the hell??? i m only here for attachment... not earning the same pay as the rest of u ppl... if i earn the same amount, i dun mind working OT.. but den now u are all forcing me to do OT... siao har...

Ass sia.. den now work place for freaking remours spreading around... shit sia.. back from MC den this is the first piece of news i get from them... HAHAHAHAH... siao la... not my stuff lo... i got a GF liao lo... yucks sia... damn furious sia...

but some good news in the middle of the day... kana praise by someone...haha... more ***** den someone else in the company...hahaha... hear liao buay tahan..hahaha...

think now gf kana stress over certain things.. but den things will surely work out just fine.. no problem de... :) the sun is always shinning brightly for you... the turtles are waiting for u ... :)

getting sick again ~ ~ `

gee... think i m getting sick again... Arh.... sianz... cannot take MC liao la... that time took 4 days in a row, den might have to re-attachment again sia.. sianz... yawn... these few days was out wif gf lo...haha.. had some nice moment together... :) nice nice...haha... go here walk walk.. go there walk walk...haha... not bad... been a long time since got time like that liao...

haiz... have to go attachment again sia.. sianz sia... boring boring sia... arh... some more think going to quit my handphone job liaoo... dunno wat the F**king management doing... sales not bad still trying to cut down pay... and some more cut down so much... hell sia... waiting for another job to come by sia... wait silently.... haiz... seems like my bike just have to wait again... sianz...

sick sia... arh.. no mood to continue... another day perhaps/// :)

a day like this ~ ~

later for work again... sianz.. attandance like shit + keep on arriving late... seems like i might have to repeat my attachment sia... hahaha... nvm la... seen it through liao.. just let things goes it way lo...

Things in company today was like a war.... loads of things to do and compile... and there was a really tense situation in the afternoon... cos of certain misunderstanding.. haiz... Office political things just dun seems really right huh ~ ~ Wonder these stuff ever got known to the BOSS...haha... just seems really funny wat Boss is thinking apart from the workers... The normal friends way of thinking in a relax moment... haha...

Spend a long day out today... had a tok wif 2 friends from the company about things around us and around the company... and i found out some freaking truth... a guy was interested in me... oH my freaking name of Francis...haha... idiot sia... no wonder that guy always trying to tok to me out of no where... diaoz... SIAM... haha... another is found out 2 lady kept asking about me...haha.. lol... at least i still seems normal in the Market...hahaha... sianz la.. 2morrow going to work again.. go and sleep liao... nitez ~ ~

the 7th month.....

this month is the lunar 7th month... haha.... come to think of it... aug 9 is the 7th month of my r/s .... i made it so dull.... haiz... mood was just so down... ate pizza wif her... gee... and all this while onli mention about national day celebration....<<<<< '-_- ||| >>>>> so quietly it went by... cos i dunno wat got into me as well... just so quiet al these while....

went to walk alone... walk around the mall... interchange....plaza..... back to 7-11 and back to arcade and back to plaza... moodless... need a wheel... any wheel... to move around... i m waiting...

haiz.. feel so really down... but just wan to eat watermelon...... hahaha... dunno y... sianz.... think 2morrow after work go home and really sleep throught the whole nite.... need a nice bed to really rest well... good nite to all... and of cos my dear.... sorry to spoilt the day yet again... fireworks will never end just today....
there will always be another day..... and when that day come.. i hope to really smile wif u throughout it....

nite is short... i wan to feel the faint feeling again... i wan to think about it again... i love u mom... :) i will be waiting... nitezzzz

walking slowly.....

ok listen up everyone... DO NOT... and i mean DO NOT come and give me any troubles to frustrate me... gee.... right now i just m alright wif things.. i dun wan any none-sense-sic-ca-rubbish from anyone... i m ALRIGHT wif my lifestyle now... everyone <<<<< dun give me anything to trouble wif... i do not wan any... especially if there isn't any problem at all.... i really wan to cool down in my thinking... so everyone just stop giving me Shitty stuff to think...

Just going to really keep more quiet... DUN ASK ME Y SO QUIET>>>> this is my choice.. OK !!!!!! you can choose to shut your trap too !!!!!

listen more and tok lesser... and maybe you and i can learn a bit more in life... wonder how i would have became if i had chosen another route down the road.... Well, one thing for sure... i would surely have more fun den now.. might be more focus in my expectation and would have met more friends... hm.... Geee.... made a lot of wrong turns in my life... OH MY >>>>>>> <<<<<<< feel like going back to time and make another choice... a more clever choice...

Y get stuck in SIngapore sia... Aiyooo... counting the years... should be Uni liao...hahaha... think too much liao la.... ass.. lick my toe la.... HA...

watever i do just seems so not logical sia... ever wonder wat lead me to making so much wrong moves... Basketball is one of them.... FARK YOU ******I ... should have concentrated on my rifle shooting... wasted my marksmanship... freak... wat the hell.....

Heck... i wan to live my young life much more happier... i wan to live my life without asking or ansing to anything... as long as there is no wrong... i m so dead serious of getting another Tattoo....
Everyone say..." Wow... old liao sure very ugly one lo..." freak la.. when u old liao u recall everythin u do is like.. y i never try this y i never try that... HA... ass man.. u guys are just a diff world kid from me... yeah.. Tattoo makes people think u are gangster or watever shit ass ppl down the road...

well... Many White collar shirts ppl are ppl wif a freaking invisible mask tattoo across your face.. well... think about who the people u are going to work wif... tsk tsk tsk.. pitiful as life goes on... many wonder the road that we choose... well, lets just say it can be a road to you ppl... i choose to fly instead.....

Heaven and Hell.... tell me the diff clearly... anyone...
TO me it is just a world diff... a name of diff and purpose of diff... and who said Hell ain't GOOD ?? gee.... WAKe up... how would u know heaven is heaven and not hell in stead >?? u going to prove tat to yourself only after u die?? i choose to make myself clearly by following myself in the belief of wat i can do..... freaking tired wif the life right now... just let me finish Poly fast... get into the freaking army academy and move on wif life... after that everything should have change drastically for me.... haha... thinking, problem handling and friends.... should have all change by den... and a new life await... gee... the present life just aint wat i wan....

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my blog just sucks right ??? but yours sucks too..... ahaha... lets quieted down the life once again... it has been time since i party... well... let it end for a moment be4 going back to the life again... yawn....

things aint the same as the past.... never will be... guess time really make someone grow old wif regret huh.... well... i dun have regret... regardless of anything right now... so stop making me feel guilty... all done is the past... may the world filled wif gift of happiness... i wan to get monotone again.... quiet seems to be my cup of tea... just feel so bored after so much laughters.... yawn... just wan to play basketball for the time being.... think the feeling is coming back.. need to divide my time to suit everything right now... wonder wat will the proportion be... lets just hope it will be even... % alone.... % friends... % gf... % basketball and 5% for old friends....

wonder wat the feedback from myself will be.... nah... think i will earse the percentage... freak ass... i wan my fringe back... no more short cute hair.... :(

yawn ~ ~

take 4 days of MC liao... headache... aiyoo... not that serious though....haha... ai zai.. coming weekend got chalet...haha... TGR birthday chalet.. .hehe.... wonder if everything will be fun... boring...hahaha... dunno wat to write... not in the mood of writing... shit... need a recorder..... tape recorder... will like record sth.... my last wish,.....haha.. kidding la/... hahah... sloappy shit... Arh.... boring... dun feel like going to attachment sia... waste of time,.... rather go back to sch sia... BORING >...... sianz la... nth to write liao... ZzZzzzzZzzzzzz !!!!!

all by my self.........

things just went wrong.... seriously wrong... nth much happened... but things still went wrong... i m a loser.... i bet i m... crap... since this thing happened... think i am going to be a lousy bastard again.... freak care...
and right at this moment.. this job came by.... FINE>>>>.. i will take it.... since i made it my way... den i shall make it really freaking different... i m going to change...

this job is changing my life for sure......

so bored at work....

Wat would you ans when a person ask u this Qns " would u cry for your enemy?" i wonder... if i cry... do i treat that person as a enemy??? but if i dun cry... m i a coldhearted person???

Aiya... think i would cry bah... but den not cos i m a coldblooded person.. cos at most will think that i m a childish person bah... for wat reason would i have him/her as a enemy ??

come to think about it... y would anyone have a enemy??? wat interest is there?? hate is so meaningless.. boring as well....

hahaha... end of july liao...haha... waiting for year end party... ahahah also dunno y suddenly say so... machiam really got some major planning liao sia.... dun care la.... going for party...hahahaha... sianz.... dunno wat i toking in here right now also.... aiyooooooo today is so darm busy and sianz.... busy in the early afternoon.... freaking boring in the later afternoon.... KAoz ~ ~~ 2morrow last day in this QC section liao...hahaha.... going to the design area liao... all of them tell me design area is good... relax wif nobody bothering me.... hahahaha... think i m going to create havoc there liao... but den sianz leh... have to know diff ppl again... boring... this QC section is fun cos everyone also can play one.... hahah.. nvm la.... design area should be more or less the same bah.... yawn... sianz... take a break ffirst... go out for a slight walk first....hahahah

dance wif me ~ ~~

hm... sad to say... routine is wat i have been following lately... motionless routine... endless feel of time flowing by me... meaningless ??? that wat i felt to a certain extend.. to be a person that uses the time as power... will i become a person of such ?? time goes by and soon it will reveal...

The week is halfway through... the time to rest have finally come... resulting in many meaningful time spending... togetherness is sth wat i miss... the feel of strength is wat i have been lacking... the radiance is the color which cannot be found within the name Francis..... i miss the life...

Wanting it so bad to be a mightly motivation is a good or bad sign ?? let the light guide me slowly throught... i m who i m... that is true... may the sky drop a thousand drops of rain upon my shoulder... the weight of heaven is on me...

Come to think so it.... Laughter is a man's miserable life style....

tired....

Suddenly just felt so tired of things around sia... very tired... wan to get away from everything... think i m really changing sia... freak... is it the good and truthful me ?? or is the bad and ass me getting up on me... all i know, i m getting tired of things around me suddenly.... i wan to be alone for the time being... i need a room for myself to rest.....

Fark ~ ~ ~i need it man..... it is killing me right this instant.... nth goes wrong... but i feel the need to be alone right now... ARH>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> FEED me the med to the everlasting high feeling.... gosh... went to a party on sat... think i really needed that... was drinking the very instead i got there... hahah... Vodka sprite.. my taste... dance around and got to know some friends... ARH>... need that life right now... i need to rest and play like a ass fucker.... i wan to be a Sicnarf....... the totally diff me ...... GEt a life man..... i need that a pen knife... the rope is too tight for me to breath.... BUddys out there... GEt me moving around ~ ~~ i need a LIFE>>>>>>>>>>>>.

circle....bubbling....hahahaha

aiyoo... think this is the first time i draw so much circle sia...haha.. my attachment...joker sia.. ask me to do bubbling for drawings, so as for indication...haha... think at least draw 500+ circle liao sia... hahaha... draw till i fell asleep sia...haha.. some more my seat now is on the manager seats sia...haha.. steady hor ??haha.... promote liao...haha.. no la.. kidding.. cos now no manager so i go and sit there lo.. no objection also...hahaha...

Have to do alot of report sia.. sianz... from dunno how to use excel... now i expert at excel sia...haha... did not know got those special codes in excel one... COOL...hahah...haiz... today crazy one... 530 liao den gave me 5 report and tell me need to finish it by today.... siaoz.... for my level i think i need at least 7 or 8 hours lo... diaoz... but den tried to chiong for them 3 report be4 i go sia... kaoz.... everyday should be 8-5... now everyday also 8-7.... till wan me to stay longer till 830... siao bo... haiz... sat have to work also... 8-12... aiyoo... but actually longer sia.... OT again.. should be at least 8-3 sia... but i got to go M1 to work so work out to 8-12 on every sat lo... so i can go to M1 and work from 1pm onwards.... haiz...

tired sia... work till 7plus... den quickly chiong back to hougang and met up my dear dear....heheh... ate at magic wok.. not bad not bad... eat till my whole tummy bloated sia...haha.. den went to arcade and play game...haha.. relaxing sia... den went home lo.... now right here... so tired... everyday also like rushing sia... but den slowly can get used to it de la...haha.. 2morrow is FRIDAY...haha... hope Wilson, Ray and Andy going out sia...haha.. so i can at least meet up some friends sia... ar bo har... really like no life sia... haiz... even meet my gf also not much time also... haiz... this 3 months quickly go past har... really really too terrible le.... haha.. but den also not bad la... got earn a bit extra in this way also... can la.. survive these 3 months lo... Yawn... time to turn in again... been a long time since i felt the sun sia... and i mean this sentence sia... dunno how long never really felt a good shine liao sia... haiz....

the day....

attachment...haiz.. boring...hahaha... sucks though... did not really like that place... sianz... hope it will finish quickly...hhaha... went home and waited for my ai xin pian tang...hahah... not bad not bad... taste simple but nice...hehe... she went home soon after... :) surprise that she told me sth that sweet.. at least that made me felt good after a good long tired day... hm... she still sick sia... hope she get well soon... :)

haiz.. dunno whether my weekend work still can work a not sia.. stupid attachment... sianz... think have to sort out my timing very hard sia... nvm la.. will work out de... broad thinking liao... no sweat... suffer a bit more and endure more and i will be a better man... This i believe.... :)

late nite...

time is around 1.30 am la... later going to attactment le...haiz... dunno going to do wat there sia... sianz... the days went by as usual... basketball training... Weak as usual... dunno how to get myself on track again... haiz... went to dinner wif bao, XL, kailong, chin xiang at marina having steamboat... ate and tok alot sia... haiz.. advice given to everyone and receive from everyone... seems like everyone is having their own problems in a way or two... haiz....

Just hope to have more time sia.. really really not enough time for too much things... not even a good time to sleep well... really hope to finish my poly life quickly... den off to army first... dunno wat to do sia... haiz... headache.. no life support at the moment.. thinking hard and clear.... wat to do sia... aiyoo yoo.. Engineering... sianz... unless really go for Uni... which is impossible for me bah... result too poor liao..haha... haiz... oversea Uni ??? haiz... think again bah... sianz... how i wish i can have my life to go by easily... sianz...

On my way back, on the train.... also tok alot wif them sia... sianz... headache... even ster also advice me sia..haha... thaat chap...haha.. think and think and think... how to solve solution when the problems just lies on me... sort myself out... yah....

while waiting for the last bus home... a farking gay ask for direction and took the same bus wif me... when i was about to alight... still ask me whether i wan him to come down together... __|__ la... still say can give me a good time... F sia... homo sick ass... somemore is totally a guy lo... YUCKS>>>. kan sianz... reach home liao... now also sianz... going to sleep liao la... dun care liao la... wait till the rain stop raining on me la... dun even wan to bring umbrella at all... just wait lo.... haiz....

the days are gone....

IPG was over yesterday... never thought it would end so fast... time really flies.. and mind really wonder as far as it can go... 3 months and Poosh... it was over already...

Met a lot of interesting ppl along the way, and most importantly made friends in the process.. Wilson, Andy,Ray, Xiao Zhou and Zhilun... these guys realyl made me laugh till drop during the IPG.. Learn and Learn, Grow and grow.. Gain alot during these days.. so much more that wat i had expected from it..even from wat i thought was just a lame project... which turn out to be a life time experience for me... THANK YOU MR CHOO>..... Can never forget.. Just hold on to the hope of getting together for dinner or supper at times... really had agreat time during these past 3 months... hahhahaha... Wilson accompanying me to take bus....Andy toking a lot of jokes to us...Xiao Zhou saying " Bu yao la.." Zhilun acting the Wu Qiong pattern...haha... how to be unhappy in the presence of these ppl... :)

I wish the best for these buddy... And when times comes again... i Hope we will have the chances to gather once again...

Good nite my pals..

Moodless today....

Dunno y felt so bored today... feeling really very hyper but there was like nth that i can play wif.... shit... have to sit down and do the drawing... haiz... den was like really bored today... sianz...

next week going to attactment liao... at loyang...haha... lucky is near my house... Pwhee.... but pay so damn low... cheap labour sia... aiyoo... lucky still got week end work for me.. if not sure dunno how to survive... haha... haiz... not much mood to write this blog... a bit monotone now... think i go and sleep liao la... haiz... 2 more days to the end of my IPG.... haiz... really really sad sia....

last week of IPG

hm.... presentation over liao... den all the things almost finish liao.. parts are all up liao... and going to send it over to the company on thursday liao... hahaha... so proud.... :)

seems really fast sia.. 3months over liao... from nth to 2 big machines that helps a company earn much more $$$$.... geeee... going to miss the days in IPG sia... think it had been the best part of my poly life sia... the happy go lucky me changing into a more serious guy when doing the project really make me feel good inside sia... especially when my supervisor appreciate our involvement so much... haiz... but den going to attactment soon again... going to miss my lab mates sia... esp people like wilson<<< lamer but a nice guy>>>> matthew<<< funny guy and i like to bully him..hahaa>>>Ray<<<<< hahaha... BOSS... cos he got car and drive us around... though at times i get to drive them around instead<<<<>>> drug producer... haha... a nice guy sia... joker as well....<<< Xiao Zhou>>>>> my partner.... hahaha... very fun guy... always alot of funny and interesting thing to tell me... learn a lot from him....<<<<< ZhiLun>>>>>> NIce guy as well... always tok rubbish wif us....hahaha..<<< Gee.... and there is Daniel... THANKS MAN.... help us a lot wif our project... thought he is a lab assistant, no air is being put on sia... hehe... and Janice...haha... new lab assistant... gong gong one... always give me Cold jokes... diao diao one sia.... haha. but not bad la... fun person...

MY BOSS>>>>> MR CHOO.... Whooooo OWooooo.... lots of thanks and Gratitude to him sia.... lots of patience teaching me sia... hahah... though at times he really buay tahan me sia... haha... cos always blur TU* sia.... haha...

Had so much fun moment sia... think i really going to miss the people and lab sia... haiz.... but den.. life still have to move on.. and i will surely move on... THANKS FOR ALL THE GOOD MEMORIES>>>>>>> NTH beats that...... :)

looking ahead.....

Time goes by faster and faster each day.... the world is spinning harder and harder... but y m i walking slower and slower... cannot keep up the pace??? or is it just the force of support not enough... by the time i reach the checkpoint, the audiences have already left....

maybe i should have think about the route i was to take be4 setting off in my life... wonder how the near future would lead me too... few more months be4 going into the army... haha.. fast hor... seems like 3 years ago when i was still saying " aiya, still a long way la... three years later leh... hahhaah"
hm... come to think of it... wat have i achieve in these few days ?? haiz... shame to say... nth was done... just spending my youth away... having some things uncompleted in life... when will i feel the fulfilling moment in my life ??? just waiting for the right time to come... or should i say... fighting for the moment to reach...

Having some thoughts recently and was like... maybe it is really time to settle myself in my mindcept wise... time to stop fooling around... where was the dream i had when i was young... drifted away from me just so far away.... have not been myself lately.. even at times when i m enjoying... felt sth bothering me... haha... the mind is tricking me again... tell me that i m being respected.... well, only when i m working or doing the project in IPG do i felt the respect given...

How many ppl actually appreciate to respect YOU ?? well.... think about it... y should they....... Earn it and lose it at the same time...

I wan to earn sth... i will get it no matter wat... the me that is me....

the day was tired....

Went to sch as usual... and did the things as usual... but was not really in a good mood... dunno y... after 10am break, went to the blood donation drive... haha... donated blood... haiz... felt kinda weak... hhaha... dunno y also... went back to the lab and was like starting to tok and do things at the same time... but just felt funny in a way... took some stupid pic wif some friends.... next coming week will be my last week in the IPG lab... sad.... haiz... such good memories...

Went to cc after sch... was going to play basketball when suddenly all my friends say y i look so pale and ghastly.... haha... thought wat happened sia... hm... wonder whether is it the blood donation... haha.. but when did i became so weak ?? play basketball also like no strenght.... but den determination kept me going... was playing really hard today.. kept pushing myself to the limit... and found out certain things that i could not figure out in the past...

Felt so tired sia... nearly slept on the bus... den even when reach home still have to cook food for myself...as usual la... haha... a bit tired la.. but damn hungry and was not into cooking mee.... cannot believe i actually slowly whip up a meal for myself at 11+ pm.... haha... so tired right now... think i still going to do my project first be4 sleeping... haiz... Stupid presentation on the coming week... going to make that stupid assessor eat up her words when she get to hear my presentation... ask me another idiotic Qns and i will make sure u get a Qns that u are not able to ans... haha... 2morrow still got to work... think i better settle my project first.... project is going to be sent to the company liao... going to take photos of it sia... my daughter is marrying away liao... sob.. sob...

gloomy morning...

MOrning...... some things happen yesterday... found out some truth and knew some things.... corny that it may seems... if you choose not to believe wat i said, den i guess things aint in my control den... seems that u are enjoying life too... going out wif friends and your BRO friends... corny... think i should just go to my world and turn back to who i m....

The world is spinning but i m still standing.... wat is truth and belief... when both the two things are wat u had forsaken....... Y would u bother to ask me this Qns if the ans i gave is not being accepted.... or was it sth that is happening around... Little and wat i known is a fact.... who u been with is also a fact... i m not telling the world... but the world is telling me... or should i say.... You are telling me...

was it my ans u are waiting for..... or was it you that is trying to tell me the ans...

rush and rushing...

WoooWOoo.. stupid shinei la... make us change and change... ARH>>>>>. at the rate right now... dunno can totally complete the whole set not sia... think i going to try my best to help my Mr Choo sia... think he also very stress up wif the dead line closing up... hm...

One presentation is over... aha.. did not know i can actually bluff my way through sia... hahaha... acted like a clown.. but was fun... next week still got another presentation... aiyoo... ma fan sia.. almost finish my presentation slides le... onli going to mend it slightly more.. hahaa... but my final report... hm... dunno have to stay up how many nites to finish it sia... hahaha... nvm... i will strive... haha... combination of everythings... haha.. making me stronger each day... YES... i will survive to the end... haiz... basketball seems to be getting bad... but nvm... just have to horn up my skills again lo... though not much of wat i have... aiyoo... y i so short har /?? haiz... luckily i got strong belief in myself sia... if not sure cannot survive in it sia... still got work load for me... hahah...

lead and not be led... a Leo friend told me that be4... hm... wonder if i like leading... cos i too lazy to do extra things unless got a bit of slight advantage for me la... :P ar bo really like going to slog like a buffalo... hahaha... work work work... better hit my target sia... haha... should not be a problem unless i too tired till i dun wan to speak... den got problems liao... manage to hit my own target every week... going to make sure i hit it every week... hahah.. a kind of achievement it will become... ok... back to some stuff i m working on... busy busy busy...

gee... a secondary friend said i change alot sia... dunno y... told me that i become like too mature when i tok seriously..... haha... will meh ??? i still like to joke alot de mah... temper was good these days... ah.... feels good... haha.. paiseh har.. i think i was like a bit frustrated wif a friend today... but held on to my temper again... LOL... must have a higher EQ status... lol.. IQ average nia.... but den EQ is more important... going to strive harder... YEAH man ~ ~ ~

Going to finish my IPG lab liao sia... going to miss it so much... ah.. going to miss all the crazy chap i have in my lab... even my supervisor and some other lab assistant... DANIEL... haha... cute guy... haha... and Jeslyn< i think like that spell...> another lab assistant... haha... gong gong one... everything also dun really know... haha.. can bully her till i laugh sia... hahahaha... evil hor* lol....

going to have moe fun and work in the lab again 2morrow... hahah.. ok ok ... back to some project and sleeping time.... hahaha.... nite everyone..... (",)

days by days...

Yesterday went out wif my sec sch mate sia... haha.. think dunno how long never meet out liao... hm... at least going to one year liao.. haha... went to catch a movie together and ate dinner together... was fun cos able to catch up about the past in sec sch life... relaxing moment sia... tok about almost everything... haha.. den going to mid nite den went home sia... hahaha...

Working hard to survive for wat i wan....
Sch project is a pile of heavy load i have on my shoulder....
Staying after 6pm in sch will become sth i like soon....
Satisfied with what i had done in the IPG lab....
learnt a lot and got scolded alot as well....
but nvm wat i gain is sth great....

Doing things as usual in sch again... work and play... hahaha... even stay back after 6pm to help out my supervisor till going to 7pm... hahaha hope 2morrow will be the same again... doing things till late cos really hope to finish everything before i leave this project lab... think this kind of memories will really stay sia... really really enjoy it here... my supervisor is just like another dad sia... ahhaha... commanding but yet reasonable... he will onli ask us to do things that he is able to do.. wun be like any other ridicules supervisor.... hahaha... feels good...

And was really glad today... cos a lab member actually really got their project on going... and they too stay after 6pm to try to do as much as possible... RARE>>> haha but den felt good for them.. cos they really started to do their stuff and they seems to enjoy it sia.... :)

hm... tuesday liao... 2morrow got presentation sia.. sianz... next week also got presentation... den still have to work on weekends... and still got final report to finish... OH my TU* .... hahaha... nvm.. going to tahan... haa.. cos i will regret it if i dun it well.. though i dun expect getting a high grade for my asignment, realy felt really great being able to be here sia... hahah going to make sure i come back and find my supervisor sia... HE IS A GREAT MAN>.... hahah... always joke together and always laugh till very funny... haha... :P
though he really can give me a lot of things to do la... but den he really make sure that we dun do things blindly sia... he make sure he explain things first be4 we start sia... And he respect our ideas sia... when we give ideas and solution, he wun directly say cannot... he will think think think and tell us whether it is a workable idea or not... haha.. ONe of my idea got use in this Project sia.... WOoOWOoWOooo... got praise by him.... hahaha... really shiok sia... few hundred thousand project and i made improvement to it... hahahaha... Li hai leh.... no la kidding la... all his knowledge gave to us became a power and strength in the future... (",)

Went to play basketball directly after my sch sia... haha.. wearing jeans and playing wif a few friends... haha.. really sweat till buay tahan... really really felt very good sia... so long never sweat le...not been touching a basketball for a long time... haiz... dui bu qi my coach... haha.. still say wan to play for CC and open competition... Damn... going to make sure i train hard again... haha.. but den at least i regain my jumping again... wear jeans also can pull the ring... haha...
shiok... i wan to play basketball wif my team mates... ahaha... You you you and YOu....hahaha... but den now still got sch project and have to work on weekend... nvm i will go play after sch den go home and do my project... tired it will be but i will be fulfilling.... YES>>>>>> WOOWOOWOWOWOOOOOOWOOOOo.... hahaha...

Receive a letter from a gal today.... hahah.... dun tell u all wat was the content about.... hehe... hehe.... thanks anyway.... :)

Can someone understand me ???

Where was the person that once understand me so well.... the past few days so rocky but den it had gone by... 2morrow is another day which might just be the same... but as time goes by, the rocky road just seems to be the same usual means to everyday life...

Been working this few weeks... been saving up this few weeks... bills has all been cleared... and more bills are to come... Tired as i m... life still goes on... miss the laughter... miss the people... i hated the smile... but wanted the laughter.. can someone make me laugh ?? i feel very tired... working is tired... but atleast it makes me understand more... going to sch is tired.. but that is where i learn... going home after all that is tired... but that is a home... which was never supposed to be called home...

i wan to be alone for the time being.. can everyone leave me alone??? This is not possible... cos it wun happen... how i miss my temper... cos thats where i can feel the silent by my side... the night is lonely as it can be... but at least i can smile at the silent i receive... respect is given to me as of everyday...

Need a recorder.. to record down the words i say.. and i will understand myself even more, where of nobody can do so... i can say a word and understand the sentence... but who can understand me even if i have finished a story...

I wan receive this passion.... but den it is not being a passion...
The draw of sword is sth i fear of facing... but the moment of truth is wat everyone is waiting for... have a loving reunion and be prepare to face the den of lion....

I m a Leo.... Respect + Confidence + Quiet + Lonely + Thinker = a lonely lion....

Standing wif a broken umbrella...

Once a upon a time, there was a very rich man whose wealth was equalivant to wat of the whole town have. He wear branded stuffs and eat expensive foods and drove around in a nice luxury car. Everything was perfect for the man.

But den one day, his car broke down on a heavy raining day. It have having such a downpour that u cannot see wat so infront of your sight. What bad luck he was having, and the worst thing was that he was urgently rushing to meet someone important. Suddenly he remember that he got a umbrella behind his boot. So he quickly rushed down to check the boot. Indeed there was a umbrella, but den it was a broken one. One that have sipping water to it. But he took it and run wif it regardlessly...

On his way to his appointment, he suddenly think of his wealth and everything... Something came to his mind, something was missing in his life.... wat was missing ??? he stared at his broken umbrella.... and kept quiet.......

Things are starting to tighten up again... Project has to be amended and the main problem is , it is like redoing the whole process.... and how much time do we have?? left wif onli say 3 weeks... and my presentation is stuck halfway... report is no where to be found... and things aint really working out fine... haiz... mentally weak right now... really have to go out for some fresh air instead of stuck in this restless room for so long...

Time aint always right... really wanted to join baoquan, allister and kailong for a show yesterday... but.... haiz... nvm... things will just have to be pushed all the way back into my brain...

Today is already friday... but not much things has been done.. our project... somethings is really wrong wif the things... my partner suspects that somebody is sabotaging us... things that we were so sure that we did correctly was not been done... which is not possible cos we have a very responsible Supervisor... he will always check the thigns be4 leaving...so that is like... so unbelievable... ok.. i m being a boring freak right now.... but who cares... thigns aint right , so m i...

I wan to play basketball.... but i m too lousy to be true.... have to work 2morrow... maybe even on tuesday,.... going to take up two jobs... need a better start in life right now... tired or not... it does not matter... things has to take place... y not now....

The fire stars of the space...

hm... Shooting stars are sth many would really die to see at least one in a life time... well.. i personally seen around...< let me recall har...> i think at least 3 times... all was unexpectedly... suddenly walking a street wif a friend and looked up and saw it...haha.. Should i call it good luck or a bad omen??

Situation in diff people are sth i often tell myself to comfort and with hold the inner me... haha... like to sing a unknown lyric to myself wif diff kinds of melody that comes to me...haha... my voice so so la... but i dare to say that the lyrics and melody that comes to me are great... hahaha... simple yet nice... haha... but den onli moments of emotions will the gift be given to me...

Stars up above are moments of joy like the people on earth... onli diff is the time and space between us... our time run in seconds, mintues and hour.... but in space... the time is floating so the time seems unbelievingly long... but den would u wan a long lifespan compare to a short one ?? Qns like this will never have a ans to it...

Beliving it the truth is certain text.. and seeing it might be a proof to sth in life... but understanding the matter is the living word of humanity....

learning the meaning of thinking hard and understanding the ppl around... I wan to understand them in a way that i dun understand well.. throught heart tok and the contact wif them will show the real sight of one sides....

Often i wish ppl to understand me... but den thinking again... Y would i wan them to understand me?? understanding one can really be so cruel... the weakness of one and the confidence level of oneself... is total suicide....hahha... corny and loafly... Crap is sth that keeps human mind working... relaxing and yet thinking about the things that is going round one's mind... haha... pyschologist sia... haha...

Qoo!

haha... got myself a job liao...hahah... a handphone promoter...hehe... back to the same job again... onli diff now is... selling a hard brand...haha.. but den lucky still manage to sell...hahaha... ar bo dunno how to survive sia...hah... hm... dunno y like suddenly getting back to work liao seems more enjoying leh... though it is tired and boring to work during weekend la... but den at least can by pass time and earn some extra for myself and other things lo... hm... time for me now are bad... but luckily still know how to save so still ok ok lo... bills are pilling up, phone bills, internet bills, insurance bills and present buying sprits bills....< extra one la....hahaha > + got gf le... so must know how to save up more.... :) but den at least my gf still not so bad la... know how to think for me and not those so materialistic compare to some girls i known....hahaha...

hm.... now having big chunk of work in school... haiz.... one bad thing.... or no... two bad things... hhahaa.... cannot play basketball on sunday liao... die la... how to go for training... haiz... no more team to play liao la... hm.... better think of a good solution now sia... if not really no chance to play liao.... lose nvm... but must have the experience.... moreover the player there aint attitude givers... so it is sth GOOD....hahaha.... have to finished my thigns fast and complete everything fast and quick..... :) victory shall be wif me.....

But den some friends around me are having some problems... hope they know how to solve things clearly.... dun fret... though not there for u guys, but a phone call can be reach inregardless of where i m.... never look depress... cos that when the ppl around takes the chance to attack... proving hard to survive is the multi living life of the so call simple life.... so wat if u are a ant... so tiny... but think again... u can carry the weight multi times above your current weight... thing aint always down in life... that where ppl comes in your life to make it brighter... live it good, live it right... live your life cos it aint wat u ask for... but it is wat u can do it for..... :)

Time is a lonely path...

now listening to a chinese song... old song but dunno the title... haha.. many thing seems the same in a way or two right??? think about it.... does friends come and stay till a certain time and leave after the cup of coffee have been drank finish after maybe say... 7 years.... or maybe longer... had a friend who drank his cup of tea half finish but left eventually still.... hahaha... corny... just like as if the 10cent coin u put into the public phone had been used up after 3 min of tok... onli different is that once is gone, there is no placing of another 10 cent coin....

Maybe life is just a cheque, the amount has just be right in a way of understanding.. cos thats when the amount will be just nice... having too much aint always a good thing... slowly think about it and you might just get my idea of the topic....

Ever wonder wat a drop of raindrop can do to u ??
Imagine..... standing alone right by the side of a lonely road wif a single street lamp by your other side... suddenly a drop of rain start to fall... wat is your first reaction?? think about it seriously... be4 the second drop of rain hit on you... u might already recalling past from as far as your memories DARE to take you to.....

Dunno y certain things can make ppl feel sad as wat a friend today said.... listening to songs nowadays makes him feel emotionally sad...
I was like thinking... wat happen to him that made him felt this way... is it the things happening around him or is it him that is having a drastic thinking in life ??

Hm... well, the inner thinking of a person can never really be understand well enough by anyone.... but den again... would u dare to let someone truely understand you inside out ?? a challeague to youself that is like trying to catch the raindrop without spilling it...

Suddenly i miss someone... someone that truely understand me... even without me letting out any secret... She will know wat i m thinking ... I hate her so much..... but i miss her even more..... very much more..... Life aint really worth the fight without you by my side.....Can i feel you spirtually tonite???

the weak side of me is showing out to the complete darkness of my room.... the walls are the strongest support but den yet the most cruel thing that i can face...

Take me with you ..... i being so alone...... smiles has been carrying around in the morning while tears being dropping silently at nite....

I miss you....... the song i m listening... and the feeling i m right now....
Would you bring me wif you ???

wat for supper ???

well... well.. well... back from a relaxing walk, chat and makan session.... ahhaha... wif my lovely gf... hahaa..wondered how she felt... haha... haiz... such a poor thing.. that is i meant me....

hahaha.... y leh... cos someone order indian rojak leh.... haha... sounds not bad hor??? ahhah... guess wat was on the dish??? hahaha... 4 balls of BREAD ....haha... ok la..still got onions and cuecumber la...hahaha... diao diao diao lo... ahaha.. bread for supper sia... and wif chilli... haha... buay tahan....

not bad not bad.... friday is coming... heheheh.... looking forward to it.... hehehe.... morning till evening go to sch for project... haiz... sad case... lol... but den after that pei gf from evening till nite time lo... haha... den after that is nite activity wif friends from my class.... hehehe.... Ray , Andy,Wilson + Me... hahaha.... Ray is the tang sen... haha.. Andy is Sun Wu Kong , Wilson is erm..... and i m....dunno wat is the name leh...hahah...

Go and search for treasure instead of going to the east... ahhahah... lame leh... lol... alright la... sat and sun still need to go and work... headache... stupid phone sia.. dunno how to use it well leh... think going to stand there and be a nice vase....heheeheh

thinking.......

Been thinking alot these few days, had been quietly thinking about the past behaviour of mine... seems so different... wat is really going on in my mind den?? closing my eyes and listening carefully to the noise of the crickets can really motivate someone to reflect hard on the things that went on recently.... maybe life is just full of scenario....
People around are having problems in certain way.... so does any body else... Project is starting to look more problematic.... project report and presentation again.... haiz... have to struggle it through by myself... my partner is not familiar wif english so have to help him as much as i can in the report.. but den i think i really need some brain to think wif me cos ideas are limited due to the same routines nowadays... nth seems to really fasinate me...

was like really thinking back alot sia... like things happened in a way that really needed to cool down and think properly... though it does not seems that bad... but really have to sort myself out and really understand the situation and not bringing forward the feeling in me... really really have to get over it liao....

Claps are so rewarding... words are like wonders.... been a long time since i heard praises from ppl about my basketball.... been a long time......

hm... have to understand

hm.... had a slight tok to a friend... in a r/s really have to give and take... cannot always take nia... den at times really have to stand in each other shoes and think for them sia... hm.... having a r/s does not mean everything.... there is a limit to wat a family can do for u and also the same apply to friendship and a r/s.. there is always a limit to certain things... if at times.. he / she cannot be there for u, it is the same as a friendship... if he / she need you to help but u cannot... den we just have to do it ourselve... hm... quite true sia.. if not collapse like that... really dui bu qi ourselve... hm....

~ ~

Where am i ?? Far far away.... distanced away.... feelin so dead.... where is my emotion?? motionless... dead.... monotone.... wat is it ?? i really need a vacation away from everyone..... Felt so unwanted... trash... rubbish.... shit.... i wan to fly..... can anyone help me ?? i need a helping hand.... feel like crashing down.... but where can i crash onto?? i wan to fly high up............

The Mood of The Sea ~ ~

UP and down, Down and Up.... thats the rythem of the sea and seems almost identical to me... calm at times and rough at times... how will anyone set sail and have the confidence of returning safely ??

It may seems so romantic looking at the sunset by the sea, but the storm at the other end may be the end of someone's life...but den so as to say...when there are danger, there will always be someone willing to risk their life for other...

Ever wondered y a snail cannot swim or float in the sea ??
Simple ans : It does not belong there...
But den there are sea snails which survive only in sea water. Same characterisic wif of the those on land.. Crawling and Crawling within alone, slowly and slowly getting ahead no matter wat... Strongest surviver i would say....

Well if there is a strongest surviver, there would surely be a weakest living sea creature... hahaha... have a guess.... which is the weakest creature i am thinking right now... haha........ simple... a sea horse...
y ?? cos half of it's life, it is clinging to a sea weed or sth.. The current is too strong for it to move freely... but it has a brain that works so much better den the snail... but y is it so ??
Search the ans and tell me... hahaha

=) (",)

I have encountered many different turns in life and HONOUR to say that, i survived deals of them... that y here i stand... A sea with a strong current, yet being polluted by oil and wastes....

I am a strong looking sea with weakness is unseen through naked eye..... slowly dying off the pollution without anyone knowing...

The sea that onces was beautiful and would make ppl smile and laugh unknowingly is so much gone.... but endlessly the sea is still going Up and down.... splashing onto the sand..... the sun is still shining upon me and thus i will survive... but who can really calm the sea and set sail.... throwing thrash and polluting wun help....
I love the sea.....
The piture of a girl smiling by the sea side.....

how peaceful are the days ??

kana screwed by my assesser this afternoon during my presentation... ask me a stupid Qns... how much are the tolerants??? 0.9 mircon la... kaoz... cannot even see it wif your eye lo.... still dare to say if all add up den wun it be a big difference... IDIOT HAR .... even all add up also less den 0.01 mm lo... kaoz... BITCH SIA.... act friendly den started things like that... kaoz...

confirm is a MISS lo... yucks... hated it sia... sucks... one of the worse day in this IPG lab.... imagine i m going to see her again on another 6 weeks later... freak la... say so much also no use... will just ask me stupid Qns... still correct my pronouning of words... KAOZ>>>>>... i just never say a S la... bitch... if u really wan to be so precise den go and be english teacher la... kaoz... lame..

fine... things aint right at the moment... the words are been said... the things have been done... the talk have gone pass... action are the key... but where are the door... can anyone find it ??

My story....

A friend of mine has his blog been violated by others about the things he said... well i do not have a tag box... so it should be alright...

HA...HA... gee... had a bad day i guess... Just got into a serious quarrel wif my gf... been having bad communication... or should i said understanding between the 2 of us have been mild... different needs between the two of us in this r/s.... just like the same song been sung by different ppl... the different effect and affect the different ppl... just now was like losing my cool... was a long time... was totally freak out sia.... maybe the understanding is deeply needed between us... well... is there a solution out of this ??

gee... at times like this... really wan friends and tell me that nvm de... will pass by very quickly de... you all can settle this one... forgive and forget.. but den... if all these words really word... den y do i need friends at all?? i know all that by heart.... my hand are toking right now... the brain is dead at the moment and my heart is still beating no matter wat... or is it feeling the twisting of sth crampling on it... wat feeling is that ?? maybe i should just go for some exercise these few days... been feeling sick these few days...

Cannot imagine how things turn out so sudden... my gal was still by my side caring for me cos i was sick.... and today we are having a major quarrel..... over ME and YOU.... haha... of cos it is between us... the heart is still pumping.....

gee...

i m sick.... arh... but lucky for me... my dear was there all the way to accompanying me home and wif me till nite fall.. thank you my love... MUACK ~ ~

You can Do it de ~ ~

Was having a great time out wif my gf and spending precious time wif her... went to tampines for some reason, passport renewing and collect debts...haha... went for a movie too... EX sia... but den ok la... nvm... nice show so it is alright la... went to dine at Billy Bomber.. Yucks sia... the stupid meatloaf... almost made me vomit... haha.. order another dory dunno wat.. still not so bad...haha.. my dear at the EeHaa...haha... spagetti wif meatballs... HOT...haha.. den sat there and tok tok again... went home not long after lo...

Hm... but den thins aint going smoothly for my beloved gf... problems at home and she ended being troubled.... gee... but den seems like she has become more and more mature liao... so proud of her sia...cos she really seems to grow up a lot le... hehe... not say she very inmature last time hor.. but den comparing back... she change alot sia... and i mean ALOT....hahahaha...MUACK MUACK FOR U MY DEAR ONG JIA LING ~ ~ love ya... not just by saying... bu also by thumping... the heart is thumping out the sound of love yo ya.... good nite ~ ~

Shiok ~ ~

haha... got my second licence liao...haha.. have a class 2B and 3 de liao...haha... going to get my 2A soon..haaha... shiok la... going to get my diving one also.. and my pilot one also...<<< if can >>>> cannot wait sia...haha....

Totally ~ ~

There was once a person that told me that Long before your time in the southern provisions... like real sia.. haha..

Many a times, we feel that the world is being unfair to us.. but den think again.. if we have the chance to think again.. Y do we wan to think it in a negative way???
The world is spinning endlessly, so y do anyone wan to stop at that very same spot thinking about how unlucky he/ she is ??

Be true to yourself.. never let the fact put you down.. cos when that happens, the world of yours will start tumpling down within you.. The birds are still flying and the fish are still swimming, so y aint you smiling?? there is no reason not to cos the world around aint so bad after all ~ ~

Let the street lamp guide you through every little path and bends without difficulty..

GOod nite ~ ~

The World ~ ~

wat is made up of the world?? earth, water,greens.... or is it ther human that is standing on it all along?? well... both of it seems reasonable if u wan to debate about it.. but den when it comes to being the real ans to it, who can really say the ans... haha probably not..

Ever wonder wat would it be like if u wake up one day and discover that people close to you are all suddenly gone and left you lying on your bed full of sweat and tears?? maybe at times we feel loneliness covering over us but when that comes by, think of the friends and the people that are around you that always stood firmly for you even if u really screwed thing up badly... but den think again.. who really does do that?? Well.. often it appear on the very live screen of your life..

Being betrayed be4?? more or less everyone had experience that at least once.. Why would that happen?? Because of selfishness?? ask the one who did that.. haha... no ans would really be the truth.. cos the truth is betrayal has taken place already...

Forgive and forget..the bible teaches... Do wat u wan other to do upon you.. the bibles stated.. a hand is never being too much.... haha.... sleep time arrive... good nite ~ ~

High spirits ~ ~

haha... back from some chionging ~ haha...out wif some friends for some fun and landed up having some moments of fun...haha... was out wif baboon, xianglong, ster, weizhong+ his friend, gay,kailong, and a friend of baboon de...irene i think...haha..
dance and drank alot sia...ha.ha.. kailong and xianglong is he weakest link...hah... totally blur blur liao sia... and ster kana steady sia...haha... otala a few glasses of wine sia...hah... shiok... really release stress sia... dance till tired and everything bad just seem to go away liao... hm... next time got time den go again.. but den think after they all reach acdeptable age mah.. mafan sia...haha... nvm la.. ster coming to the age liao... den next time got him liao...haha... more fang pian.. also can bring dear go at times.... lol... been a long time...haha....

a heck of a day ~ ~

Lots of unhappy things happened today sia... haiz... dun realyl wish to say much la... school stuff and friends stuff but at least my love line is alright la... misunderstanding...haha... but sth creepy happened today... was in school when i saw a huge butterfly on the window la... den out of curiousity, my classmate wilson and i took pictures of it lo... cos realyl sth we seldom see la... den things went on as usual la... that happened around 3+pm la... den in the late evening... around 8+pm... i went to play basketball after school la... which require me to take bus to reach the place... the same butterfly was there... and my friends said.. the butterfly was not seen be4 i came... creepy sia....

den at nite... went to have a drink and supper wif some friends la... den around 3+am i saw the butterfly again... but this time i was at pasir ris leh... wow lao eh.... scary leh... dunno is it some kind of warning or some type of blessing la... but i think i really going to buy 4d 2morrow and sunday....
maybe it is sth that is leading me.... just try lo... since it is like fated...

haha... ok la.. tired liao... go and sleep liao ~ ~

Jerk....

How dumb or lousy can a person go?? har??? wat will u do if u found out your friends is in pain and need a really good helping hand or at least a good listening ear?? well u will surely be there for him/her if u knew it rite ???
wat about your own bf/gf ?? well... there was a guy that knew that her gf needed him that very day for a simple reason... stress out or say just cos tired from the day's work and he jolly well knew that he should go and meet up wif her... but den when he reach home... he freaking know how to sleep onli... and in the end... sth happened to the beloved gf.... sth hurting... and where was her bf den??? at home sleeping like a piece of dirt... and when she called him, the very tone reply was in a farking attitude way.... wat that man ??? y didnt u ask wat she was calling for first??? u piece of shit... just a jerk rite ?? thus till nite time den found out wat happened to his beloved gf.. but how beloved was it den ??? was not even there when she wanted u to be.... u are just useless man... how pitiful are u ~ ~tsk tsk tsk ~ ~

hm..... tiring day

WoooOWooo... had along tiring day in school sia...haha.. hope everything goes well for my class and esp some of my classmate.... hope everything is going smoothly for them and thus letting us complete this sem together... PRAY HARD HARD arh ~ ~ hm... was not feeling too good in school today... gee... lucky got things to do sia.. ar bo really going to be very attitude today sia.... Pwheee ~ ~ haha... hope eveyrthing goes well for the rest of the weeks... going to bed liao ~ ~ nite nite ~ ~

Dinner wif ya ~~

haha... stressful day it was today... gee... lots of things to do sia... really really focus hard today sia... made mistake and kana scolded la... sianz.. but at least i did all that things myself sia...haha... cos everyone also dunno.... haha... no la... cos onli i went to the company for my group la... haha... den was figuring those stupid screws till i dulan... and i mean freaking dulan lo... till buay tahan... haha... alright la.. den after school went to meet dear wif wilson.. haha.. my classmate... great chap i can feel... joker la.. but den at times can be serious sia... have a good EQ from wat i see... hm... thinker... haha.... went to my dear's house for dinner...haha... nice nice nice... dun feel so awkward liao ...haha... mroe at home liao...haha.. luv u deeply my dear ~ ~

School time ~ ~

hm... time should be around 8+ in the morning bah... first time writing my blog during school time and in school...haha... lame la.. nth to do rite now leh... so just try to update a little bits of my life right here lo... hm... school been kind of fun btu den a bit bored la... cos my PROJECT PARTS are not here yet...so dead... next few weeks sure get very tired de lo...haha.. but den better den nth to do sia... haha... my class... hm... quite fun la... or should i say quite a lot of them are very interesting...haha... all very so ' mo sui ' sia...haha... hearing conversation from them also can WOWWWW>.. haha... fun la... hm.... a lot of joker in my class...hahaa... Wilson and Andy... crapper of the century and think for the rest of the few more centuries to be foresee.... haha... Buay tahan sia... can laugh till drop sia...haha... alright la... class dun seems so boring after all... hm.... My big boss derserted us and threw us to MR Hpmh...haha.... no la... is Mr Choo la..haha but he always seems to make a sound Hpmh....haha... strict looking chap but den at times can still joke slightly la...haha.. Not bad leh... funny la... den is our BIG Boss...haha.. always threaten us in a way de sia... sianz... but den is a kidding way la...haha.. funny chap too... haha.... den is my Project partners lo.. Xiao Zhou and Andy...haha... xiao zhou is a china guy that always share his china things lo... interesting lo... andy..hm.... a bushy looking guy...haha... kiddin la... cos he leave his mustache on mah... ah pei...haha... ok la.. he is a super party joker... he can make the group laugh till like siao...haha.... ok la... i got to go back to my drafting and achitect things liao... hahahah

i know i m... and u know u are...

well... dunno since when did the relationship went a bit off track but den got back to the usual track again.. maybe is my fault or maybe is her fault... but again... who said that a relationship was suppose to be flawless?? hahaha... going throught this and that onli made us love each other more.... mature in a way.. but still the child in each other's eye... the nite is wonderful as thought of memories kept flowing... i must say .. that no matter wat, i know u care and will still care till the dunno wat end of never ending days...
Wat about me ?? i will try and try and keep trying to bring the joy and happiness to u and even if we do not feel that joy at that very moment, we will still know that...walking down the road, we not onli had joy and happiness.... we share the pain and sorrow too... if love was onli so good, how would we know that the love was even good without the pain and sorrow ?? i take it in and want it all.. the wonder of all was the very moment that we started this love.... we did not give up on each other.... I believe... truly...

Pass ~ ~

Ahh.... finalyl got back my result liao...hahaha ... i actually PASS all my modules sia...haha.... never expected it... thanks to some friends that taught me sia...hahah... but also cos my dear la... haha... think if she never encourage me har, my maths sure buang sia... but den not bad leh... from F jump to C+.... hehhehe... that means my end of sem maths pass very high sia...haha... shiok... just sent my dear home... ah... feels so good...hahaha... dunno y, just had the nice feeling of being wif her.. lol... great time flies... and bad times dun seems to stay long.... Good nite, my love....

Yeah...

Ah..... been a long time since i spent a whole day wif my lovely dear le... cos this semester both of us are going to be so busy... i m busy wif my major project... everyday 830 to 6... total killer... while she is busy wif her school work, CCA and her part time work... gee.... seems like we are going to have a tough time meeting up sia... gRrrr..... hate this sia... but i guess we just have to stay wif it lo.... haiz... nvm... at long as i know i can get to see her at least during the weekend, it would be so good le.... haha... muack muack muack muack... kisses for you ~ ~heheh nite nite ~~

relaxing day...

WooWOooo... just had dinner wif Roger and Pamela and of cos my dear Jia Ling...hehe... also dunno wat to say... just had a good time wif them today lo.. was onli chatting away and nth stressful at all.. great feeling sia... went to watch Coach Carter wif them and wooo... was it a nice show... it was a motivating show sia... SHIOK...haha... really tired right now... going to bed le... nite nite ~~

tired... but den..it feels good...

hm... just came back from a BB primers camp...haha.. kinda like a retreat camp i guess... felt funny and was like not suppose to be in there... but den was still alright cos at least they quite enjoyable bah.. was there to support my gf.. cos she was elected to be the president pf the club...WooOWoo... presidge sia...haha.. ok la.... was like keep on playing and so on lo..haha... yesterday was the BBQ nite.. wooWooo... nice nice... good food.. ate till i burst...haha i just got early dismissal from the hungry ghost festival...haha.. quite fun lo.... though at a point.. sth happened lo... but den... at least.. i felt good that it happened... though was not a good thing la.. but in a way... it is a good thing... felt good la after that... things will just go on and on in a good way... really believe that... i wan to be happy everyday.... hehehe... and i mean REALLY HAPPY>>>.. ~ ~

KAOZ ~ ~ ~

WoW lao Ehh ~~ kaoz... my room is infested wif termines and dunno wat kind of stupid flies sia.... kaoz.... going to collapse liao la... dead... how ?? siao liao la... shit la... freak sia... this year like so farking suay sia... anyone got any lucky charm for me anot har ?? think this year is going to be a hard year again... hm... nvm la... survive it again lo..shit sia... freaking headache....

down.....very down...

things aint being smooth these days.... things just happen and happen... from A to Z and still going on... i kinda need some support from anyone... will somebody just ask....... everyone just seems to be so busy.... forcing me to mingle wif people i dun like.... haiz.... suddenly just want to play basketball.... but playing basketball wif no supporter just seems to be so dull.... miss the sec sch life where friends and the whole sch just seems to cheer and cheer regardless if we win or lose.... but where the crowd now ?? well... seems like even friends aint being supportive le.... maybe... it is time to grow up and think.... should basketball even be a leisure?? the time can be used to do more meaningful things..... been kinda down lately... but den... who really know ?? how i wish to be just a simple person wif a simple life.... but how many people are simple ?? human are just so difficult to understand... maybe this is how we people handle things... simple yet complicated... are things always so complicated?? .....not really..... there is still a long way towards the nite.... i will be spending every moment thinking about it.... heck the exam 2morrow.... dun really care anymore....

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group... You're always up for a good time or conversation And you stick with your friends no matter what You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindoffriendareyouquiz/">What Kind of Friend Are You?

yeah

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's" Your Love Style?

a funny feeling ~ ~

wat m i thinking... wat m i trying to prove ?? haiz.... i just feel so deserted away.... once, twice and forever it will be.... been ask and have ans.... but i have not ask and was not being ans...... y did this happened ?? cos i wan it to happened ?? or was it cos some are just trying to get advantage of it..... haiz.... freak sia... ~ ~

Weee ~ ~3 months liao ~ ~

hahha... 9 of april 2005.... onli once in a life time... and i got to spend it wif my loved one.... sweet ~ ~ hehehe..... been 3 months together le... and this will be the last time to say we are together for 3 months le.... cos the following months will be going to our 4th, 5th,6th, 7th and so on and on and on..... hahaha..... wOoWooWooooWOooo..... *raise eye brow* hahahahaha... totally happy.....haha... after taht went to ster's house to rot...hahah...buay tahan liao.... never sleep at all the whole nite... cos was learning some thing at this house... not bad not bad.... piano... i know how to play some songs liao leh.....hahah ok la... onli halfway throught la... though buay zai but den i still managed to learn 3 songs... all half half one...hahaha... next time if can remember den play for you to listen... hehehe..... i go orh orh liao la...

how far is a distance would u consider far ?? when the one u love tell u that he/she feels the distance in between... wat is the worst feeling u can get?? when the one u love tell u that he/she cannot feel the love u have given... wat is the worst timing u can get ?? when u call your loved one because u miss him/ her but get to hear sth that cames colliding down from everything....
when is the worsesleeping timing?? when u are in bed lying down and tears start falling cos u cannot control them and it is too wet to sleep.... wat is the greatest pain one can encounter?? when your loved one pass away or he/she just seems to be walking away....

where did i read all these?? haha... a book.... a story book.... sounds true a not har ?? but den the i find the male character in the book very lousy sia... cos he seems like a failure in love sia... story is based on a true life encounter sia... not yet finished reading the book... will update when i get to finish the book....

good nite ~ ~

sianz ~~

not much to write ~ ~boring ~ ~ sianz ~ ~ and nth else ~ ~

BIg baby ~ ~

arh ~~ maths just sucks sia... study till going to explode liao sia... headache sia... haiz.... this and that.... aiyoo yoo... in the mid of studying keep thinking about her... haiz.... luckily had some slight chat over the phone wif her during a self declare break sia... ar bo really cannot carry on studying sia... haiz..... sianz sianz.... quickly exam over la... buay tahan liao sia.... den really is off to another semester soon...... though lots of classmates will be different liao but den should be quite fun... cos got new friends...YES~ ~ hahaha shiok ~~ haha.... wan to relac sia... haiz.... i need a good break sia... but den during my term holiday... i will be alone... haiz~ ~ wondered wat m i going to do for that single week ~ ~..... think can really everyday go gym liao sia.... muscle shrink liao sia... haiz~ ~>...........sianz ~ ~~

tough day it is going to be~ ~

arh ~ 2morrow having a exam on thermofluid.... sianz sia... but den this paper can pass la.. so no problem... but the paper on thursday is going to be so damn tough.... MATHS>..... gosh... i never even touch a single pages of it sia... wonder if i can survive by studying 1.5 days onli sia.... PRAY HARD>...... help me pray too.... dun wish to repeat a module in this sem..... haiz.... lucky nite time was spent wif my dear... ar bo sure stress up sia.... Thanks for the dinner... nice nice.... haha..... hope to get to eat more ~ ~ hehe.... nowadays like nth to write sia... haiz... cos onli study onli... shit la... heck la.. going to finish soon liao.... but den sianz... holiday going to be just 1 week.... having my next sem on 25 of april... freak sia..... ~ sianz~ ~~

hm.....

Today was like a very fast passing day sia.... hm.... was out wif my dear gal but den she's kinda not very good mood like that sia... aiyoo yooo... a bit like frustrated like that kind of pattern... hm.... think she was too bored at home le... cos everyone is having exam right now and she is having holiday ~ ~ i also cannot pei her go out.... haiz.... onli can pei her go eat dinner nia ~ ~ like today lo... go eat dinner le... den take bus to punggol end... on the way there... she gave me a fright... cos sth happened.... gee...... felt so bad seeing her like that sia..... sat down and tok at the seaside....(bla bla bla.. content is secret) den went back to her blk there and chat again ~ ~ can feel that she really very bored at home sia...~ ~ aiyoo ~ ~ Bear wif it.... after 7 of april den can le ~ ~wait first ~~ ai zai ~ ~ after 7 of april, i can go out wif u till u happy ~ ~but den 14 still got one more test la... haahah ~ ~ relac la... :)

Chalet ~

haha...went to your class chalet and it was kinda fun... maybe cos i was not left alone bah... heheh... u keep on accompanying me sia.... :) had fun wif your clinque and their bf too... haha... all know one.... the chalet turn out more like a group date... cos few times, there were onli couples together onli.... hehe... even went to have a drink wif oni the couples...haha seems so funny... haha... but was having real fun... hehe... ok la.. not much to write here... wrote it somewhere else le... :) i very tired le leh ~ ~go and sleep liao..... take care of your health and your nose hor..... the impact on your nose... really scary sia.. take care hor.. dear dear ~ ~`

happy birthday ~ ~

haha..ah kent and kailong birthday just went by onli..haha happy belated birthday....hehehe... hm... these few days feeling really very good sia... cos kept of having gf by my side... and den dunno how to describe lo.. just feel very very sweet with her around lo... though at time she is quite blunt wif her words.... but den, there is always sth about her that just make me wan to care alot for her.... :) feeling good.... hm... but den hear sth about one of my 'sisters' kana sort of being left uncared by his bf and sort... tried consoling her but den seems not very useful leh... haiz... lost my touch liao sia.... aiyoo yoo ~ ~hope everything goes well for her sia.... haiz... wonder how is everyone out in the different part of the world going through ~~~ hardship or pleasure ~~ ~ i m going through pleasure right now but when will i suffer my hardship den ~~ hahaha... lets hope i will suffer a tough hardship ~~ heeheh

M Gal ~ ~

Hm...how do i start... hm.... ok ok... first image of her when i saw her a few years back den.. sunshine gal but a bit boyish la...haha.. den from wat my friends said... she is a nice and fun person lo... the rest i not quite sure liao leh... haha..cos we were not actually friends i guess... hgahaha...... till like dunno a few months back.... suddenly browsing through frienster.... saw her and dunno wat got me into adding her in MSN.... hm.... funny sia... den started chatting wif her on and off the net... though it seems awkward at first, but it sort of got better and better as we tok... haha... started really knowing her more since den and actually found out things about her that u ppl might not even know..... haha... appearance can really cheat.... hahaha..... secret* ..... how we got together...haha lets skip that... sweet memories keep to myself can liao.... haha... days by days went pass, and it seems to be going quite fine and still is right now and still will... RIght ?? hehehe... get to see her as her real self.... cheerful, fun, talkative and violent part of her but at the same time, shy, tu tu, lady-like and the gf she is right now.... just someone that is getting a great share of wat my heart is having... esp at this point when i m having exam and not being able to really accompany...she is still so understanding... and i just sprain my leg and the very next moment, she is right by me sending me home....getting me the chinese doctor and getting me home.... here and there....to and fro..... really such a gf that i had been longing for all these times..... a treasure that i found.... and the beauty of the treasure is so overwhelming..... thanks..............

~ ~

Not bad... just finish a paper.... should at least get a B for that...hahh confidence.... ahahaha ... went to do my semester project sia... do till around 8+... sianz... think it is not well prepare yet sia... haiz... den after that went to meet my gf... hehehe... got a nicely cooked dinner from her... haha... first cooked food from her... hm.... not bad not bad.... my kind of taste for a dinner.... simple and nice..... fed me well this time.... heheh.e.... after that went to pcc to look look see see.... but den who knows... got a bit tempted den went to play bball.... but less den 2 min sprain my leg liao sia.... sianz..... lucky got gf pei me home sia... haha.... but den 2morrow still got presentation... so dead... haiz.... think going to do quite badly for that sia.. sianz ~ ~

Sentosa ~ ~

hm... just came back sia.... tired... but is really very very happy.... morning went sentosa wif doreen,marshall,kailong and my gf to play...hahaha lame here and there and got a bit tanned again... but luckily i tanned a while onli... ar bo sure burn till chao ta one lo...haha kailong lame here and there also....hahaha had fun there.... after that went to town to eat and got a new wallet from my gf....heheheheh..... after that parted ways wif doreen,marshall and kailong , cos wanted to catch a movie wif my gal... but den cineleisure dun have any show available.... so decided to go bishan.... hahah abut den when the train came, we like blur blur like that... den never went to board it until the last min.....hahaha den in the end was like my gf went in and i was still outside....haha so funny sia...haha... den went to show " Hostage" ..... Whoooo Oooo... GOod show.... recommanded to watch.... cos dun have any part that is sianz one lo... the story line quite good.... go and watch it manz...... after that wanted to take bus home de.... but den waited and waited... no bus came... bo pian lo.... take cab and sent my sweet beauty home..... and got back myself..... great day.... fun and lovely....... lets build the place together.... my place and yours....