Is late in the nite... or should i say... dam early in the morning.. 6.36am.... hm..
just came back from some place.. talking wif my buddy... was wondering..
wat to expect in the coming years.. guess time passes fast huh.. discussing wat to study as i was quite confused... or even to study... but i guess studying would just be a better option out in the world or reality...
What to work as?? in my field of studies ?? or some other field that i like more?? which is more realistic ??
Had a chat on opening a pub next year... but den again.. is it safe enough?? many say it is going to be just hard as there are so many pubs in Sg le... but den again.. no venture no gain.. so wat if we really fail??
Life still goes on and we will just have to try harder the next time round ~ ~
Wonder how i become so low esteem... so diff from the past... where i just do wat i feel is right... Kinda guess things aint going to be the same again ~ ~
BUt ~ ~ I believe in myself always... cos that is the first step to doing things right yeah ? ~ ~
Watever it is... I know i will make it ~ ~ cos I wan my life to be diff ~ ~ :)
and HEY ~ ~ANON!!! i am not boy boy la ~ ~hahahaha
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Fell.....
I am flying... flying... flying... I am falling in love... :) GOSH ~ ~ ~ I wan to tell the whole world ~ ~hahahahhaaha This evening have been the best nite for the past few month ~ ~
OH OH OH OH ~ ~ ~ I am jumping ~ ~and i cannot fall asleep ~ ~ hahahahahhaha
I am falling in love ~ ~ :)
I am blushing ~ ~:)
OH OH OH OH ~ ~ ~ I am jumping ~ ~and i cannot fall asleep ~ ~ hahahahahhaha
I am falling in love ~ ~ :)
I am blushing ~ ~:)
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Blank.....
Sniffing the air around me... sounded like a puppy huh ~~
still and cold...
Boooooooooo, even the scare seem monotone ~ ~
wat would happen if I agree to what NYP is offering to me... 4 years...Long??
brush it off... Money may seem good.... but i rather be wat i wan to be...
Might be hard... as long as it is worth it ~ ~
Ster birthday yesterday on 17 11 07 ~ ~ haiz... nvm
What would U write on a blank piece of paper if given to u right now....
I would draw a square wif my name in it and fold it into a paper plane and off it go flying by.....
Confused by wat is happening actually.. need an ans... but maybe it will be better like that huh ~ ~
Nth i can do if i can do nth...
wan to smile more.... but sadly... it seems thati am losing the feeling of it..
How much would u accept to give up on your pride???
I have a better exposure to this...
the meaning to the diff happening ~ ~
slowly I will just get used to the feeling of being just more of a silly friend ~ ~
:)
still and cold...
Boooooooooo, even the scare seem monotone ~ ~
wat would happen if I agree to what NYP is offering to me... 4 years...Long??
brush it off... Money may seem good.... but i rather be wat i wan to be...
Might be hard... as long as it is worth it ~ ~
Ster birthday yesterday on 17 11 07 ~ ~ haiz... nvm
What would U write on a blank piece of paper if given to u right now....
I would draw a square wif my name in it and fold it into a paper plane and off it go flying by.....
Confused by wat is happening actually.. need an ans... but maybe it will be better like that huh ~ ~
Nth i can do if i can do nth...
wan to smile more.... but sadly... it seems thati am losing the feeling of it..
How much would u accept to give up on your pride???
I have a better exposure to this...
the meaning to the diff happening ~ ~
slowly I will just get used to the feeling of being just more of a silly friend ~ ~
:)
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Flash back ~ ~
Always hold on to the things that u know is important to u...
Wat is the most impt thing on earth for U ??
Family,Friends,Relationship or even your pet ~ ~ ~
Wat will the feeling be when u know that u are going to lose them sooner or later due to some unexpected events ??
The knowingly feeling of losing that grasp on them.... slowly slipping by your hand by your fingers...
aint going to be a good feeling ~ ~ T.T
Hm.... been long since i paid respect to my mum liao ~ ~
2morrow would be good dun u think ?? :)
Wat is the most impt thing on earth for U ??
Family,Friends,Relationship or even your pet ~ ~ ~
Wat will the feeling be when u know that u are going to lose them sooner or later due to some unexpected events ??
The knowingly feeling of losing that grasp on them.... slowly slipping by your hand by your fingers...
aint going to be a good feeling ~ ~ T.T
Hm.... been long since i paid respect to my mum liao ~ ~
2morrow would be good dun u think ?? :)
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Memories ~ ~
THe good and bad thing about human is the memories... remember the first time u fell in love??
The first time u kiss??
The first time someone cooked for u??
Wat about the first time when broke up?
The first time someone made u seem so unworthly?
The times that u cried?
Looking back at times like that... ever wonder wat is memories for ?? for sweet thinking or sad dwelling??
Once time passes by, some of it become visually blurred... while other remains as if it just happened yesterday..
The clock will just continue to tick no matter wat...
To do anything in life is just about decision..
The right step ahead? or the wrong step backwards?
Coffee, tea or Me ??
hahhahaha ~ ~ ~ feeling good.. but could have even better wif u around.. guess u are really too far away le la.. :) Waiting for Dec to come.. Goodnite ~ ~
The first time u kiss??
The first time someone cooked for u??
Wat about the first time when broke up?
The first time someone made u seem so unworthly?
The times that u cried?
Looking back at times like that... ever wonder wat is memories for ?? for sweet thinking or sad dwelling??
Once time passes by, some of it become visually blurred... while other remains as if it just happened yesterday..
The clock will just continue to tick no matter wat...
To do anything in life is just about decision..
The right step ahead? or the wrong step backwards?
Coffee, tea or Me ??
hahhahaha ~ ~ ~ feeling good.. but could have even better wif u around.. guess u are really too far away le la.. :) Waiting for Dec to come.. Goodnite ~ ~
Monday, November 12, 2007
To be felt and answered~ ~
Was reading sth on the diff type of r/s in the world right now... boy and gal, gal and gal , boy and boy ~ ~
So wat is the special meaning towards this?? Is it normal for a guy to like or even to love a guy?? Fell upon this conversation ~ ~
" Wat's the different of loving a woman or a man?? It is just loving someone.. does it matter that much."
I was impressed by this conversation that i heard....
Ppl out there... let this phrase run in your mind now... slowly think it in a simple concept of liking someone.... does it really apply to the sexual gender when it comes to liking or loving someone....
Sensitive topic to many out there....
Another thing... was listening to a song, lyrics was about a person breaking down after a r/s... and the song just went on telling her that ~ ~
Actually she does not really love that man as much as she felt so.... was it just a habit or was it really love?? Telling her that she does not love that guy that much, there was no need for her to feel that bad.. just time to learn to let go....
INteresting... i have this friend who is frequently having a Emo~~ing session whenever he is down... he would like to go drink and often sing those very sad or should i say sentimental love songs.... creating a even more emo atmosphere ~ ~
Remember i got affected that nite cos of some song... did sth really stupid ~ ~ well i guess i cannot say i regretted it or wat cos it aint going to help ~~ LESSON LEARNT!!!!!! :)
Feeling quite hype but also sad today..
Came back from my holiday... was really relaxed throughout... but once back home.. i lost sth.. or should i say someone... :) really special someone.. Guess not much ppl know about it ~ ~ to those who know, it might sound absurd as it aint really often u heard of thigns like that....
The things and happening... just made the memories so wonderful.. Never.. and i mean never was there some other that made things that minor seems so impt...
Missed the mornings i always longed to look forward..
Missed the nite when the conversation seem forever and yet so fast....
Hate the silly arguements that often occurred.. but yet again... who actually bothered about that except U :)
I miss someone... never knew how to explain.. always dumbfounded by your qns.. caught watching video instead of replying u.. hahaha :)
Adore the " I HATE U "
just gladly enjoy the moment of 'airtime' <<<< U guys will never know >>>>
Where have u been..
I am waiting.. really waiting...
So wat is the special meaning towards this?? Is it normal for a guy to like or even to love a guy?? Fell upon this conversation ~ ~
" Wat's the different of loving a woman or a man?? It is just loving someone.. does it matter that much."
I was impressed by this conversation that i heard....
Ppl out there... let this phrase run in your mind now... slowly think it in a simple concept of liking someone.... does it really apply to the sexual gender when it comes to liking or loving someone....
Sensitive topic to many out there....
Another thing... was listening to a song, lyrics was about a person breaking down after a r/s... and the song just went on telling her that ~ ~
Actually she does not really love that man as much as she felt so.... was it just a habit or was it really love?? Telling her that she does not love that guy that much, there was no need for her to feel that bad.. just time to learn to let go....
INteresting... i have this friend who is frequently having a Emo~~ing session whenever he is down... he would like to go drink and often sing those very sad or should i say sentimental love songs.... creating a even more emo atmosphere ~ ~
Remember i got affected that nite cos of some song... did sth really stupid ~ ~ well i guess i cannot say i regretted it or wat cos it aint going to help ~~ LESSON LEARNT!!!!!! :)
Feeling quite hype but also sad today..
Came back from my holiday... was really relaxed throughout... but once back home.. i lost sth.. or should i say someone... :) really special someone.. Guess not much ppl know about it ~ ~ to those who know, it might sound absurd as it aint really often u heard of thigns like that....
The things and happening... just made the memories so wonderful.. Never.. and i mean never was there some other that made things that minor seems so impt...
Missed the mornings i always longed to look forward..
Missed the nite when the conversation seem forever and yet so fast....
Hate the silly arguements that often occurred.. but yet again... who actually bothered about that except U :)
I miss someone... never knew how to explain.. always dumbfounded by your qns.. caught watching video instead of replying u.. hahaha :)
Adore the " I HATE U "
just gladly enjoy the moment of 'airtime' <<<< U guys will never know >>>>
Where have u been..
I am waiting.. really waiting...
Thursday, November 08, 2007
rotting at home after ~~
Been away for holiday for almost 3 weeks.... finally reach home and have a good rest... but... somehow... i am feeling lost... wonder y ~ ~ how to explain my mood now... i am feeling good in a while... but yet again.. i feeling lost and frustrated in another sia.... arh ~~~ ~ ~
Been talking wif friends about their r/s and such... gals probs, guys probs..... in the end.... they ask me.. wat about me.. when am i getting another gf?? I was like... does it matter?? confused though.... kept wanting to have a company... to share the joy and laughter as well as the sorrow and pain... but... another thing running through my mind is... aint it good to be single right now ??? no additional load and weight on the shoulder... Wat is the balance between this two thing ~ ~
Seeking some support seriously.... mentally ~ ~would be great to have a sibling huh ~ ~ well... i kinda have sibling but den again.. i dun really ~ ~ ~ironic right ~ ~ nvm... not much ppl understand it though ~ ~
Let the song maybe tonite, maybe 2morrow bring u ppl to the feeling i am going through ~~ `:)
Been talking wif friends about their r/s and such... gals probs, guys probs..... in the end.... they ask me.. wat about me.. when am i getting another gf?? I was like... does it matter?? confused though.... kept wanting to have a company... to share the joy and laughter as well as the sorrow and pain... but... another thing running through my mind is... aint it good to be single right now ??? no additional load and weight on the shoulder... Wat is the balance between this two thing ~ ~
Seeking some support seriously.... mentally ~ ~would be great to have a sibling huh ~ ~ well... i kinda have sibling but den again.. i dun really ~ ~ ~ironic right ~ ~ nvm... not much ppl understand it though ~ ~
Let the song maybe tonite, maybe 2morrow bring u ppl to the feeling i am going through ~~ `:)
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Up and away I go ~ ~
Let see....hm... this week... last week... OK lets not see... LAME ~!!!!~
Tiring week once again... Sailing and more sailing coming up.. haiz... now i look like a small black charcoal le sia...hahha... watever it is... I look like a Malay le la... hahahahahaha
yawn... past few days.. cannot sleep properly.. wondered y...
BiBoooo ~ ~ @@@@!!!@$$$%%%^^^&&&&***())
Crazy... finally going oversea this month end... China ~ ~ ~Wooooo... Shanghai... lets hope it is going to be damn interesting.. need some spice in the trip... Snag...hahahaa Yawn ~ ~tired tired.. tired. tired... ok... getting stupid...
I am a Flirt... hehehehhee!!!!!
Tiring week once again... Sailing and more sailing coming up.. haiz... now i look like a small black charcoal le sia...hahha... watever it is... I look like a Malay le la... hahahahahaha
yawn... past few days.. cannot sleep properly.. wondered y...
BiBoooo ~ ~ @@@@!!!@$$$%%%^^^&&&&***())
Crazy... finally going oversea this month end... China ~ ~ ~Wooooo... Shanghai... lets hope it is going to be damn interesting.. need some spice in the trip... Snag...hahahaa Yawn ~ ~tired tired.. tired. tired... ok... getting stupid...
I am a Flirt... hehehehhee!!!!!
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Dark grey sky...
kinda feel lost suddenly... aint sure wat is going on... but i am lost in my track... choices out there are much much more... would i be stuck here like this...
Things around are started to get messed up... was at home mostly the whole day.. staring at myself... asking myself this and that... till a point... why am i doing this... ever since certain things happened, i just kept walking in circle...
seems to be like a joke...I am the joke... many things just seem to reflect back to me... even right now... the things i wan to blog out aint really coming out... i am feeling so trapped... trapped in the world i made... where is the key??? It is just outside the window.... but i cannot reach it myself... would there be someone to help me... Pls.....
Recently.. i had a dream.... was about a family.... wif my face in it.... but as the dream goes on slowly... i drifted out of the picture.... further and further away..... no matter how hard and fast i tried to run... it just aint getting any closer.... slowly, i saw my mum face........ that was the final straw......
broke down totally.... crushed by the picture and brought down hard on the floor.... I cried.....
Late nites.... without sleep...
memories faded slowly... looking forward to the very new day when i had yet to finish the late troubled nite as i am going through again now....
Thought i had already faced it again and again... but..... like some people say.... i just aint as strong as i looked....
i act like a kid....
i wan to be like a baby...
i wan.... just wat do i wan????
sniff ~ ~
sadness filled my nose again.............
i slapped myself hard today.... come to sense man.... yet again... the pain added a smile... the smile i used to hang on... just as fake....
Let me be.....
my world is trapped...
who will i allowed ??
allowed to open the door to the world of mine...
trust me... it aint easy.... those who have tried know it....
I was slowly made to be a loner... not wat i wanted.. but den again... it might just be wat i was suppose to be in the first place....
i miss the blue sky.......
Things around are started to get messed up... was at home mostly the whole day.. staring at myself... asking myself this and that... till a point... why am i doing this... ever since certain things happened, i just kept walking in circle...
seems to be like a joke...I am the joke... many things just seem to reflect back to me... even right now... the things i wan to blog out aint really coming out... i am feeling so trapped... trapped in the world i made... where is the key??? It is just outside the window.... but i cannot reach it myself... would there be someone to help me... Pls.....
Recently.. i had a dream.... was about a family.... wif my face in it.... but as the dream goes on slowly... i drifted out of the picture.... further and further away..... no matter how hard and fast i tried to run... it just aint getting any closer.... slowly, i saw my mum face........ that was the final straw......
broke down totally.... crushed by the picture and brought down hard on the floor.... I cried.....
Late nites.... without sleep...
memories faded slowly... looking forward to the very new day when i had yet to finish the late troubled nite as i am going through again now....
Thought i had already faced it again and again... but..... like some people say.... i just aint as strong as i looked....
i act like a kid....
i wan to be like a baby...
i wan.... just wat do i wan????
sniff ~ ~
sadness filled my nose again.............
i slapped myself hard today.... come to sense man.... yet again... the pain added a smile... the smile i used to hang on... just as fake....
Let me be.....
my world is trapped...
who will i allowed ??
allowed to open the door to the world of mine...
trust me... it aint easy.... those who have tried know it....
I was slowly made to be a loner... not wat i wanted.. but den again... it might just be wat i was suppose to be in the first place....
i miss the blue sky.......
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Hey Hey Hey ~ ~
Really tired... yawn... Thinking so so far away... the heart aint here wif me tonite... Gone wif it into the far end of another country....
Let me recalled...... Ah...
Would'nt it be nice if U are back to the best moment of your life ?? regardless if it is few years ago or to the extend of being a baby... No worries yeah ~ ~ahhaha
BUt den again... i would have to do this... SLAP U HARD IN THE FACE and say " WAKE UP DUDE, IT AINT GOING TO HAPPEN..."
hahhahhaahahhaaaaa.... face it, live wif the life, remember the memories and pls.... Look ahead in life... IF not, it would just be as tiring as before...
Looking forward... really forward to many things... :)
One thing i am sure... I had never felt so good before in my life.... Trust me when i said this... :) Lovely nite huh??? BUT NO STARS>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<< Grrrrrrr.....
Lets see, how to u define the impt of money??? would u be contented wif just the right amt of money to just survive like a very average family ??? ask yourself... let me know if u can ~ ~ :)
Let me recalled...... Ah...
Would'nt it be nice if U are back to the best moment of your life ?? regardless if it is few years ago or to the extend of being a baby... No worries yeah ~ ~ahhaha
BUt den again... i would have to do this... SLAP U HARD IN THE FACE and say " WAKE UP DUDE, IT AINT GOING TO HAPPEN..."
hahhahhaahahhaaaaa.... face it, live wif the life, remember the memories and pls.... Look ahead in life... IF not, it would just be as tiring as before...
Looking forward... really forward to many things... :)
One thing i am sure... I had never felt so good before in my life.... Trust me when i said this... :) Lovely nite huh??? BUT NO STARS>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<< Grrrrrrr.....
Lets see, how to u define the impt of money??? would u be contented wif just the right amt of money to just survive like a very average family ??? ask yourself... let me know if u can ~ ~ :)
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
distance apart....
Sipping on the cup of warm tea in the middle of the nite... wondering about one of the many things we share...
Funny to say, the ability of us being able to get into a arguement regardless of the distance so far.. would'nt it be better if we could just sit by each other and graze it through...
Emotion went high... feeling let loose...
Could it have been really you??
mildly saying the words like i never do...
I just stare blank into the sky that the god made for us...
Funny to say, the ability of us being able to get into a arguement regardless of the distance so far.. would'nt it be better if we could just sit by each other and graze it through...
Emotion went high... feeling let loose...
Could it have been really you??
mildly saying the words like i never do...
I just stare blank into the sky that the god made for us...
Sunday, September 02, 2007
I am a flirt<<<< it is a song ~ ~
topic is just a song...hahaha dun get mistaken ~~ hahha so wat ?
wat is life compare to the living thing under the sea ? compare to a flying bird or even the slow crawling snail..
hahha.. y so many ppl say i emo har ?? am i really that emo ??
Tok to me and den again ~~ who do i wan to tok to in the very first place ??
Aint u ~ ~ aint u ,... but just U...
yawn ~ loving the day as it come closer ~~ wonder wat is in store for me ~~ could u spare some clue to me ??
I am a flirt ~ ~ Nice song ~~ so wat if i am a flirt ?? but am i ? gee... hahaha tell me ~~ hahhahaha
Say it right ~~ hahhah yeah ~~ ` i know u like it ~ ~ i know u do ~~
yeah ~ ~
hahahah weee.... so hyper today ~~ freaky ~ ~
Wisdom tooth extraction 2morrow ~ ~oh gee.... wonder would that be a kick in the balls pain ~~ hahhhahah MAd ~ ~
wat is life compare to the living thing under the sea ? compare to a flying bird or even the slow crawling snail..
hahha.. y so many ppl say i emo har ?? am i really that emo ??
Tok to me and den again ~~ who do i wan to tok to in the very first place ??
Aint u ~ ~ aint u ,... but just U...
yawn ~ loving the day as it come closer ~~ wonder wat is in store for me ~~ could u spare some clue to me ??
I am a flirt ~ ~ Nice song ~~ so wat if i am a flirt ?? but am i ? gee... hahaha tell me ~~ hahhahaha
Say it right ~~ hahhah yeah ~~ ` i know u like it ~ ~ i know u do ~~
yeah ~ ~
hahahah weee.... so hyper today ~~ freaky ~ ~
Wisdom tooth extraction 2morrow ~ ~oh gee.... wonder would that be a kick in the balls pain ~~ hahhhahah MAd ~ ~
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
mysteriously....
The world is spinning round and round.. and my heart is turning up side down...
Learning to appreaciate more of the things around me...
wat if.... nah.. there is no wat if...
Life is just kinda short of sth.... but.... wat ?
Learning to appreaciate more of the things around me...
wat if.... nah.. there is no wat if...
Life is just kinda short of sth.... but.... wat ?
Saturday, August 25, 2007
exhausted
kinda drain out from all the busy lifestyle now...
Need to sit down and enjoy my cup of coffee soon...
Wanna have my slice of chocolate cake...
Thinking about the wonderful things in life...
Am tired...
Need a hand...
Need to sit down and enjoy my cup of coffee soon...
Wanna have my slice of chocolate cake...
Thinking about the wonderful things in life...
Am tired...
Need a hand...
Monday, August 20, 2007
dying soon le....
fainted at home.... admitted to SGH, doc say my muscle are breaking down.. might have heart problem... gee...... think i am dying soon...
kana drawn lotsa of blood..hahahahah
been put on the CGE test for at least 15 time...
thanks for the fun cruel world..
got a call from a stranger.. asking me about U... heard that you went drinking and till now they could not find u... and here i am half dead...
They could not find u in hongkong... heard that u are in shenzhen now... nobody can get into contact wif u including me... Come back will ya...
We are just both really sturborn ppl... guess we need to stop playing guessing game... i need u...
kana drawn lotsa of blood..hahahahah
been put on the CGE test for at least 15 time...
thanks for the fun cruel world..
got a call from a stranger.. asking me about U... heard that you went drinking and till now they could not find u... and here i am half dead...
They could not find u in hongkong... heard that u are in shenzhen now... nobody can get into contact wif u including me... Come back will ya...
We are just both really sturborn ppl... guess we need to stop playing guessing game... i need u...
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Wat a Fook UP day...
haiz... kana accuse of doing sth i did not... FOOK ~ ~ ..|.. cannot tahan this shit... ppl there are just plain dumb.. pushing this and that away... never get appreciated after the hard work... only kana fuck for nth...
DO also kana FUCK
Don't do also kana fuck
Do wrong also kana fuck
Dunno how to do also kana fuck
DEN COME AND TEACH US HOW TO DO LA..... Government pay u come here and SLEEP HAR ~ ~ act like a fucking big shot.. useless shit.. ~ ~ still try to act like we owe u a living... KAOZZZZ
It is not the place or the workload that makes us rebellious... it is the lousy leader we have ~ ~
Treat us like dirtbag only reflect back to u FREAKING SHIT BAG............
Cannot believe I have to go through this...
WORSE... CANNOT EXPLAIN when i freaking dun even know wat the hell is going on at times.......
WHAT a stupid ass this is... DAMn... ~ ~ Totally lost it today... threw temper at my other friends instead...ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I need to get away from there for some times...
Guess this year, i would be spending my birthday like a angry man........
2morrow still got to see them again...HAiz... life aint easy in there...
or should i say, it aint life there....
DO also kana FUCK
Don't do also kana fuck
Do wrong also kana fuck
Dunno how to do also kana fuck
DEN COME AND TEACH US HOW TO DO LA..... Government pay u come here and SLEEP HAR ~ ~ act like a fucking big shot.. useless shit.. ~ ~ still try to act like we owe u a living... KAOZZZZ
It is not the place or the workload that makes us rebellious... it is the lousy leader we have ~ ~
Treat us like dirtbag only reflect back to u FREAKING SHIT BAG............
Cannot believe I have to go through this...
WORSE... CANNOT EXPLAIN when i freaking dun even know wat the hell is going on at times.......
WHAT a stupid ass this is... DAMn... ~ ~ Totally lost it today... threw temper at my other friends instead...ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I need to get away from there for some times...
Guess this year, i would be spending my birthday like a angry man........
2morrow still got to see them again...HAiz... life aint easy in there...
or should i say, it aint life there....
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Saturday, August 04, 2007
aiyoooo
hahaahaha.. who is the last to people that post the comment ???hahha... i am not a nice guy la... hahaha so not much of a lost... the other comment... reallly is ..... all the way... :)
Tired....
Tired....
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Wat a dinner ~ ~
hahaha...Another interesting dinner from Hk ~ ~~~ Sakae Sushi with another different flavour this time :)
The best... the dessert ~ ~ A huge coconut with birdnest and ginseng in it..... Hand made From HongKong.... my oh my ~ ~ how sweet can one be???
I am in love ~ ~ ~ ` :)
When will the time come??
Waiting...just waiting..
Day by day, time passes...
wonder at time if it is a dream....
but den again... does it matter???
so be it... time will tell :)
it has been long.... feel the feeling... touch me... let me feel your presence ~ `
The best... the dessert ~ ~ A huge coconut with birdnest and ginseng in it..... Hand made From HongKong.... my oh my ~ ~ how sweet can one be???
I am in love ~ ~ ~ ` :)
When will the time come??
Waiting...just waiting..
Day by day, time passes...
wonder at time if it is a dream....
but den again... does it matter???
so be it... time will tell :)
it has been long.... feel the feeling... touch me... let me feel your presence ~ `
Saturday, July 28, 2007
stupid me...
Aiyoooooooo dumb me.... threw my key in my bike seats and lock it wif my wallet in it.... haizzzzzz
Have to spend some stupid cash on it yet again.... haizzzz
long nite to go.... wondered if there is sth for me do?? are there ???
guess my room is one thing i can do.. PACK UP...hahahaha
lazy me never pack my room again... hahahaa...
feel like swimming ...hahaha jump into the pool and go crazy in it...hahha
nut case..
Have to spend some stupid cash on it yet again.... haizzzz
long nite to go.... wondered if there is sth for me do?? are there ???
guess my room is one thing i can do.. PACK UP...hahahaha
lazy me never pack my room again... hahahaa...
feel like swimming ...hahaha jump into the pool and go crazy in it...hahha
nut case..
Wat I wan ??
There is always alot of things that each and everyone of us would like to have in life.......
Let say for instance.... Money,Car,House,Family-----basic stuff that many ppl would wan.......
And when time goes by.... ppl would appreciate if they have a partner in life.... a sould mate, a listening ear ~ ~ How about U ???
What would you really want in life ??
Would U envy those that already have the basics in life???
What about seeing other with their partner holding hands walking down the street??
Which would u rather have ?? Or which would u rather not have ~ ~ ~
Just woke up and kinda feel like staring out to the window as the rain pour down from the unbelievable sky above.....
Made me think about some stuff I talked with my friends yesterday...
Things aint going to change till u learnt to let go.... Well, maybe at times, somethings are not meant to let go ~ ~ ~ What do you people out there think ???
My hand is really rough from the things i do ~ ~ ~
How about yours ??
Do you believe in Karma?? hahahahaa I guess many people believe in it... Me ??? i believe in Karma too.... But more on Karma Sutra....hahhahhaaha ~ ~ ~ ~ ~~ ~
Things like retribution ~ ~ ~ Do you wish for that to happened to the ppl around ya ?? and do u curse your last bf/gf about wat u are now ??? Grow up ~ ~ ~ Nobody in the world owe us anything......
Kinda like to have kids now.... hahahahh ~ ~ crazy thinking huh ~ ~ but i guess the idea of having a early family and a big family turn me on ~ ~ ~ :P
Any takers out there ??? Kidding ~ ~haahaaha
Let say for instance.... Money,Car,House,Family-----basic stuff that many ppl would wan.......
And when time goes by.... ppl would appreciate if they have a partner in life.... a sould mate, a listening ear ~ ~ How about U ???
What would you really want in life ??
Would U envy those that already have the basics in life???
What about seeing other with their partner holding hands walking down the street??
Which would u rather have ?? Or which would u rather not have ~ ~ ~
Just woke up and kinda feel like staring out to the window as the rain pour down from the unbelievable sky above.....
Made me think about some stuff I talked with my friends yesterday...
Things aint going to change till u learnt to let go.... Well, maybe at times, somethings are not meant to let go ~ ~ ~ What do you people out there think ???
My hand is really rough from the things i do ~ ~ ~
How about yours ??
Do you believe in Karma?? hahahahaa I guess many people believe in it... Me ??? i believe in Karma too.... But more on Karma Sutra....hahhahhaaha ~ ~ ~ ~ ~~ ~
Things like retribution ~ ~ ~ Do you wish for that to happened to the ppl around ya ?? and do u curse your last bf/gf about wat u are now ??? Grow up ~ ~ ~ Nobody in the world owe us anything......
Kinda like to have kids now.... hahahahh ~ ~ crazy thinking huh ~ ~ but i guess the idea of having a early family and a big family turn me on ~ ~ ~ :P
Any takers out there ??? Kidding ~ ~haahaaha
Felt it ~ ~ ~
Nowadays... i just sit around and start feeling this special feeling.....
Got scolded by some friends, but this feeling is really good,
Long weekend this few days, need a good rest, been tired....... really tired..........
but all these goes away when my com is on....... Y ?? How??
Gee...... Amazing it is ~ ~
Would there be a day when it would not be the com i will be smiling at??
hahahaa.... the log is speaking ~ ~ Li Li lo lo....
God i am toking to myself.... hahaha
Not making sense anymore... SLap myself hard....
time is passing by Slowly....
JUst kinda wanna say....... " "<<<< special....
Got scolded by some friends, but this feeling is really good,
Long weekend this few days, need a good rest, been tired....... really tired..........
but all these goes away when my com is on....... Y ?? How??
Gee...... Amazing it is ~ ~
Would there be a day when it would not be the com i will be smiling at??
hahahaa.... the log is speaking ~ ~ Li Li lo lo....
God i am toking to myself.... hahaha
Not making sense anymore... SLap myself hard....
time is passing by Slowly....
JUst kinda wanna say....... " "<<<< special....
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Surprise surprise ~ ~
Back in the early afternoon ~ ~~ took a nap after chatting wif someone.....
Woke up wif a wonderful surprise ~ ~ :)
A early dinner send from someone indirectly From HongKong ~ ~ ~
Guess this was really a very sweet thing to wake up and found out about it ~ ~ :)
Very Happy ~ ~ thanks ~ ~
Woke up wif a wonderful surprise ~ ~ :)
A early dinner send from someone indirectly From HongKong ~ ~ ~
Guess this was really a very sweet thing to wake up and found out about it ~ ~ :)
Very Happy ~ ~ thanks ~ ~
Monday, July 16, 2007
YES !!!!!!
Was there a day when u stare at sth so hard and after a while... breathe out a heavy breathe and tell yourself that u feel wonderful today ??
Nowadays I feel really refresh ~ ~ though there are shit happening around me everyday.. but den when i think about it, hm.... things aint really that bad compare to the past... HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA ~ ~~ ~ ~ ~ ~~~ ~
Every morning, things always start off in a sweet way ya :)
Every nite, things would end in a lovely way too :)
In the day, certain things might make it seen so unworthly of wat is happening...... but den again who can expect things to always work out perfectly in everyones' wants???
Been offer a 4months trip to go oversea to serve part of the Ns life........ Should I ???
4months seem really long......
Wat would things turn out after that ???
Many things to consider be4 making ths decision........
4months..............................................................................
nvm... it is a choice to make and by me.... :)
freaking week for me.... NOT really good but also not really that bad.. gee.....
wat am i toking about ? piangzzzzzzzz
yawn.......... everyday is a tiring day after being posted to this new place...
life seem to take for a slower pace now....
hm.... aint it good thing ??? I wondered ~ ~ like a old man taking a stroll down the lonely beach thinking of the good old times ~ ~ I wish.....................
Kinda feel like having a good time blasting my music... ahaha but damn.. it is late now... sure kana screw left and right if i do so... gee....
Sweating like shit now... been long since i worked out... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ` ~ ~ ~ ~ need a break from the singapore space ~ ~hahahaha...............
Let me feel the moonlight of your country will ya :)
Nowadays I feel really refresh ~ ~ though there are shit happening around me everyday.. but den when i think about it, hm.... things aint really that bad compare to the past... HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA ~ ~~ ~ ~ ~ ~~~ ~
Every morning, things always start off in a sweet way ya :)
Every nite, things would end in a lovely way too :)
In the day, certain things might make it seen so unworthly of wat is happening...... but den again who can expect things to always work out perfectly in everyones' wants???
Been offer a 4months trip to go oversea to serve part of the Ns life........ Should I ???
4months seem really long......
Wat would things turn out after that ???
Many things to consider be4 making ths decision........
4months..............................................................................
nvm... it is a choice to make and by me.... :)
freaking week for me.... NOT really good but also not really that bad.. gee.....
wat am i toking about ? piangzzzzzzzz
yawn.......... everyday is a tiring day after being posted to this new place...
life seem to take for a slower pace now....
hm.... aint it good thing ??? I wondered ~ ~ like a old man taking a stroll down the lonely beach thinking of the good old times ~ ~ I wish.....................
Kinda feel like having a good time blasting my music... ahaha but damn.. it is late now... sure kana screw left and right if i do so... gee....
Sweating like shit now... been long since i worked out... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ` ~ ~ ~ ~ need a break from the singapore space ~ ~hahahaha...............
Let me feel the moonlight of your country will ya :)
Monday, July 02, 2007
Ta ta da da ~ ~
Ah... after a long 16 days of mc... refreshed.. but not looking forward to the next sucky life at the now place... hm... but just i would just have to bear wif it ~ ~~
THings might just not be that bad after all ~~ ~
But a week out there would serve to be entiringly boring... hahahhah ~ ~ especially without a computer.... MY computer... hahhaha..
Hope time pass by quickly and dunno wat i wan to say anymore... Geeeeee
THings might just not be that bad after all ~~ ~
But a week out there would serve to be entiringly boring... hahahhah ~ ~ especially without a computer.... MY computer... hahhaha..
Hope time pass by quickly and dunno wat i wan to say anymore... Geeeeee
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Geee.....
First to anon... ~ guess that is my way of expression my monotonous feeling each and everytime i blog... :) this is Me ~ ~ :
Tired lifestyle huh ?? wat have I been doing lately ?? Got to know some fine interesting ppl ~ ~ nightlife in the club seems like a routine to the extend, smoking a cig is no longer wat i used to see and believe in..... drinking water has already change to downing the hardcorn liquor day after day......
Friends around me told me that I have change so much after the last r/s.....
hey, dun blame me k ?? who dun change after a phase in life ya ~ ~
When life take a toll, wat would u do ??
Toughen up yourself and walked on?? or simply lie flat on the hard cold floor and await someone to pick u on ??
:) dun look at me ~ ~ i aint understand which category do i belong too...
So tired... seem to have lost that glow...
will it be gone forever ???
Whenever i Kinda need a shoulder to lean on and when i look around..... emptiness filled the room.....but den again.... mother nature have been kind, the wonderful invention of 'Internet' , I can now look for a invisible shoulder.... Thank You ~~
Learnt that the people involved in life might just be the critical factor to wat u might become...
Tell me... Am I supposed to be like wat i should now ??
Nearly got into a bike accident this afternoon....
knocked my head again some stupid metal after that...
Whole body feeling weak....
Sick??
Gee...
Lucifer is looking for another friend to join him....
Tired lifestyle huh ?? wat have I been doing lately ?? Got to know some fine interesting ppl ~ ~ nightlife in the club seems like a routine to the extend, smoking a cig is no longer wat i used to see and believe in..... drinking water has already change to downing the hardcorn liquor day after day......
Friends around me told me that I have change so much after the last r/s.....
hey, dun blame me k ?? who dun change after a phase in life ya ~ ~
When life take a toll, wat would u do ??
Toughen up yourself and walked on?? or simply lie flat on the hard cold floor and await someone to pick u on ??
:) dun look at me ~ ~ i aint understand which category do i belong too...
So tired... seem to have lost that glow...
will it be gone forever ???
Whenever i Kinda need a shoulder to lean on and when i look around..... emptiness filled the room.....but den again.... mother nature have been kind, the wonderful invention of 'Internet' , I can now look for a invisible shoulder.... Thank You ~~
Learnt that the people involved in life might just be the critical factor to wat u might become...
Tell me... Am I supposed to be like wat i should now ??
Nearly got into a bike accident this afternoon....
knocked my head again some stupid metal after that...
Whole body feeling weak....
Sick??
Gee...
Lucifer is looking for another friend to join him....
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Poor man ~
haha... anyone wan to donate $$ to me now??? hahhaha
Kinda poor after today... donated 90% of wat i have .. and that is going to make me so poor now... haiz.....
HAppy though... at least i can start to earn again ~ if not i get stuck there again ~ gee.... a bit drunk le ~ yawn ~ `
Kinda poor after today... donated 90% of wat i have .. and that is going to make me so poor now... haiz.....
HAppy though... at least i can start to earn again ~ if not i get stuck there again ~ gee.... a bit drunk le ~ yawn ~ `
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
TUmmy ache ~
Gee..... had a tummy ache... stay home almost the whole day till late evening... went have a super late dinner.... haiz.... guess i am thinking too much lately.... RELAX LA>.....hahahahhh
BOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOMBER in TOWN>>>>>> !!!!!! hahhah
BOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOMBER in TOWN>>>>>> !!!!!! hahhah
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
still ~ ~
Air is still after the rain..... still yet to be in the bed .... 5.31am.... wat am i thinking ??
looking at some photos of the past... recapturing some memories ~~ and smiling at some.... aint it good to recalled the good times u have in the past.... the laughters and smile.... the stupid things u done and the ridicular facial expression u posed for the camera ?? hahahhahahaaa...
Cheers ~ ~ ~
looking at some photos of the past... recapturing some memories ~~ and smiling at some.... aint it good to recalled the good times u have in the past.... the laughters and smile.... the stupid things u done and the ridicular facial expression u posed for the camera ?? hahahhahahaaa...
Cheers ~ ~ ~
The Rain ~ ~
3.26am...Just came back from supper.... met up wif a close friend... a friend of 17 years.... gee.... imagine... how many 17 years of friendship do u have ??
Got caught up in the rain.... was thinking... wat would the other side of the ppl be doing if caught in the rain... hahaha... LAME>>>>>><<<<<<<
Carried on riding in the rain.... drenched as expected.... was thinking.... Y are there such things as regrets??? I am learning not to have anymore regrets in my life... but guess, many a times... there aint a lot of choices to make huh.....
Having to live your life as it is the last ~ ~ how many ppl actually do that ??? well... i used to.... but not anymore... having a feeling like " gee... so wat if it is the last day of my life........ ?"
Who would u wan to spend wif on the very last day of yours ??
Family?
Friends?
Close Kins?
Lover?
Wife/husband?
Kids?
or even......... Alone ???
Many people will chose family or wife/husband or even lover..... but will there be ppl that choose to be alone?? Living the last day and dying off with only the air and dust by your side.....
I bet there are......
To continue living wif the news of your closed one leaving the world would even be more painful..... well... how do i know??
I came to experience it and learnt that hard a few times.......
Past is a scary Photograph........
Many thoughts came to me when i was riding in the rain for the past 1 1/2 hrs........ guess i ride to half of sg.... ate at least 6 supper after sending my friend back.... even the aunty asked if i was alright.....hahahaha guess the image of a drenched guy eating non-stop at a coffee shop seems too scary huh.....
Stuffed myself till almost burst..... hahahaha... enjoyment huh.... the Pain in my knee have started to take effect again.... gee.... guess it is time to say bye bye to competative basketball games huh .............
June,July,August...... Friends birthday coming up one by one.... gee.... friend birthday celebration on 27 july in a hotel....... gee.... guess i am going there alone.... haizz.... nvm... kinda used to the life of being single since it was almost wat i have always been....
Soon my birthday... gee.... wat am going to do this year... lets see... hang around in a pub and chill while drinking alone this year is wat i have in mind..... or rather stay at home and have some red wine?? Been long since I went drinking alone...... lets see.... 4 months ??? hahhaa... remember the last time I went drinking wif some friends but ended up going to another pub and drank a bottle of chivas alone.... gee.... But lucky, carolina and Ken actually went down looking for me at 4+ in the morning..... Thanks..... guess that was really wat i needed at that time...
Friends.... wat kind of ppl are we talking about here ?? how do you consider your friends ??
And wat do we seek for in friends ?? companionship??? listening ear or just another tool to used each other ??
Which way are u looking at ??? Think carefully be4 anwsering.......... Cos i been thinking really hard..... :)
Recently been talking to someone online... someone over the other part of the world...someone i dunno and have never met...kinda special someone... and thanks to that person... I have grown happier.... :)
Thank you..... Hope i had brought some joy and laughter to u :)
And Pls to all... I aint emo..... i just like to think deep..... hahahahahahahaha
Got caught up in the rain.... was thinking... wat would the other side of the ppl be doing if caught in the rain... hahaha... LAME>>>>>><<<<<<<
Carried on riding in the rain.... drenched as expected.... was thinking.... Y are there such things as regrets??? I am learning not to have anymore regrets in my life... but guess, many a times... there aint a lot of choices to make huh.....
Having to live your life as it is the last ~ ~ how many ppl actually do that ??? well... i used to.... but not anymore... having a feeling like " gee... so wat if it is the last day of my life........ ?"
Who would u wan to spend wif on the very last day of yours ??
Family?
Friends?
Close Kins?
Lover?
Wife/husband?
Kids?
or even......... Alone ???
Many people will chose family or wife/husband or even lover..... but will there be ppl that choose to be alone?? Living the last day and dying off with only the air and dust by your side.....
I bet there are......
To continue living wif the news of your closed one leaving the world would even be more painful..... well... how do i know??
I came to experience it and learnt that hard a few times.......
Past is a scary Photograph........
Many thoughts came to me when i was riding in the rain for the past 1 1/2 hrs........ guess i ride to half of sg.... ate at least 6 supper after sending my friend back.... even the aunty asked if i was alright.....hahahaha guess the image of a drenched guy eating non-stop at a coffee shop seems too scary huh.....
Stuffed myself till almost burst..... hahahaha... enjoyment huh.... the Pain in my knee have started to take effect again.... gee.... guess it is time to say bye bye to competative basketball games huh .............
June,July,August...... Friends birthday coming up one by one.... gee.... friend birthday celebration on 27 july in a hotel....... gee.... guess i am going there alone.... haizz.... nvm... kinda used to the life of being single since it was almost wat i have always been....
Soon my birthday... gee.... wat am going to do this year... lets see... hang around in a pub and chill while drinking alone this year is wat i have in mind..... or rather stay at home and have some red wine?? Been long since I went drinking alone...... lets see.... 4 months ??? hahhaa... remember the last time I went drinking wif some friends but ended up going to another pub and drank a bottle of chivas alone.... gee.... But lucky, carolina and Ken actually went down looking for me at 4+ in the morning..... Thanks..... guess that was really wat i needed at that time...
Friends.... wat kind of ppl are we talking about here ?? how do you consider your friends ??
And wat do we seek for in friends ?? companionship??? listening ear or just another tool to used each other ??
Which way are u looking at ??? Think carefully be4 anwsering.......... Cos i been thinking really hard..... :)
Recently been talking to someone online... someone over the other part of the world...someone i dunno and have never met...kinda special someone... and thanks to that person... I have grown happier.... :)
Thank you..... Hope i had brought some joy and laughter to u :)
And Pls to all... I aint emo..... i just like to think deep..... hahahahahahahaha
Sunday, June 24, 2007
a moody day.....
dunno y the days started off quite moody.... and till at nite.. I am still quite moody... hm.... dunno y.... kinda hate this feeling... stupid...
Recent happening ~ ~
Got posted to a new place.... met some very interesting ppl.... got into hospital for my knee injury.... and had some nice memories to think about....
Gee.. ever wonder when was the last time u actually sat down and think about wat u have been doing for the past 6 month?? Wat was the focus and purpose of the things u had done??? and Y did u do so???
Been thinking of certain things like that... kinda bored me though but at least it makes me get back on my track... better den swaying more and more off the course.... hahhaha... All thanks to my 16 days MC....hahahaha had lotsa rest and got back my focus... well there was someone else that actually told me life wasn't that bad... and look on the better side...
BEen a long time since anyone told me that.... it was a gentle pat on the head for me.... appreciated it... THank You....... it was a very nice chat wif ya... :)
Decide to make some new changes in life again... life is great... and I wan it to be even better....hahahahahahahaahh ~ ~ ~ Cheers to freedom ~ ~ ~
The never dying spirits will never say goodbye to the master of bravery ~ ~
Gee.. ever wonder when was the last time u actually sat down and think about wat u have been doing for the past 6 month?? Wat was the focus and purpose of the things u had done??? and Y did u do so???
Been thinking of certain things like that... kinda bored me though but at least it makes me get back on my track... better den swaying more and more off the course.... hahhaha... All thanks to my 16 days MC....hahahaha had lotsa rest and got back my focus... well there was someone else that actually told me life wasn't that bad... and look on the better side...
BEen a long time since anyone told me that.... it was a gentle pat on the head for me.... appreciated it... THank You....... it was a very nice chat wif ya... :)
Decide to make some new changes in life again... life is great... and I wan it to be even better....hahahahahahahaahh ~ ~ ~ Cheers to freedom ~ ~ ~
The never dying spirits will never say goodbye to the master of bravery ~ ~
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Injury.....
haiz... just came back from the hospital.... haiz... knee injury... seems serious this time... got 16 days of MC and 3 months of light duties... gee.. moreover still need to go for therapy... aiyoo.... stupid stupid stupid.... guess i have to be a dumb dumb and stay at home always liaoz... haizz.... there goes the fun i can have in the mean time... BOOOOOOOOo... ahhahaha better hope that there is no need for a operation.. IF NOT AHHHHHHHHHHHH.. pain leh..
Monday, May 21, 2007
Drunk ` ~~ hahhahha
aiyoo.. got wasted on sat... dunno wat got into me... suddenly damn high.. drink drank and next thing i know... drunk ~ ~ ~hahhahahha lucky got friends around me ~~ hahah sisters ~ ~ ~ thanks for the tolerating my rubbish again ~~ hahahahahahahhaah
Monday, April 30, 2007
fat fat fat
Gee... getting fatter and fatter liaoz ~~ dying of fats... hahahaha better start exercising sia ~ ~ but farking lazy nowadays.... aiyooo the bugs are back ~ ~ li li lo lo lo li li lo lo
Monday, April 23, 2007
just as it is ~ ~
When life get down and boring ... wat would u do ??? When they are asshole looking at wat this blog is saying... guess wat i would SAY ?? FUCK OFF SHIT HEAD ~ ~and You know wat i mean ~ ~ RIGHT ??
Kaoz...... Watever ~ ~ Life goes on and on ~ ~ heard a very interesting theory from a friend.. being in the middle of 20-40 makes a difference in life... and I am so going to it happened... ~ ~ hahahaha... But first... it is time to remind myself how poor or how rich can a person be... which ever i have been through and watever has happened ~ ~ MOVE ON MAN.... tell that to me ~ ~hahahahahahaa.... got to be wat it has to be huh ~ ~ lets just hope everything goes back to normal ~ ~ no more screw up ~ ~ How bad can it be ??
Met some very interesting ppl recently ~ ~ gals from FHM, boss of a pub, boss of nike and some rich ass kids.... wonder wat are life for them compare to the many others... ~ ~tok to them and actually not much of a diff ~ hahah screwed ~ ~ kaoz... tired le... update another time ~
Kaoz...... Watever ~ ~ Life goes on and on ~ ~ heard a very interesting theory from a friend.. being in the middle of 20-40 makes a difference in life... and I am so going to it happened... ~ ~ hahahaha... But first... it is time to remind myself how poor or how rich can a person be... which ever i have been through and watever has happened ~ ~ MOVE ON MAN.... tell that to me ~ ~hahahahahahaa.... got to be wat it has to be huh ~ ~ lets just hope everything goes back to normal ~ ~ no more screw up ~ ~ How bad can it be ??
Met some very interesting ppl recently ~ ~ gals from FHM, boss of a pub, boss of nike and some rich ass kids.... wonder wat are life for them compare to the many others... ~ ~tok to them and actually not much of a diff ~ hahah screwed ~ ~ kaoz... tired le... update another time ~
Friday, April 20, 2007
Friday, April 06, 2007
The period in my life ~ ~
They said there are ups and downs in life...... But what i am facing now is real DOWN..... kinda did a grave mistake in life recently......... and things happened in my course..... geeezzz.... now i am a person hated by the world ~ ~ well... so said... haizz.z.z.z.z. maybe this is the way of wat I should go through after wat i have done ~ ~ dumb ass ~~~ haizzz.z..z.z.z.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Confused ~ ~
Gee... got myself into a state that makes me feel so lost...... going for the MPRB the next coming week ~ ~ gee... Another chance to ask myself what am I doing here ?? Being a officer of SAF is something I wanted to be. But as a naval officer ? gee.... struck me deep down... the knowledge and intensity of academic result requirement is sth I did not seem to handle well... Basic Qns ?? maybe.... but guess not the time to blame anyone ~ ~ kinda need to do some reflection myself, but guess as long as You can study well in here, things should go well even though there are people here that makes me wonder how they go in OCS in the very first place ~ ~
People that think of only themselves ~ ~ gee.... back stabber ?? ya ya.... I dun care... Such people actually exist in OCS, well guess there are this type of people everywhere that hide themselves so well from the big shots.... Talk so much nice things infront of others, turn their back and start another great fantasy tale ~ ~ hahahaa... makes me wonder y ? Do not like that person ?? den just keep away or dun bother about that person mah... y go around talking shitty stuff ?? hypocrites....... Ahhhhhh ~ ~~ think i just need to vexed it out in here ~ ~ unity ??? Each division seems to be very unity but little conflicts happened in between and others in the division does not seems to want to help solve the problem... guess I am guilty of it as well ~ ~ hahahahahaaaaaaa... crap ~ ~ ~ To the point that makes me wonder y bother so much since others dun care.... haiz.... guess I have changed alot during the training in MIDS wing.... the enviroment made me another person.... true friends in here are few... but at least there still is....
Nick Tan, Junjie, hong rui, heng de, chun yang, felix ,benjamin and James ~ ~
People that I can trust on if I ever need help, especially Junjie and James ~ ~ without the both of them by me, guess I would have give up long time ago ~ ~ Junjie being the ever supportive friend ~ ~ though he might make people wonder why is he so ' straight' and so regiment, but that is the way he is and will stay that way no matter wat, never rejecting any help when require and always fight to the end regardless wat... thumbs up :)
James Brown ~ ~ hahaha... dislike this person so much in BNT cos he kept wanting me to think the way he thinks... hahaha got into quite a few arguement with him previously but when MSTD came, got to know him so much better, one of the few people that I can rely on if I ever needed help in my academic and never rejected me once... best memories was the astro navigation lack ~ ~ He was like sleeping and not paying attention the first 2 days and I was actually the one teaching him... but when the test came, he became the one teaching me instead... Geee..... Malu... and one more thing, got accused of copying his work by Vishal. haiz... I made an effort to stay up the night before to do the stuff and he say I copied James work.... guess his impression of me was really bad... guess I could only say Sorry ~ ~ James, his attitude as a MXO made me impressed, though many said he did a bad job, but from what I seen, he deserved to get a pat on the back and words of encouragement, 'WELL DONE, My Friend ~ ~"
Back to myself, guess I need some guidance right now, but unsure of who to turn to....Division mates ? DO ? CO ?
haiz.... guess I have to think hard by myself bah ~ ~
People that think of only themselves ~ ~ gee.... back stabber ?? ya ya.... I dun care... Such people actually exist in OCS, well guess there are this type of people everywhere that hide themselves so well from the big shots.... Talk so much nice things infront of others, turn their back and start another great fantasy tale ~ ~ hahahaa... makes me wonder y ? Do not like that person ?? den just keep away or dun bother about that person mah... y go around talking shitty stuff ?? hypocrites....... Ahhhhhh ~ ~~ think i just need to vexed it out in here ~ ~ unity ??? Each division seems to be very unity but little conflicts happened in between and others in the division does not seems to want to help solve the problem... guess I am guilty of it as well ~ ~ hahahahahaaaaaaa... crap ~ ~ ~ To the point that makes me wonder y bother so much since others dun care.... haiz.... guess I have changed alot during the training in MIDS wing.... the enviroment made me another person.... true friends in here are few... but at least there still is....
Nick Tan, Junjie, hong rui, heng de, chun yang, felix ,benjamin and James ~ ~
People that I can trust on if I ever need help, especially Junjie and James ~ ~ without the both of them by me, guess I would have give up long time ago ~ ~ Junjie being the ever supportive friend ~ ~ though he might make people wonder why is he so ' straight' and so regiment, but that is the way he is and will stay that way no matter wat, never rejecting any help when require and always fight to the end regardless wat... thumbs up :)
James Brown ~ ~ hahaha... dislike this person so much in BNT cos he kept wanting me to think the way he thinks... hahaha got into quite a few arguement with him previously but when MSTD came, got to know him so much better, one of the few people that I can rely on if I ever needed help in my academic and never rejected me once... best memories was the astro navigation lack ~ ~ He was like sleeping and not paying attention the first 2 days and I was actually the one teaching him... but when the test came, he became the one teaching me instead... Geee..... Malu... and one more thing, got accused of copying his work by Vishal. haiz... I made an effort to stay up the night before to do the stuff and he say I copied James work.... guess his impression of me was really bad... guess I could only say Sorry ~ ~ James, his attitude as a MXO made me impressed, though many said he did a bad job, but from what I seen, he deserved to get a pat on the back and words of encouragement, 'WELL DONE, My Friend ~ ~"
Back to myself, guess I need some guidance right now, but unsure of who to turn to....Division mates ? DO ? CO ?
haiz.... guess I have to think hard by myself bah ~ ~
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Back from MSTD
Whoooo.. just came back from the 6 week trip... gee.. tiring trip but overall not bad.. at least i learnt so much more den i did in BNT which was a good thing and it indeed was a boast to the knowledge.. especially as a role of the MNO.... ahahahaaha... COoolllll
But throughout the trip, saw a lot of change in many people... maybe even in myself... certain people was just plain selfish i would say... haiz... well that is life but not to fear, there are good souls around to help out as well... but den certain things came to me as a bad thing... got into some problems during the trip which slowly turn into a big issues... gee.... talk to some people and found out why the issue got so big into a woo haa.... haiz... well den again... it is always our words against the officers' words...
Truth can sometime become detorted when a people say this word " I DUN BELIEVE "... well, what can u say if this really happened ??
Just have to listen and really make sure we dun do the same mistake again lo ~ ~ ~haiz,.,.,,,,,,
But throughout the trip, saw a lot of change in many people... maybe even in myself... certain people was just plain selfish i would say... haiz... well that is life but not to fear, there are good souls around to help out as well... but den certain things came to me as a bad thing... got into some problems during the trip which slowly turn into a big issues... gee.... talk to some people and found out why the issue got so big into a woo haa.... haiz... well den again... it is always our words against the officers' words...
Truth can sometime become detorted when a people say this word " I DUN BELIEVE "... well, what can u say if this really happened ??
Just have to listen and really make sure we dun do the same mistake again lo ~ ~ ~haiz,.,.,,,,,,
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