Geee.....

First to anon... ~ guess that is my way of expression my monotonous feeling each and everytime i blog... :) this is Me ~ ~ :

Tired lifestyle huh ?? wat have I been doing lately ?? Got to know some fine interesting ppl ~ ~ nightlife in the club seems like a routine to the extend, smoking a cig is no longer wat i used to see and believe in..... drinking water has already change to downing the hardcorn liquor day after day......

Friends around me told me that I have change so much after the last r/s.....
hey, dun blame me k ?? who dun change after a phase in life ya ~ ~
When life take a toll, wat would u do ??
Toughen up yourself and walked on?? or simply lie flat on the hard cold floor and await someone to pick u on ??

:) dun look at me ~ ~ i aint understand which category do i belong too...

So tired... seem to have lost that glow...
will it be gone forever ???


Whenever i Kinda need a shoulder to lean on and when i look around..... emptiness filled the room.....but den again.... mother nature have been kind, the wonderful invention of 'Internet' , I can now look for a invisible shoulder.... Thank You ~~


Learnt that the people involved in life might just be the critical factor to wat u might become...

Tell me... Am I supposed to be like wat i should now ??

Nearly got into a bike accident this afternoon....
knocked my head again some stupid metal after that...
Whole body feeling weak....
Sick??
Gee...
Lucifer is looking for another friend to join him....

Poor man ~

haha... anyone wan to donate $$ to me now??? hahhaha

Kinda poor after today... donated 90% of wat i have .. and that is going to make me so poor now... haiz.....

HAppy though... at least i can start to earn again ~ if not i get stuck there again ~ gee.... a bit drunk le ~ yawn ~ `

TUmmy ache ~

Gee..... had a tummy ache... stay home almost the whole day till late evening... went have a super late dinner.... haiz.... guess i am thinking too much lately.... RELAX LA>.....hahahahhh


BOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BOMBER in TOWN>>>>>> !!!!!! hahhah

still ~ ~

Air is still after the rain..... still yet to be in the bed .... 5.31am.... wat am i thinking ??

looking at some photos of the past... recapturing some memories ~~ and smiling at some.... aint it good to recalled the good times u have in the past.... the laughters and smile.... the stupid things u done and the ridicular facial expression u posed for the camera ?? hahahhahahaaa...

Cheers ~ ~ ~

The Rain ~ ~

3.26am...Just came back from supper.... met up wif a close friend... a friend of 17 years.... gee.... imagine... how many 17 years of friendship do u have ??

Got caught up in the rain.... was thinking... wat would the other side of the ppl be doing if caught in the rain... hahaha... LAME>>>>>><<<<<<<

Carried on riding in the rain.... drenched as expected.... was thinking.... Y are there such things as regrets??? I am learning not to have anymore regrets in my life... but guess, many a times... there aint a lot of choices to make huh.....

Having to live your life as it is the last ~ ~ how many ppl actually do that ??? well... i used to.... but not anymore... having a feeling like " gee... so wat if it is the last day of my life........ ?"
Who would u wan to spend wif on the very last day of yours ??

Family?
Friends?
Close Kins?
Lover?
Wife/husband?
Kids?
or even......... Alone ???

Many people will chose family or wife/husband or even lover..... but will there be ppl that choose to be alone?? Living the last day and dying off with only the air and dust by your side.....

I bet there are......
To continue living wif the news of your closed one leaving the world would even be more painful..... well... how do i know??

I came to experience it and learnt that hard a few times.......
Past is a scary Photograph........

Many thoughts came to me when i was riding in the rain for the past 1 1/2 hrs........ guess i ride to half of sg.... ate at least 6 supper after sending my friend back.... even the aunty asked if i was alright.....hahahaha guess the image of a drenched guy eating non-stop at a coffee shop seems too scary huh.....

Stuffed myself till almost burst..... hahahaha... enjoyment huh.... the Pain in my knee have started to take effect again.... gee.... guess it is time to say bye bye to competative basketball games huh .............

June,July,August...... Friends birthday coming up one by one.... gee.... friend birthday celebration on 27 july in a hotel....... gee.... guess i am going there alone.... haizz.... nvm... kinda used to the life of being single since it was almost wat i have always been....

Soon my birthday... gee.... wat am going to do this year... lets see... hang around in a pub and chill while drinking alone this year is wat i have in mind..... or rather stay at home and have some red wine?? Been long since I went drinking alone...... lets see.... 4 months ??? hahhaa... remember the last time I went drinking wif some friends but ended up going to another pub and drank a bottle of chivas alone.... gee.... But lucky, carolina and Ken actually went down looking for me at 4+ in the morning..... Thanks..... guess that was really wat i needed at that time...

Friends.... wat kind of ppl are we talking about here ?? how do you consider your friends ??
And wat do we seek for in friends ?? companionship??? listening ear or just another tool to used each other ??

Which way are u looking at ??? Think carefully be4 anwsering.......... Cos i been thinking really hard..... :)

Recently been talking to someone online... someone over the other part of the world...someone i dunno and have never met...kinda special someone... and thanks to that person... I have grown happier.... :)

Thank you..... Hope i had brought some joy and laughter to u :)

And Pls to all... I aint emo..... i just like to think deep..... hahahahahahahaha

a moody day.....

dunno y the days started off quite moody.... and till at nite.. I am still quite moody... hm.... dunno y.... kinda hate this feeling... stupid...

Recent happening ~ ~

Got posted to a new place.... met some very interesting ppl.... got into hospital for my knee injury.... and had some nice memories to think about....

Gee.. ever wonder when was the last time u actually sat down and think about wat u have been doing for the past 6 month?? Wat was the focus and purpose of the things u had done??? and Y did u do so???

Been thinking of certain things like that... kinda bored me though but at least it makes me get back on my track... better den swaying more and more off the course.... hahhaha... All thanks to my 16 days MC....hahahaha had lotsa rest and got back my focus... well there was someone else that actually told me life wasn't that bad... and look on the better side...
BEen a long time since anyone told me that.... it was a gentle pat on the head for me.... appreciated it... THank You....... it was a very nice chat wif ya... :)

Decide to make some new changes in life again... life is great... and I wan it to be even better....hahahahahahahaahh ~ ~ ~ Cheers to freedom ~ ~ ~

The never dying spirits will never say goodbye to the master of bravery ~ ~

Injury.....

haiz... just came back from the hospital.... haiz... knee injury... seems serious this time... got 16 days of MC and 3 months of light duties... gee.. moreover still need to go for therapy... aiyoo.... stupid stupid stupid.... guess i have to be a dumb dumb and stay at home always liaoz... haizz.... there goes the fun i can have in the mean time... BOOOOOOOOo... ahhahaha better hope that there is no need for a operation.. IF NOT AHHHHHHHHHHHH.. pain leh..